Submitted August 14, 2004, by Kyle Lennan
No this cant be good, no please don’t, it wont solve my problem of the fear, it wont solve my problem of anything it will just make u sleep all night. Please take it off!! Please let me in please they are here to get me you cant see them but I can they arent real I know but they do scare me all light is gone all hope is lost I lie down to die when the mourning sun hits my eyes, I made it through the night. The day is no better fear of lossing touch with you my savere that hates to save me from what i see. You lock your door for a good night sleep were I sit in the dark not daring to open my eyes even tho I cant see I stumble for the light but it isnt there help me god if u are there look upon me and tell me ill sleep to night. I awake to a fright im not sure of what but it doesn’t matter my savere wil save me I run to the door its…locked? Damn stuck in the dark hallway afraid of my fear that none can see LET ME IN!!!! PLEASE!!! FUCK FUCK!!!! The door does not open the lock does its job….i cry in hope to get to sleep tonight. FUCK OFF!! 5 MINUTES!! No please god no please im sorry im sorry I say as I get dragged across the house to the hell hole of my room were I sit in the light screaming crying begging that the door will open. PLEASE LET ME OUT AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH please…..so I push the door it budged not even an inch damn stuck again with my imgaination my fear.
17 years later:
The door stays open all through the night….but I don’t need it anymore I needed it when it was locked not open. In some ways I want the door to shut and be locked again but instead its wide open as I hear the screams in my head to shut the damned door but instead ill lock mine so they feel the toucher of the 5 year old imagination….all is failed….lock removed…how do I beat them? I don’t know yet im not sure if I will…..I need to prove that I rember what happened I rember how I feel I rember..i rember… I will rebel I will stand up to their fear I will show them I am independent I can live with out them living I can show them I can kill and not leave a trace as to who did the killings. No wait wait I cant for some reason I just cant ill either have to wait or ill either not listen to their tellings. Please help someone for god I dotn believe in but someone jus help me out make them not care..please…
16 years
Ill do it…….but fast….sliced……damn ….i bled…….losing life slowly through my veins…….slowly..seeping away good bye………I awake sadly to reattempt. I need help.
17 years
Again the life veins away goodnight