Andrea ...scream, "If you two are going to be fighting over me, then I'm going to leave! I'm sorry that I did this and made you fight! Obviously I'm too much trouble for you guys to handle!" and storm off the bus in a cloud of anger. "Gee," Nick says, "I didn't think she'd do that, I thought she'd, like, grab me and kiss me to make up for it or something. At least, that's what I was hoping she'd do. I'm not really mad at her, but YOU, Brian, I'm mad at you for doing this. You and the others followed me and her everywhere! It's all your fault!" Nick ran off the bus in search for you. He found you standing near the opening of the nearby mall with 5 vaguely familiar young men. Nick sees you walking off and chatting with a boy about your age with bleached blonde hair. Nick soon realizes that these young men are the singing group 'N Sync, and she's walking off with Lance Bass! "I can't believe she's doing this!" Nick yells. *** You cannot believe your good luck! Yet another group of hot guys! Your preferences for men are the ones that can sing and have blonde hair, so either Lance or Justin or perfect for you, you figure, but you like the older men, so you go for Lance, naturally. "Well, where do you want to go, [Name]?" Lance asks you in that deep voice of his. "How about to the beach, I love it there." you say. *** Nick is so stunned that he almost passes out on the street. A swarm of girls recognize him as they are leaving the mall. Nick runs back to the bus and shouts out your name. You turn around, and take your hand from Lance's arm. "What are you doing?! You were fighting, so I figured you didn't want me here! So I left! I hope you're happy now!" Nick screams over the fans' yelling for autographs and hugs, "I was just jealous, but now I realize that I can fogive you, because I love you!" "You what? You just said you loved me, right?" you ask in utter amazment. "Uh, sorry, Lance, maybe we can talk later?" you say as you scribble your phone number and email address on a peice of paper from your purse. "Um, yeah, I guess so, [Name], I'll try to call you, bye." You run up to Nick and push through the screaming girls. He grabs you by the waist and gives you a deep kiss in front of all of those girls. "I can't believe he has a girlfriend!" one girl whispered. "He always said that he was single. I guess he was lying." "I just found this peice of heaven 2 weeks ago, and we've been so busy doing concerts and traveling that we haven't had any time to go to interviews, so no one knew untill now, sorry girls, I'm taken." You stare up into his eyes and get back on the bus and head back to Nick's bunk... Calli ...you both sit down on the bed and start kissing. You can't help but think about how much your life has changed in just two weeks. You also can't help but think about Brian and how you are breaking up the Backstreet Boys. You think that you may have acted like a slut but now you're where you belong. In Nick's arms, on his bed. He makes moves to go further but you think about how most of the other Backstreet Boys are on the bus and could walk in at any given moment. You both start leaning back on the bed, kissing more passionately then you ever have before. "Brian...." you whisper. He's still on your mind. You hope that he didn't hear. "Wha?" Nick exclaims, pulling back a little. "I said we should stop. The other guys could walk in at any moment." you say. Nick looks suspicous but... Shorty ..decides to believe you. He wants to trust you and he loves you so he doesn't want to fight anymore. He kisses you, still looking concerned about what you said. "Allright, we'll stop, I guess." he says and smiles to show that everything is okay. "Thanks. I just don't want anyone walking in on us. Our first time." you explain. Then realize what you said and blush deeply. Nick grins. "That's okay, it's better that we're alone our first time." he says, still grinning. That makes you blush more. ***** "Wait!" a hand grabs your arm as your get off the bus. You know who it is without even looking. Everyone else is off the bus so it must be Brian. "I wanted to talk to you about the other day." Brian says after you've turned around. "What about it?" you ask, knowing just what about it. "I felt something for you when you kissed me and I know you felt something for me." he says as you both sit on the steps. Everyone else has gone into the building and you're alone together. "You're imagining things." you say, not looking into his eyes for fear he'll know the truth. "No I'm not. I know that you felt something." he tries to look into your eyes but you look away. "Look me in the eyes and say you don't feel something for me." Brian demands. You turn to face him. "I love Nick..." you start but that's not what he was asking. "That's not what I told you to say. I told you to tell me that you don't have feelings for me." he says sternly. "I...." you start then you give up "I can't." you say