I'm sorry...

Both girls wrapped their weary arms around each other for support as they dragged their tired feet along the fluorescently lit corridor.
"Hey Brian…." Cassidy acknowledged the familiar figure walking towards them.
"Hey Cass…." He put on a strained smile, he looked as tired as the girls felt.
"The concert was great tonight…..we watched it…." Cassidy reassured him.
"Thanks….is Becca asleep?" Brian asked looking around.
"Umm…yeah…" Cassidy told him.
"I might go see her anyway…" Brian thought aloud, quickly glancing at Kirstie before looking away again.
"Alright….take care of yourself alright?" Cassidy gave him a hug.
"Yeah you too…..see ya tomorrow…" Brian went to walk past them, and the girls continued on their way.
"Cassidy I'll meet you at the car…." Kirstie said suddenly, and began to turn.

"Brian wait…" Kirstie called.
"What is it Kirstie? Look before you start, I'm really not in the mood for you bitching me out again…" Brian sighed.
"No Brian….I just wanted to say I was sorry…" Kirstie said looking down at her hands.
"Oh….well..Kirstie, its ok…I know I acted like a royal asshole…." Brian said a little quieter.
"Its not ok…..I shouldn't have said the things I did…..and I’m sorry. I know you love Becca more than anything and I would like nothing better than to see you back together…." Kirstie said genuinely.
"That means a lot Kirstie, you have no idea…" Brian said relieved.
"…And she loves you too Brian…don't forget that…" Kirstie squeezed his shoulder for support.
"Yeah I know…..but will love be enough Kirstie? That's the million dollar question…." Brian looked at her sadly with his glassy blue eyes.

"Yes I know that its 1am in the morning! But I need to speak with the boys!" Beth said desperately into the phone by the bright light of her desk lamp.
"Fine…Fine, well is there any chance of me being able to speak with them?!" She asked.
"Booked out!" Beth said exasperated.
"I'm sorry! Sorry! I'm just a little frustrated here….look, put me on the damn waiting list and get back to me straight away if there's any openings….thankyou." Beth slammed the phone down.

"How the hell am I going to get the most famous band with the most hectic schedule in the world to listen to me!! This is hopeless! But I can't let Leighanne get a way with this…" Beth grabbed her coat and quickly left the office. She had to come up with a plan….and fast.

AJ sat and looked at the case note sheets that he and Kirstie had made in trying to work out who was the most likely suspect for leaking the tape.

He turned his head as he saw Kirstie walk in and drop her bags.

"How about Nadine….we haven't done her yet…." He said as he quickly put out his cigarette into the ash tray beside him.
"Why would Nadine do it?" Kirstie said as she flopped down on the bed.
"You said yourself that she had that grudge against you, Cassidy and Becca a little while ago….maybe she never let it go…." AJ shrugged.
"That was all Leighanne's doing…." Kirstie sighed. She then sat up.
"Leighanne……" She whispered.
"We've already done her….." AJ moaned.
"Shhh! I'm trying to think!" Kirstie waved him away quickly. She paced the room for a minute.
"Kirstie??" AJ asked confused.
"Leighanne…..I remember I left the tape in the room that I was sharing with Leighanne!!!" Kirstie said wide eyed.
"Soo….what does this mean?" AJ replied.
"Becca didn't have a key to my room….Leighanne is the only other person who had access to that tape…" She said gravely.

"I'm going to my sisters for Christmas….I won't be home till new years….I'm sorry Howie…." Holly sighed into the phone.
"New Years??" Howie's voice cracked slightly.
"I'm sorry…" Holly said timidly on the other end.
"Its ok….I know that family is…important, its just…I miss you so much!" Howie felt like he'd been stabbed in the chest.
"I know…I'm sorry Howie, I really am…I miss you too…" Holly apologized.
"Are you sure about that?" Howie asked, slightly bitter.
"Umm…what do you mean?" Holly asked confused.
"Are you sure that you're missing me? Cause I mean…if you don't want to continue this…" Howie said warily.
"Howie! Of course I do I love you! Unless….you don't want to continue it??" Holly said even more warily.
"How can you say that! It'd break my heart if I lost you, you know that….but if you don't wanna be in this then I guess I'll have to deal…" Howie gulped, a pit of dread in his stomach.
"Howie….I wanna be in this…for a long time. This isn't a game to me, this is real…this is it…just us.." Holly said sincerely, wanting nothing more than just to hold him.
"Ditto…" Howie said sweetly, Holly laughing softly on the other end.

