Poetry: The Elixir of Love

You can never look too high, too far, or too deep. The problem with people nowadays is that they don't look beyond what's in front of them. Plan today. Live for tomorrow.

I can try to find out who I really am but I don’t think I want to go there. Some things are better left alone. What you don’t know won’t hurt you but what you find out can change your life 4ever. And I’m not ready 4 the truth yet.

I haven't been hurt enough. Stab the knife in deeper. Stab it! Twist it! And pull my heart out cuz I don't want it in me. I wanted you to be happy cuz I only live to see you happy. Just let me cry these last tears. Cuz the one I would've given everything up for is finally out of my grasp. When I realized I couldn't be with you, it was too late. I had already fallen into the hole.

What do you do when someone comes back into your life n you didn't expect them to? What happens when the feelings you spent so long burying deep into your heart start surfacing cuz something's tugging at the lock? What are you supposed to do? Stop n find out the truth? Yeah I should but as always I'm running away. For reasons I'm not yet sure of. Wanting to find out where we stand but fearing the truth won't be what I anticipated n wishing that somehow I could go thru this alone...

Admire those who have the courage to walk out of a relationship. They are the ones who have the power to survive alone.

Everyone can feel the happiness but not everyone can understand the pain.

This time I'm not holding my breath.

You don’t know what you have until it’s gone I knew what I didn’t have when it was here.

ListEn up Foo
U migHt thiNk i dOn't See
but I kNow u goT a ProbLem
So heRez soMe adVice From Me
u Got a SituaTion
of OpeNin' Yo MouTh 2 muCh
Ya goTta LeaRn 2 keEp it ShuT
'steAd of YapPin' BouT suCh 'n sUch
don'T be froNtinG it sCrub
s'aLL aBout keEpinG it ReaL
Don'T parAde yo WeakNess
'less U wAnt me StepPin' On u Wid heeLs
it aLL doNt ProVe noThinG
'cEpt dAt u gOt da fLaws
ThiNk befOre yOu teLL aLL
or WE be saYing u got no BaLLs

When I open my eyes to the sun's rays pouring through the blinds,
I feel my pillow soaked with last night's tears
Yet another night without you by my side.
I lie awake in bed staring at the ceiling,
wishing so bad I could hold you
to feel the warmth of your touch
But knowing you're in the arms of another gurl.
I can feel a single tear rolling down my cheek
Despite wanting to brush it back, I let it fall
one after another
I've cried an ocean of tears already,
but it doesn't help the pain within me.
Knowing I let you slip away,
without hearing the sound of your voice or seeing you smile back at me
I just let you go without a fight or a struggle
But my heart doesn't deserve a chance to feel
the love and affection that only you can bring
It doesn't deserve to feel anything except
the power of its own wrath.

Never have I felt
a pain like this before
strong enough to break me
bold enough to hate me
I can't believe you did it
with a heart so gentle and free.

Every relationship has its troubles
You and I have had our share
Some relationships end in break up
You and I have also been there.
We tried to make a friendship out of it
begging each other to stay
We never wanted to fall apart
but in the end, we just needed time away.
We headed towards our separate paths
in hopes to meet again
trying so hard to live our own lives
still longing for that friend
I can't live with you
I can't live without
when we're together
problems come about
You're the best thing in my life
We're so meant to be
Why can't we just get through this
I love you, don't you see?

Everything I've ever believed in
All that I've worked for
it's just meaningless now
Nothing matters to me,
nothing matters to you cuz you're finally happy
And I'm left still struggling for a place in this world
The seat next to you has been taken by another gurl
Was it even meant for me at all?
When you told me you loved me
Was there even the slightest hint of truth in it?
or were you just lying?
Now there exists no form of trust in everyone's resumes
as I sit here flipping through meaningless papers.

MISSING YOU

I remember the days when we were together
Heaven knows it's not easy to forget
Wondering how you're doing without me
cuz I can't seem to live without you
We fell apart for reasons I still cannot comprehend
Maybe we both were hiding, the fear of giving our hearts
All I know is I miss you,
missing you more than words can express,
more with each day that passes and we're not together
Missing you, missing you
Praying for the day we'll be together once again.

YOU TAUGHT ME HOW

Before you, I didn't know what love was
I could never say it cuz I didn't know what it meant
And then I met you and you taught me what love was all about
So if I were to say those three words
I'd only say them to you
Because you're the only one I've ever loved
But baby what can I do?
You've found new light with someone else
and left me in the dark.
The knowledge I gained from you is slowly fading away.
I can no longer feel the magic
I wish I could remember how to love
because you were the one who taught me how.

Though you think that it's over
think again, it's just begun
You may hope that I've moved on
but I can't deny that you're the one

They all told me to forget you
And I worked at it so long
But I finally came to realize
that I've loved you all along

I tried to move on to someone else
But it didn't work out in the end
The whole time I was thinking of you
is that so hard for you to comprehend?

Don't have to ask if I still care
My answer will always be yes
Just know that I will always love you
From this lifetime through to the next.

