Who has all the answers

When no one knows anything

Who tells all the lies

When no one knows the truth.

Thoughts of confusion

Lead me astray.

I am at the fork on The endless path of pain

Between not caring about these emotions

And wanting to have emotions

I have slept for far too long.

I don’t know why

I did what I did

You said it would help me with everything

But I didn’t believe you

And yet I had to do it

And now I’m talking to myself

Because I have shunned everyone

And put myself on a one man ship

To keep my disease to myself

It is very contagious

And I don’t want to hurt you

Or any of them.

People walked all over me

Why did I let them

It wasn’t my choice

Now there’s no one here

That was a choice

I had to make

I can’t live without someone here

Yet I have done it for far too long

And now all the hallucinations come back to me

Now I’m just sitting at home

With my mother hovering over me

While I type my true feelings

When I have none.

Someone tell me why I am alive

Or even if I am alive

All of the answers have escaped my frame of mind.

Forget all of the shit I’ve written

It wasn’t meant for you!

© by @nna Kipervaser

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