Where are you Christmas? part one..


*Christmas Eve* "Santa baby…hurry down the chimney tonight…" Cassidy sang sexily as she put the finishing touches on Becca and hers tiny little Christmas tree that'd she'd bought yesterday at the mall.
She looked around the apartment that her and Becca had made their own since arriving in Orlando.
"I sure is going to be weird not living here…" Cassidy whispered to herself.
Cassidy turned her head quickly as she heard noises coming from the bathroom. She raced down the hall and opened the door.
"Becca are you ok?!" Cassidy rushed to her side.
Becca wiped her dampened cheeks as she sat next to the toilet bowl dejectedly.
"Bec…what's wrong are you feeling sick?!" Cassidy put a dampened cloth on her hot cheek.
"I'm pregnant Cassidy…" Becca looked up at her with fear and sadness in her eyes.
Cassidy didn't say anything for a moment, and just sat beside Becca, cooling her face with the cloth.
Finally she spoke.
"You're going to be just find Becca….come on…hop up.." She said gently, helping Becca off the tool tiles and into her bedroom.
"I'm so scared Cass…" Becca let the tears flow.
"It's ok Bec…I'm not going anywhere…I'm staying here with you….in the apartment, we can handle this…" Cassidy soothed.
"But Nick…" Becca started.
"Don't worry about that….Nick practically lives here anyway…." Cassidy gave Becca and huge smile.
"Urgh! I think I'm gonna throw up again.." Becca held her stomach as she sat upright in her bed.
"Uhhh….here, you need to hurl…aim for the bin and hopefully not me.
"Thanks…"
"So…it's Brian's?" Cassidy asked a little more seriously.
"No…its Justin Timberlake's!! Of course it's Brian's. I just………what am I gonna do?" Becca looked up at Cassidy desperately.
"Well he knows your pregnant right?" Cassidy stared back at Rebecca doubtfully.

"I tried to…."
"Bec….He deserves to know…"
"Yeah I know, and I will. It's just……" Becca searched for the right phrase.
"Brian will understand I'm sure. God can you imagine Brian with a little kid, how gorgeous!" Cassidy began to get excited at the thought.
"It's just……can you imagine "Backstreet Daddy!" What would the fans say and it couldn't come on the road….that's no life for a baby….Maybe I should just…." Becca began to vent her fears.
"Bec…..do you love Brian?" Cassidy asked.
"Cassidy……I can't do this to him….."
"Do what Becca!? He made this baby too you know!"
"Yeah and he'll still be the father…..but, I I think it's best if I do this alone….Brian has the whole world at his feet, and this would bring that all crashing down.."
"Becca this will break his heart…."
"Cassidy, I'm not saying he can't be a father…."
"But only on weekends and holidays?"
"Oh don't even….I mean, he's touring at least six months of the year so he can't even do that Cass!"
"I know I know……Becca I know our boyfriends have an absolutely crazy life……but this is, this is….." Cassidy couldn't find the words.
"Cassidy, this is my decision……and I need your support…..I need to know that no matter what I do your gonna be with me on this one ok??" Becca pleaded, her eyes wide.
"Ok…." Cassidy said reluctantly.
"Thank-you so much Cassidy…." Becca said sincerely.
"You know I'll always be here for you……"
"Ditto…." Becca smiled.
"And I get to be it's Godmum right…." Cassidy cracked a smile.
"Of course…"

"Do you reckon Cassidy likes the couches or should we buy some new ones?" Nick asked as he and Brian sprawled in the lounge room playing Nintendo.
"I don't know, I think they're pretty alright…." Brian shrugged, his eyes glued to the screen.
"I just want everything to be…..perfect you know!?" Nick sighed as the "game over" sign came on the TV screen.
"You're really excited about this aren't you?" Brian grinned as he placed his controller on the floor.
"Yeah I am kinda…." Nick smiled and laid back on a couch.
"Kinda!? You're planning a whole renovation almost!" Brian laughed.
"What! I just asked if the lounge was crap!" Nick said defensively.
"Whipped….." Brian said under his breath.
" Oh and you can talk Mr. 'I want to father Rebecca's children'……" Nick retaliated.
"So what if I do……I'm just glad to have her back…." Brian said sincerely.
"God wouldn't that be weird if we had kids…." Nick shook his head as the two guys walked into the kitchen.

