ADDICTION

Here I am

Having a crush on someone again

It goes on

Until it's fatal

I want him

'cause he can't be mine

It hurts, but seems like I enjoy it

I torture myself doing this

This is nothing but addiction

Ignore me, I go crazy for you

I drown in my daydream

Thinking of him every minute

Just until I find another one to crush on

Forget

I'll forget

When the time comes

I'll forget

Soon or later

I'll forget

Then I'll be ok

I'll forget

Because you want me to

I'll forget

I will for you

Deep deep down

At the bottom of the ocean

I'll bury my memory

And I'll bury myself

I'll forget

I will for you

Copyright  2000  Miyuki Smith

http://www.poetry.com/

IT SUCKS

Think I'm trying too hard to impress him

Guess what, it doesn't work

I should be myself and he might like me

But guess what, it's not as easy as you think

Again and again I tell myself

Get him out of my head!

I'm so preoccupied

I could only screw up the plan

I am totally in love with someone totally not in love with me

I am so in love with him but he is not in love with me

in love

he's in love

but not with me

i wish he was

but i can't help it

i'm in love

yes, with him

but he's in love

with someone else

i know how he feels

he thinks about her all the time

like i think about him all the time

he knows how i feel

he wishes she was in love with him

like i wish he was in love with me

tell me

tell me that you're just teasing me

tell me that you're just testing me

why do you ask me what i think

about you getting back with your x

obviously i am devastated

what am i supposed to say?

i am your friend

i don't wish anything bad happen to you

i can only wish you a luck

i don't want to see your sad face

i want you to be happy

oh how am i supposed to act?

tell me, just tell me you're only testing me

please tell me that you're only teasing me

getting ready for nothing

getting off work early today

so i can go home and get ready

take shower and splash the cologne

smelling sweet like a piece of pie

but what is it for?

i am getting ready for nothing

the thing that wouldn't happen

sadly he will not invite me

knowing that, i still get ready

silly me am i just pretending?

or hoping for the fairy godmother to appear?

getting ready for nothing

where do i go when i'm ready?

i will be here forever

sleep in the little dress i just bought

wash the make up off with my tears

silly me stop getting ready for nothing!!!

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