helplessly. Brian grabs you and kisses you. This time, you pull away. "I might have fellings for you but I love Nick." you say. He... M&J Suddenly looks over and sees Nick coming out of the building and he's glaring at you. "Can I talk to you for a minute?" he asks while taking your hand and leading you onto the bus. He looked at you with sad eyes and you thought he was going to cry. "I heard what you said out there. I know we've only been going out for two weeks but I love you so much. I thought you were the one..." he says. "Nick, I..." you start to tell him. "Let me finish. I don't want to spend any more time with someone who dosen't love me back. What I want you to do is go out on a date with Brian. Do whatever you want. I want you to see which one of us you love. If you find you love me we can put everything behind us and start over. If you find you love Brian..." he looks away. Suddenly Brian walks in. "Wait a minute. I was eavesdropping and I don't know about this." Brian says. "Then [Name] let me talk to Brian alone please." Nick says to you. You walk out of the bus and Nick starts talking to Brian. "Look man, I love her and she dosen't know if she loves me back. Please do this for me." "Alright, only for you, though. I'll just take her to the movies and to the beach like you did on your first date. Nick, I'm really sorry about all that's happened. If she does love me more, I won't go for her even though I do like her." Brian says to Nick. They both do their secret handshake and leave the bus. "We'll leave around seven." Brian says to you. You're standing outside the bus. You suddenly feel nervous and start to get second thoughts about Brian. By the time 7 o'clock rolls around, you're nervous but ready. You two get into Brian's car and drive off. Halfway there, Brian tries to break the awkward silence by asking, "What movie would you like to see?" You find yourself thinking about when you went to the movies with Nick. "Armageddon," you suddenly say, surprising even yourself. "Oh yeah, you didn't finish watching it with Nick," Brian remembers. You fake a smile and nod your head. Once the movie starts, you find yourself thinking about Nick again. You didn't even know what was going on in the movie. To yourself, you suddenly say, Brian's cute, but Nick means so much more to me. You turn to Brian and whisper, "Let's go. I've made up my mind." Brian looks confused but get's up and leaves with you. When you get back to the bus, Nick looks surprised and says, "You're back early." You take Nick's arm in one hand and Brian's in the other and lead them to the back of the bus. "I've made up my mind. Brian..." Nick suddenly looks as white as a ghost. You continue, "...I'm sorry. I want to be with Nick and I've decided to stay with him. I like you, but I love Nick." You look at Nick, kiss him softly on the lips and walk back to the front of the bus. Nick looking as happy as ever... Abbie ...You're glad you made the right choice. You knew it had to be him the whole time but you were just afraid of commitment or whatever. You are no longer confused and your happy to be with the man you love. "Nick, I'm sorry I've put you through all this." you say quietly. "I'm sorry too!" he exclaims and you gently punch him for his lame joke. He grabs his arm in 'pain' "Ow, that hurt! Wanna kiss it to make it better?" he says reminding you of your first date. You are glad to help. You both sit down on a couch that just happens to be nearby. You kiss his arm and silently pray that history won't repeat itself with the other guys showing up. "Is that better?" you ask looking up from his arm. "Oh, my nerves are messing up again you really hurt me this time." he says smiling. "How about we just get to the face and skip all that other stuff huh?" you say. "Sounds good to me!" he whispers and kisses you on the lips... Christina ...The kiss gets more and more intense. You gently run your fingers through his soft hair and kiss, kiss, and kiss some more. Eventually you both have to come up for some air and so you decide to pull away first, ending your hot, steamy kiss. You smile at him, really happy that you chose to be with Nick. You say to him, " How will we stay in touch? Are we even going to stay together when you and the guys leave town?" Nick answers you in a reassuring tone, "Of course we will. I'm not letting you go that easily!!" You still have your doubts and continue on, " But...but, how? It's not gonna be easy, what with all those beautiful girls that you meet on the road and stuff." Again in his reassuring voice, but this time more firmly, he responds by saying, "[Name]), I'm NOT gonna let NOTHING and NOBODY get in the way of us. You have my word for it." Still a tad uncertain, you look up at him, eyes widened, and say, "Honestly??" Nick says, "You betcha. If you can't believe me, then who can you believe?" You then... snoyld@earthlink.net ...reach up and touch the side of his face, look