Cassidy slipped Nick's front door quietly, wanting to surprise him. She heard voices from the kitchen and quietly tiptoed closer, she slowed slightly as she listened to Nick and Brian's conversation.

"Weird…you're telling me. I think my parents would disown me if I had a child out of wedlock…" Brian laughed.
"Nah my mom would kill to have a grandkid…but I don't know…I just know that I'm not ready…I've got too much other stuff to do first…you know?" Nick passed him a can of Pepsi.
"I don’t' know….but I can definitely see myself having kids with Bec and doing the whole family thing down the track…" Brian smiled.
"Yeah I can see that too….I don’t know if Cassidy sees that with me though…." Nick said a little quieter.

Cassidy had now stopped completely and was listening intently.

"Why not?" Brian said taking a sip of his drink.
"I don’t know…its just never come up…" Nick shrugged.

"Well…you're moving in together….she completely adores you….I think you're on the right track…"

"Who's on the right track?" Cassidy entered the conversation, playing dumb as she walked into the kitchen.

"You and Nick….I was just saying how sometimes…somehow you seem relatively on track for a steady relationship…" Brian said grinning.

Cassidy looked shocked.

"Who?…Us?! Nah…he's just my big sugar daddy…" She grinned, wrapping her arms lovingly around Nick's waist.
"Yeah…she's just my fly honey….for the good times…you know…" Nick winked, playfully slapping Cassidy on the butt.

"Disturbing…quite disturbing…." Brian shook his head laughing as he said his goodbyes and left the kitchen to go pack for his Mum's.
"Are we going out tonight?" Cassidy hopped onto the bench.
"Yeah…..party hard…..It's Christmas eve. What do you feel like?" Nick asked, pouring Cassidy a drink.
"Well good sir….how about you take me out to a fancy dinner like the gentleman you are……and then I'll take you out clubbing, where I'll most probably sway my body close against yours in an extremely provocative motion….How does that sound?" She grinned, sipping her drink.
"Your just a big tease you know that!" Nick leaned over, kissing the tip of Cassidy's nose.

"You scared, nervous or feel like your gonna throw up anytime soon?" Kirstie asked as she and AJ sat in a respectable looking tattoo and body piercing parlor.
"No….but I can see you are…" AJ grinned.
"Sooo am not…." Kirstie rolled her eyes.

"OK guys come on through….." A guy with more tattoos than Kirstie had ever seen in her life beckoned them.
"Oh my god….." Kirstie breathed.
"Kirst….If you don't wanna…."
"I wanna…….I'm just……a little nervous that's all……" Kirstie said in a hushed voice as they walked into the piercing room.
"I'll hold your hand babe…." AJ took her hand and squeezed it.
"OK here goes….." Kirstie took a deep breath and hopped into the big chair that was waiting for her.

Howie came home for the first time since they'd gotten back to Orlando. He'd stayed the night at Kevin's house the previous night.
He had called Holly at least four times that day……to no response. As far as Howie knew, Holly had disappeared off the face of the……

"Holly?" Howie gasped.
"Hey Howie….." Holly said a little sheepishly from her place in the kitchen where she was cooking.
"Ummm…..what…..why…..ummm?!" Howie was in shock.
Holly walked over to Howie, a little smile playing on her face. She slipped her hands inside the leather jacket he was wearing and sensually nuzzled his neck, the smell of his cologne intoxicating her senses.

