there is so much
i feel i have to do
before that chunk of my past
dies and rots away
i want to ask him why he did it
why he left my father alone at age ten
to support his family
like he failed to do
i want to know
how he could leave four children
and a beautiful wife
take their money and their memories
break their hearts
and trample on their hopes
of having a father.
sunday afternoons spent
waiting for a call
to explain why he didn't
show up for the baseball game
he promised he'd attend