into his eyes and kiss him again- short, but meaning more than ever. "Oh, Nick I believe you. It's just that I love you, so much more than you will ever know." Then he looks at you with those sad eyes and hugs you close saying, " Well, I'm glad you feel the same way, because I really don't want to lose you." * * * That night the Boys are scheduled to have a concert in San Francisco, California, so they're all busy setting up props at the stadium where the concert will be held. You find yourself thinking, God, how did I end up with the Backstreet Boys? Just about three weeks ago I was just another girl, doing what just another girl would do...and now it's like I'm living my fantasy... Right on cue, at that very moment, Nick comes up behind you and scares you by sweeping you off your feet and twirling you around laughing like a little boy. "C'mon, let's go. I'm all finished setting up, and rehersing and everything." "Where are we going? Are you sure you finished practicing?" you are so dazed by him, but still you don't want to be his distraction. "C'mon man, if you don't believe me I'll finish rehersing with you."he grins. "Alright, where are you taking me Nick?" He doesn't say a word, he just smiles and leads you to his car, where-once you're in it- you speed off in the direction of the ocean. After a moment of silence, he says, "We're having dinner in Hollywood tonight." " Oh my gosh, Nick are you serious? Wont that be a little expensive? And look at what I'm wearing!" " Don't worry, I can afford these luxeries, so I figured while we're here why not pass up the chance? ...And by the way, you look great" "How did I ever end up with a guy like you?" After dinner at the most expensive place in town, with about a million of your fave movie stars dinning just tables away from you, Nick takes you out to see some of the sights, and then you two are alone on a boardwalk. "[Name], I want to write a song for you... actually I already have." "Nick...wow, you didn't have to do that." " I didn't have to do anything; can I sing it for you?" You kiss him, "yes." And then he starts to sing and you can't believe your ears, it's the most beautiful song you've ever heard...and he's standing there with his arms outstretched to you, his hair falling over his eyes, and you think he must be the most beautiful thing you have ever seen. You stare into his deep blue eyes as he finishes the song, and he says "It's called,'I'll Never Forget You'. And it's all true." You're crying, and trying not to. " Oh Nick, I'll never forget that song!" * * * You and Nick get back just in time for the concert to start. You're in the audience and Nick, Kev, Brian,Howie, and A.J. are dancing around on stage, their music blasting throughout the entire stadium... you're surprised that the entire city of San Francisco can't hear you. During the concert, Nick comes to the edge of the stage and pulls you up with him. The two of you are singing along to: "As Long as You Love Me" and you can tell you're making more than a few girls jealous. Just as you think everything is perfect, the concert ends, people are filing their way out, and you try to find Nick. That's when you see him leaving, arm in arm, with another girl... LadyOcean@aol.com ...At first you are incredibly hurt, but then you feel the anger swell up inside of you. How could he do this? What happened to your song? You stalk up to him, trying not to cry and to keep your composure. Nick has a pleading look on his face, though you can't figure out why. "Nick, honey," you ask as calmly as possible given the circumstances, "Who's this?" You indicate the raven-haired girl on his arm, who has to be anorexic to wear the dress she's wearing. "Who's this? Nicky, what have you been doing while I've been gone?" she inquires. Nick looks at you with sad, pleading eyes that say, "HELP ME!!!", but you don't care. "You know, I thought you were above this," you say as you shake your head. "Really, don't answer my previous question. I can find better guys. See you later, Nicky." You enunciate "Nicky", turn, and saunter off. "Callie, get OFF me!" Nick exclaims as you leave. The girl looks up at him with a devious smile on her face. "Why, baby? Don't you want to go out with me?" she asks in a sickeningly sweet voice. "God, you always WERE so pushy. I thought you might have outgrown it by now, but I guess I was wrong," Nick declares with disgust as he tries to pull Callie off of him. Her grip is like that of the Jaws of Life. Or Death, in this case. Callie glares at him. "How DARE you talk to me like that!" she cries and slaps him, finally releasing his arm. Nick puts a hand to his cheek, where her handprint is beginning to show, but takes his chance and jets off to find you. "Wait! Nicky! Please, I'm sorry!" Callie calls after him, but he is gone. **************************** You are standing outside the concert hall, the tears in your eyes threatening to spill down