Brian quietly entered Becca's hospital room, closing the door gently behind him.
It took his eyes a moment to adjust to the darkness, the only light being provided by the moon through the window. When his vision returned, he walked slowly over to the bedside.

He looked around confused at the boxes and various cards and envelopes everywhere. Intrigued he picked on up and read it. It was a fan letter wishing Becca and full recovery.

"My god…." Brian breathed as he looked around the enormous amount of mail.

Just then Becca stirred slightly. Her eyes fluttering open.
"I'm so sorry…I didn't mean to wake you…" Brian apologized quickly.
"Its ok….couldn't really sleep anyway….this place scares me of a night…." Becca said quietly, rolling on her side to face Brian, seeing the way his eyes sparkled in the moonlight and the shadows cast upon him.
"Someone got mail…." Brian pointed out, looking around the room.
"Yeah…." Becca chuckled slightly. Brian bit his lip nervously.

"What are you doing here Brian…." Becca asked finally, breaking the silence.
"Umm….I don't really know…." Brian stumbled nervously.
"Brian…." Becca began.
"….because, you see…..I don't…..I'm not used to being alone…..I'm not used to not having you with me….and I guess I can't handle that…." Brian looked at her with desperate eyes.
"Do you think I was ready to handle being called a thief and a liar? Brian? Do you think I was ready to handle being accused of selling my boyfriend out? Because I wasn't…." Becca said in an even tone, even though below the surface her stomach was churning.
"I'm sorry…." Brian whispered.

"Brian, sometimes things happen….and you can't change them….but what you do have to do it learn to handle them…..the best way you can…" Becca said her eyes sad.

Brian studied her face for a moment. He felt a twinge in his stomach. Something his instinct was telling him, but he didn't know quite what.

"You need rest…." Brian said finally. He stood and pulled the covers over Becca and tucked her in.
"We're going to handle this Becca….you and me…" He vowed.
"Good night Brian…" Becca whispered and closed her eyes.
"Good night…" Brian replied and walked out, taking one final look at Becca before closing the door behind him.

Kevin walked out of the bathroom and wrapped a towel around his bare shoulders. He slipped on some sweatpants and went to answer a knock at the door.
"Hey you…." He smiled and pulled Krissy in for a kiss.
"Hey….look Kevin…..this, is beautiful…." She began pulling out the ring that Kevin had given her.
"But you don't want it…." Kevin guessed.
"Kevin! Please try to understand here….its just, too much….I can't accept this! I doubt that I've ever held something worth this much in my entire life…." She tried to make light of the situation.
"The money doesn't mean anything! I wanted to get it for you…..to symbolize what we have…" Kevin said exasperated.
"You're right! The money doesn't mean shit! That's why I don't want this ring…..because we don't need diamonds to show what we've got…..I'm not that kind of girl Kevin….so if I'm not what you expected then find a girl that wants your money….because I don't need it…." Krissy said firmly.
Kevin stood looking at her for a moment.
"What are you staring at!" She said slightly annoyed.
"You are amazing you realize that?" He shook his head.
"What? What did I do?" Krissy asked confused.
"Nothing…that's it…you're just yourself….and its perfect…" Kevin said sincerely.
Krissy didn't know what to say. She looked up into Kevin's gorgeous green eyes and felt butterflies in her stomach.
She stepped closer to him, and ran a finger over his bare chest. Kevin took her hand in his and kissed her sweetly, pulling her inside and closing the door behind them.

