OSAP, baby, OSAP forms came in today! In two weeks, I'm going to be a fucking thousandaire and be scraping by! Aww yeah! But fuck... the way the day started... I didn't think anything good could come of today, so something like this had to happen. This and more. I bought some McDonalds today to celebrate and make me feel better, and some chips to eat during Raw.

But here's the deal... I sit in class today, 2nd class of the day... just waiting for it to start, really. Then in walks one of the girls who sits in front of me. Her face is all beat up, a big cut across her nose, an eye that's taped up in the corner and completely bloodied up.

2 guys beat her up on the weekend. 2 guys. Fuck, angry wasn't and isn't the word and never will be. That kind of shit is pathetic and it makes me sick to the pit of my stomach and to the bottom of my being. I didn't think I'd get over it, I was juiced right up all through class and could barely take notes, I was all jittery and set on kill. I spit on people, they're fucking worthless.

And what the hell can you do when that happens? You feel like such a powerless shit, and I wanted to say something or do something... but by then it must have all been said, and I don't even think I know the girls name.

I doubt it matters that the weird looking guy who sits behind her is enfuriated but has a lot of experience in any kind of consolation she may need. I just doubt it matters. What matters is that two ignorant fucks have signed their own death warrants beating the crap out of a girl. That's pathetic, and I hope the big dumb guys that know her that sit in my row find the fuckers and make them a whack more toothless and a lot more colourful, in the black and blue sense.

You think there's an excuse? Well I don't. I don't think one in a hundred thousand of these cases has any kind of pathetic excuse... I've dealt with loads of women who've belittled me and frustrated me and made me feel violent to no end, but I could never bring myself to something so cowardly and disgusting. And with someone else? Why did it take 2 guys? Big fucking men they must have been. Big fucking men.

I don't know, maybe I'm wrong and maybe I'm extra-sensitive about the issue because of the experience I've had with victims. I see what fucking happens to people because of shit like this and I don't like it. I can only hold my own opinion and it's as uninformed as the next persons... but fuck. What gives someone the ambition and wretched lack of morality to stomp on a girls face like that? Unbelievable.

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