fuck all the mansonite goth wannabe morons who give 'real' goths a bad name. fuck 'real' goths for overacting so much they give anyone who wears black a bad name. fuck corporate assholes who think you have to dress buisness to work hard, and fuck my job for making me wear a tie. fuck all the pathetic heartless people out there who value drugs over the people who care about them. fuck all the people who drink themselves sick and never fucking learn. fuck all the people who say they like you but will never give you a chance. fuck all the people who conform, and fuck all those who are too stubborn to change for anyone. fuck sarah for ripping my heart out, and fuck me for being stupid enough to believe in love to begin with. my rage, my pain...i hate my darkest days. fuck all the christians who need a fake god to worship to find meaning in their life. fuck people on muds who become imms and turn into power tripping ego maniacs. praise to all the people online who have the imagination to pretend to be someone or something they aren't, and fuck all those people who pretend but take their lies into someone else's real life. fuck all the people who obsess over someone they don't know, expect you to become who they thought you were, then get pissed at you for not being what they wanted you to be. fuck people who think that just because i have a god damn mood swing i'm 'pretending' to be someone else because of them, get over it my life does not fucking revolve around you. fuck brandy for ruining three months of my life and making every day a living hell. fuck anyone who never gave me a chance to show that i can care. fuck jocey and candice and all the other women in my life who either slept with jesse behind my back or flat out dropped me for him. not for choosing him, but for lying to me about their feelings up to the point when they rejected me for him. fuck all the people who either can't or won't accept that jesse and i are two parts of one whole and having anything to do with one of us means involvement with both. fuck people who don't get we need time alone and can't just leave us be and get over it. fuck all the happy people who have never known real pain, and fuck all the weaklings who let their pain consume every aspect of their life. fuck everyone who cried on my shoulder a thousand times, fuck the people that i liked who i gave advice to on how to get someone else when all i wanted for them to notice me for a change, fuck the people who called me every night to vent anger on, and fuck them all for not being there for me even ONCE when i really needed someone, if only for a few minutes. fuck all the people who i've been there for, who i've tried for, who i made time for, fuck them all because i never once asked for anything back, and fuck me for ever expecting to get anything. fuck all the people like carrie who let you flirt with them, and who fool around with you, tell you how they like you, then it turns out they were just bored and you were convenient. fuck the people who act like your friends because they're bored, but tell you they honestly like you. if you just want someone to kill time fine, but fucking let them know that. and fuck the people who can't handle it when you tell them they're just an ascquintence. fuck CU campus for not letting people use their network to play computer games. fuck people who think they need to 'save' you from making the same mistake they made once, we all need to learn from experience not from being told it's wrong. fuck all the men who treat women like shit and make it so hard for us to show them we're not all bad. fuck people who act like they're into bdsm but couldn't handle it for 5 seconds if their life depended on it. fuck anyone who calls me a vampire because i like the taste of blood. fuck the people who thought i was trying to kill myself when i used to slash up my arms. fuck people who say 'don't worry they will heal' when they see my scars. fuck anyone who cut themself to be 'cool' and is now ashamed of the scars and tries to hide them. fuck people who are are only a few years older and look down their noses at you because you're doing the same thing they did when they were your age. fuck anyone who tells me to 'grow up' because i still like to have fun. fuck people who call me immature or tell me to be quiet when i feel like screaming and laughing and acting on impulse. fuck people who can't take a joke and who don't understand sarcasm. fuck ANYONE who thinks that because i'm 19 this is just a 'phase' and i don't know what real pain feels like, that i don't know what it is to love someone with everything i have. FUCK EVERYONE who has EVER told me i need to just 'get over' sarah and that i'm being childish for still hurting over her. fuck anyone and everyone who won't accept that she fucked my life up, and that i can't just forget what happened. sometimes it hurts so much to lose the one you love...fuck all the people who measure maturity strictly by age. fuck 16 year old couples who say they're engaged because they think that is the only way 'their love will last forever' fuck people who think they are better then you because they've been through more. fuck people who think comparing stories of pain is immature: we all need to know if someone else knows how it feels. fuck people who try to run your life and tell you who your friends are. fuck people in relationships who flip out when the person they're dating hugs a member of the opposite sex, or even gets flirty. sometimes a friendships are based on innocent physical contact...fucking deal with it. fuck the world for the way it is. fuck my parents and everyone else who is so obsessed with money that nothing else matters to them if they're owed anything.
fuck sarah. forever and always, to hell with her for giving me a reason to live, for making all my hopes and dreams real, for giving me everything i've ever wanted. FUCK her for taking it all away.
wish there was something real wish there was something true
wish there was something real in this world full of you