She pushed his jacket off his shoulders and onto the floor, their lips met in a fiery embrace.
Howie closed his eyes tight as the feeling of her lips, her body washed over him. It was Howie who first broke away breathless.
"You said……your sister's……you…." Howie said confused.
"I just needed some time Howie….to…work everything out…and I realised that I wanted to be with you…I need to be with you…" Holly said slipping her hands under Howie's white cotton V-neck and running her fingers over the warm defined skin beneath.
"Really?" Howie said pulling her close to him.
Holly just nodded as their lips met again.

Nick and Cassidy were sitting in contented silence over dinner in the posh restaurant. Suddenly Nick looked up from his meal.
"Do you like the couches in my house?" He said reaching for his glass of wine.
"Umm…I don't know…." Cassidy said, wondering where the hell that had come from.
"Because we can get some new ones if you don't like them you know…and the bedroom, whatever you want…"
"Ohh…" Cassidy finally got where Nick was coming from, and felt guilt and butterflies at what she was going to say next. She reached across the table and took his hand.
"Nick…I love you..but I can't move in with you…not just yet…" She said gently.
"Oh…" Nick said disappointedly.
"Nick it has nothing to do with you….I would love to move in with you honestly…"
"Then why don’t you?!" Nick looked at her with pleading eyes.
"I'm so sorry Nick…I need to stay with Becca…." Cassidy replied. Nick looked at her confused.
*Ring Ring*

"Hello?!" Cassidy answered her cell a little embarrassed she hadn't turned it off in the restaurant.
"Hey Cassidy…this is Brian….Becca was supposed to meet me here at the airport and well…she's not here.
Do you know where she could be?" Brian's voice sounded slightly distressed.

"Uhh…I have no idea….I'm sure she'll be there soon…"
"Yeah I hope so…the flight leaves in about 5 minutes…"
"Sorry I couldn't help….did you try the apartment?"
"Yeah it rang out…anyway sorry for disturbing you….cya Cass…"

"Shit.." Cassidy cursed under her breath.
"What's wrong?!" Nick asked worried.
"Becca's missing…she was supposed to meet Brian at the airport but didn't show...and now no one knows where she is…" Cassidy explained.
"Crap…where could she be?" Nick asked confused.
"I have no idea! God I hope she's alright…" Cassidy said worriedly.
"Why are you so worried? Has Becca been having trouble with her heart again?" Nick asked anxiously.
"Umm…No not exactly…" Cassidy said a little unsure.

"Look Kev, you go……I'll be on the first flight tomorrow ok…..I've gotto sort this out…" Brian said reluctantly as he and Kevin stood at the boarding gate.
"Ok man……see you there…..take care of yourself alright….." Kevin said giving Brian a hug.
"Merry Christmas Cuz….."
"Merry Christmas…."

"Ahh…..does this look absolutely cool or what!!" Kirstie stuck her tongue out in the window of the store and inspected her reflection of the little glow in the dark tongue stud now glowing in the moonlight.
"Very cool…..can't wait to try it out…." AJ winked and ran a finger subconsciously over his new chin piercing….a silver stud.
They walked hand in hand along the little shops that lined the dimly lit streets.
"Ahh……Kirstie I have a really bad confession to make…." AJ started suddenly.
"What it is….." Kirstie asked worriedly.
"Ummm….with the tour and everything…..Christmas kinda snuck up on me…..and uhh….well I didn't have time to get you a decent present…." AJ lowered his head in shame.
"Oh thank God!" Kirstie clapped her hands together thankfully.
"Ummm….did I miss something….." AJ looked around confused.
"The exact same thing happened to me! I just….I didn't know what I was gonna do!" Kirstie sighed with relief.
"Thank God we're big slackos that don't know what to buy each other hey?" AJ laughed, wrapping his arms around Kirstie's shoulders as they continued to walk.
"Awww! Pet shop!! Can we have a look AJ please!?" Kirstie said racing into the store, not waiting for an answer.

Brian drove around aimlessly searching all the places that Becca could possibly be. He had a feeling of dread in the pit of his stomach that something was wrong…….and he needed to find her.