your cheeks. You are really more hurt than angry... or maybe an equal amount of both. Then you hear his voice. "The only thing I ask of you is that you don't slap me. My face has had it after Callie," Nick says, coming up behind you, but not touching you. "Be careful, sweetie. When I'm upset sometimes my joints move on their own," you respond with dry humor. "[Name], please let me explain-" he tries, but you cut him off. "Explain? Explain what? That you are a two-timing, self-centered, male chauvinist pig?" you ask incredulously, turning around to face him. The tears that were in your eyes are on your cheeks now. "Okay, I deserved that," Nick says sheepishly, looking down. "Yes you did," you answer, your voice choked and hoarse. "You deserve a reaming that would probably get me sent to hell." "Yeah, that too," he responds quietly. "So what do you have to say for yourself?" you ask exasperatedly after a moment of silence. He finally looks up at you, and stares deep into your eyes. You find yourself getting lost in those ocean-blue pools. "I love you," is his answer. Before you can say anything, he cups your face in his hands and kisses you sweetly. Your heart is screaming at you to kiss back, but it's the principal of the thing to pull away. "Don't you dare kiss me!" you almost shout, but not convincingly. Nick knows what you are really thinking, and smiles. "Callie is a technical ex-girlfriend," he explains without being asked. "She and I were sort of 'together' when we were, like, 13. She's my dad's friend's daughter, and it was kind of thought that we would be together when we got older. But she's one of those ditzy psycho girls that drive me crazy. NOT like you drive me crazy, either." Your heart is melting with each word, understanding why he was looking at you that way in the concert hall. You feel like a complete idiot and blush. "Nick, I..." Calli ..I love you. You would have acted worse if you had seen me with another guy." you say, thinking back to that with Lance. "I probably would have. That's how people act when their in love, I guess." Nick looks serious, very serious. This makes you laugh out loud. "What?!? Do you think I'm wrong or something?" he asks, smiling at your sudden outburst. "No! You just looked so serious! Anyway, you know it's true." you say leaning up against him and staring up into his eyes. "Boy, we should call you transformer or something. One minute your close to tears, then your laughing, then you close to me. Are you always this wonderful?" he says whispering the last part and looking back into your eyes. "Only around you." with this, Nick pulls you into his arms and kisses you. Suddenly, you hear bells. You try not to giggle thinking about the old saying 'he's the one if you hear bells when you kiss'. Your kiss ends as you notice a church across the street and a few buildings down. You burst out laughing again. "Ok, you're starting to get weird. Are you on drugs or something?" he jokes. "No no no, nothings wrong. Everythings perfect....just perfect...." you whisper as you wrap your arms around him and kiss him again... Christina ...Nick then suggests that you two go for a ride...When you ask him, "Where?", he only smiles mysteriously back at you. After 15 minutes or so, you arrive at the beach--the exact scenario that you have only heard Nick describe as his "ideal date" so many times before in t.v. and magazine interviews. The sky is clear and a midnight blue shade, with countless stars dotting the heavens. "Wow", you breathe softly. Nick gets out of the car and with his arm protectively around your waist leads you over to a spot on the sand. You plop yourselves down. Never in a billion years could you have dreamed of something like this. You sit in his arms for two hours, conversing and revealing to each other your most profound secrets, dreams, and fears. "You know what one of my biggest fear is, Nick? Dying without ever having been in love with someone special.",you tell Nick as you look at him to see his reaction. He reassures you first by tightening his arms around you and kissing you on the cheek, and then says, "Now you know that fear is unfounded...because no matter what, you KNOW I'll always love you...forever." Overcome by emotion, tears begin rolling down your face. Seeing you cry, Nick suddenly tenses and says, "Did I do something wrong? I'm sorry, I'm so sorry---whatever it was that I did, I take it all back now!!" You say, "No...No, Nick! It's not you or something you did...I just can't believe that I've been so blessed to have met you...and now, look at us." You turn your face up to him and go on, "Nick, I can't even begin to explain just how much I love you." He answers, "Well [name], the feeling's completely mutual." and smiles handsomely, which makes you want to self-destruct right there. You both continue talking into the wee hours of the night with you safely wrapped in his arms the whole time... Continue...