Love Dies -
the vivd ache of that night
as i lay on your floor
my heart chained to your throat
and the pain of the vibrations from your words
buried in a casket of thorns
to grieve a dire passing
love dies...
why did it end this way
what you gave to me you took
why would one deny such perfection
look what is left of me
this hallow shell
i hate myself enough to just give up
but i hate you just enough to keep fighting
i twist in my casket of blood
because love dies...
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oh my love, why are you so far away when i need you now?
oh my love, nothing is forever not even laughing in the rain
all this time, i've danced away the memory of your image in my mind
what i wouldn't give to hear i love you once again
all alone, dreaming of the nights i held you, safe inside my bed
you're so far away now, but i will never forget everything we had
oh my love, the roses that i gave you are now just thorns in my skin
so far away...you've left me here alone, to cry and to decay
i love you so you once whispered to me as lay, together in my bed
take me now, i don't want to go on without you in my arms
all my life i've dreamed of you and hoped this love would last forever
why did you go? just take my life away if i can't be with you again
what i wouldn't give to hear i love you one last time
all alone, dreaming of the nights i watched you sleeping in my bed
you're so far away, but i will never forget everything we had
i never thought that this could kill me
but without you....
Stain -
the slashing burn, it's so surreal
an inner pain that now i can feel
the skin screams in joy at this burning release
as my mind sinks numbly into its retreat
nerves that writhe in ecstacy pain
it's just something i do to cleanse this stain
the agony inside has found a way out
and it hurts so sweetly as i silently shout
a chorus of crying, in a body that's hurt
keeps my mind from ebbing, thoughts from coming apart
serene sense of beauty in the scars and the aches
i just sit back and laugh as my will power breaks
fears flow like blood, and though i am sore
my body still cries, in a craving for more...
Lust
river of blood, pulling me down, surrounded in red as i slowly drown
sweet as your essence, toxic as wine, like the trace of your lip, the curve of its line
taste of life, tinted by rust. it's a craving i need, a yearning, a lust
swallow me up, cover my skin. give me the fluid that flows from within
sever the flesh, peel through a vein and feel the burn of mortality's pain
crimson as twilight, it pulls at my soul. it calls me, it begs me, but takes a great toll
blood soaked lips, the weeding of ilk, but you taste as sweet as a mother's milk
cover me in darkness, lost in your smell. you take me to paradise then leave me in hell
feel me inside you, the pleasure and pain, as i play with your body and fuck with your brain
you cannot escape me, i'll always be there. plunge deep inside, rip open and tear
you're mine without freedom, you're mine without choice. i am your concience and i am your voice
you think that you know me, but that is a lie
it will always be me who decides when you die
Brine
life-wine...blood-line...the taste of your nectar
sweetness...completeness...i need your touch
feel me...hate me...i love you so
love me...kill me...only for you
life-sire...blood-spire...the madness never ends
redness...deadness...the things that i crave
blackness...the shadows...your voice in my ears
heart beat...love's sweet...it's left me in pain
love you...destroy you...you made me this way
blood lust...life rust...i'll drink your life away
Feel
exquisite pain. can you feel it?
unbearable pleasure. can you feel it?
it pulls at your heart. it tugs at your soul. it leaves you wasted and tired
peel back this ragged scab just a little, exposing raw flesh and bone
can you feel it? like ice running over severed nerves
can you taste it? a bile film over cracked lips
can you hear it? a scream through covered ears
where does it come from....it won't leave me in peace
screams through a bleeding throat, on my knees to beg
nothing but silence...
then it comes again. pounding, throbbing, so close yet so hard to reach
sweat in the night, bathed in fear of what i am becoming
gone...everyone is gone in this world i've been taken to
all pain and unfinished....unfinished what? i can no longer focus
i can't remember anything, and i can't know why
can you feel it? the searing of skin, cracking of bones
can you taste it? salty rust and honey
can you hear it? screaming, crying, it's all so sweet
i've lost. i'm no longer what i was
i've become what i was never meant to be
and it's all your fucking fault
i won't let you get away...
you're mine. you're ours. you're dead
can you feel it...?
you brought this on yourself
Descend
screaming. it's all that i hear. and it takes me long moments before i realize it is me
then i remember the pain, and it floods back in a white hot symphony of memories
that rip through me like raw nerves dragged along the sand
and all i hear is my own voice crying, and it seems so odd i can barely recall what made it hurt so badly
but no time for reflection. only time to writhe and pounds walls with bleeding knuckles and collapse in sobs
and it hurts, so much it hurts...
my chest pulls itself apart, and now nothing can save me
burning passion and desire, unrelenting love, the mind searing pain
all of it. all alone. and all for me
Lost away
bless this vile sanctity, walls spiraling in the darkest light
and spinning in endless vertigo as the hands clench tighter behind my eyes
phantom fire of brightest green burns, devouring flesh like an army of ants
and skaletons dance in ethereal gesture, forcing themselves through even the most hidden of eyes
tides of pulsing fear that endlessly course, washing over piles of beached bones
just as rain purges even the darkest city of its stench
and here i sit, alone like gargoyles keeping silent vigil over a world that is dying
my mind is lost in its own isolation, detatched and deranged from any fate
The Black Garden
i waltz through the shadows, in fields out of time
run away children! for here devils dine
sweet whispered caress, a soft voice in my ears
the love and tormenet that turns pleasure to tears
run away children! this is no place to play
here all your dreams become mottled and grey
close my eyes tight, yet fire burns through my vision
this white blinding light has turned into my prison
run away children! before it's too late
purity loves fresh meat on its plate
the garden is empty, the leaves have all died
the forest is vacant, the pools are all dry
i sit on a rock and cry in my head, all the pain and the loss and i cannot yet shed
run away children! do my screams go in vain?
your innocent burden is too much of a strain
the ghosts they are coming, in forms i can't tell
and i run to hide fearfully inside my heart's shell
run away children! run safe to your bed
leave me to my garden, alone in my head...
From Darkness Dwells
your blood in my hair, your taste on my lip. just a dream flowing through another bad trip
blanked out and gone, cannot see what i've done. just watching the world as my mind comes undone
reality glides, like strings past my face. and where am i now? i don't know this place
the side of me that doesn't feel, the other side that isn't real
i can feel is coming back, it takes me over and leaves me black
what does it do, when it comes near? what have i done when i can't see or hear?
in the distance you cry, i can barely smell your tears as i pound on these walls that trap me in fears
i see you through eyes in my head that aren't mine, and your pain washes through me in a dim lighted shine
the steel at my temple, the heat presses in, as now i feel your death on my skin
a bright flash of light, and it's over and done. the dark side of me laughs, and says it had fun
my body on yours, the shadows and blood, as the holes spew forever, a red raging flood
it's done and complete, now that i am dead.
but the voices all seem louder, screaming in my head
Hate
i am alone.
i live in my world of animosity
hating all there is, and all that has come before
i am a vessel of anger, and i portrait it well
i am cold, hard, and cruel
my anger acts as a shield, it protects me from my feelings
yet sacrifices my happiness
i have forgotten how to love...
i am alone. i am anger. i am hate
and i am happy