Nick looked around the empty hotel room nervously. He checked his watch. 1am. "Damn where is that girl…." He sighed and lay back on the bed grabbing the TV remote and flicking through the channels.
Nick was pumped after the concert, as he always was after a show. But this was different. Nick and Cassidy's life together had almost been put on hold the last week or so and he missed her….in more ways than one.
Nick kept channel surfing until he came to channel 27, the 'cable for adults' channel.
"Ohhh…nice…" Nick raised his eyebrows in interest as two topless brunettes giggled and sprayed each other with whipped cream.
Nick looked around the room guiltily again, and then back at the TV.
The two brunettes had since begun to lick the cream off…..each other.
"Oh my god…." Nick gulped staring at the screen.
"Cassidy's not here….she's not gonna care if you rub one out every once in a while….." Nick reassured himself.
"Ok…" Nick took a deep breath and unzipped his pants….it had been a while.
Nick watched intently as they two cream girls were joined by another naked chick with cool toys to play with that they all giggled and cheered about.
The first brunette thanked the new girl in her own special way.
Still watching the screen, Nick reached down into his pants and gently began to rub.
A few moments later Nick looked down confused.
"Come on…." He urged himself.
Nick looked back up at the screen and began to rub a little harder….without much more response.
He looked down again exasperated.
"And what the hell is wrong with you?" He asked 'himself' sarcastically, but worried all the same.
He tapped it….once, twice….like you would a sleeping person to wake them up.

"Nick! What the hell are you doing!?!" Cassidy's jaw dropped as she saw Nick slapping himself on the bed, porno blaring on the TV.

"Cassidy! Shit! I can explain!!" Nick quickly threw a pillow on his lap and switched the TV off.
"I can't believe you were jerking off!" Cassidy said in disbelief.
"Oh my god! I wasn't actually…..well the thing is that I actually…." Nick was so embarrassed he felt he couldn't even see straight his cheeks were that hot.
"I'm sorry Nicky…." Cassidy cooed sweetly taking her jacket off.
"Cassidy I….huh?! Sorry, Umm…what are you sorry about sweetie?" Nick gulped nervously as Cassidy stood at the foot of the bed in front of him.
"I'm sorry that you felt that you had to resort to your right hand…..and second rate porn…..cause you haven't had….the real stuff…." Cassidy grinned, slowly slipping her dress off.
"Cassidy….actually, about that…..there seems to be a….." Nick stuttered and Cassidy crawled onto the bed and pulled the pillow off his lap.
"Shh…." Cassidy whispered into his ear as she ripped his shirt off and kissed him passionately.

Cassidy giggled slightly as their lips met, thinking about what Nick had been doing before. But she couldn't deny that it had been at least a little bit of a…..

Cassidy quickly broke the kiss off. She looked at Nick, and then Nick's lap, who had only moved the slightest amount the whole time.

"I tried to tell you…." Nick sighed, closing his eyes.
"Nick…what's wrong!" Cassidy gasped quickly getting off him.
"Umm I can't say I'm exactly sure Cassidy! I haven't really experienced this problem in the past!" Nick said sarcastically.
"But its….its…just…sitting there!" Cassidy pointed.
"Thank you Cassidy I can see that! And don't point!" Nick said self-consciously. He got up off the bed and quickly zipped up his pants.
"Oh my god…." Cassidy was trying her hardest not to laugh. She failed….and burst into giggles.
"CASSIDY!!!" Nick yelled defensively. He had never been so humiliated in all his life.
"Oh sweetie…I'm so sorry….I'm sorry…" Cassidy soothed, trying to take the smile of her face.
"I just can't believe….I can't….I…" Nick ran his fingers through his hair.
"Hey…its ok! You're just really tired….it'll be fine tomorrow….." Cassidy soothed pulling him back down onto the bed.
"Are you sure?" Nick asked worried.
"Of course…..you're my big daddy…." Cassidy winked, trying to make light of the situation.
Nick laughed.
"I'm so sorry…" He said a little quieter.
"Shh….night Nick…" Cassidy said, kissing his bare chest…snuggling into him as they fell asleep.