FORGOTTEN

Have you forgotten who I am?
Have I become a mere existence in your mind?
It didn't hit me, until now,
that I lost you for good
It didn't hurt me until I thought about it.
They said I liked you
but I'm not so sure
It wasn't your hair or your clothes
But becuz you were the first
for everything
Now we've forgotten each other
but somehow I can't let go of the memories
I just want things to be like they were
before it got all complex
I just want the simplest thing in the world...
I just want us

For a few precious seconds
she was pulled from her solitude
to experience a moment of happiness
And in a split second
she fell back into her world of loneliness.
The warm touch still lingering on her lips,
cold wind hits her face
cutting and chapping her delicate skin
She looks up to see the once fresh-white clouds
to be covered by a black cloak
So she runs, as fast as her feet can move.
But she can't escape it
The hurricane of terror closes in
as she reaches out her hand for once last touch of humanity
and gasps for her last breath of reality.

CAN'T FORGET YOU

So many nights I lay awake in my bed
wondering if it was something I said
Maybe it was something I didn't say
Those words that would have made you stay
All those times I was with you
I wished we weren't apart,
cuz you're so close but it feels like you're so far
I vowed to win you back cuz you mean so much to me
But maybe it's better just letting things be
I said I wouldn't cry
but I can't help this single tear falling from my eye
So tell me
is it rite to let go?

REMEMBER THE PROMISE

Remember the promise you made me?
Days ago or centuries before
Remember the picture of us?
Only a blurry image to you
still a motion picture in my head
We were always gonna be like that
or atleast I thought
In reality, you left.
But in my heart you're still my best friend
Now if I should lose my mind,
simply look to that special place made for you and I
where we shall meet
and everything will be okay.

TRUE WORDS

Some people say that I'm a fool
For falling in love with you
They say it's just a waste of time
And I'd never make you mine

But I believe the Lord above
when he says that this is right
Otherwise I would've forgotten you
instead of dreaming about you at night

Along the road to happiness
I often stumble and fall
But seeing you makes it all worthwhile
As you give me courage through it all

I know you'll never want to be with me
cuz I've lived a life of lies
I don't care if you find someone else
cuz I only live to see joy in your eyes

GAIKOKUJIN

Gaikokujin
What is your purpose?
What are you doing here?
Just to play you say
Gaikokujin
Held upon your hands, everything
to somebody
Locked within the deep recesses of your soul
answers, all truths
You are the key to your own heart
You have the rite hand
to open your heart and learn to love,
to embrace the wonders of the world

DO YOU KNOW...

You know me better than anyone else
You know what I think and do
You know my every thoughts and waking desires
but do you know that I love you?

I couldn't say those words before
cuz I didn't know what they meant
But then I came to realize
that baby, you're heaven sent

Every night I dream of holding you
And the day I can talk to you again
So I sit here all night thinking of you
and wishing on stars until then.

DREAM

Lately I can't fall asleep at night
I can barely stay awake too
When I do sleep I dream a lot
And most of the time it's about you

You haunt me in my dreams
I can sense your presence near
But I never see your face
I just know that you are here

Most of my dreams don't make any sense
They're vague and short and weird
But you give me a sense of security
And drive away all my fears

In reality I never see you
You've practically been forgotten
But whenever I have a dream of you
I feel a step closer to heaven.

After an emotional heartbreak
the body experiences great pain
first the head, the heavy pounding
then the heart, so cold so numb
then the legs, so tired and stiff
The movements endless and mechanical
I just want it all to end
take the pain away
take the pain away

TELL HEAVEN

Another night alone in my bed
holding onto my last memories of you
I lie waiting for the phone to ring
and crying 'til the sun slips thru the blinds

*Open my eyes expecting you next to me
still an empty space where you used to be
Tell Heaven I'm not gonna go
Not until you're in my arms again

Another night alone in my room
Wondering when I'll be with you again
Everything here reminds me of you
But no I'm not ready to leave yet
*Chorus
Heaven..
Strip me of this sorry
But let me have tomorrow
Tell Heaven to wait another day
I won't rest until you're in my arms again

WHEN YOU...

When you got no where to go
When you got nowhere to run
You can turn to me I'll be there
When you got nowhere to hide
When you got no one on your side
I'll be there for you
Through the good times and bad times
I'll stand by your side
or behind you if you want
When you fall, I'll carry you
When you stumble, I'll catch you
When you slip, I'll pick you up
Cuz see, you've got a friend in me

I won't b like those dip shitz who act ur friend but as soon as they get a gf/bf, drop u like hot coal!!! *hInT hInt* 2 those DIP SHITZ OUT THERE!!!

PROMISE

Thousands of miles away
I hear and I see
A secret locked deep within
your soul.
Agony I sense it
Pain I feel it
Open your heart to me and
I will heal your sorrow
A chance I ask
A promise I make
I will be your life, your love, your everything
for all eternity

UNFINISHED

The first time I saw you I knew it was true,
There couldn't be a better love than you
The sparkle in your eyes, the warmth of your smile
There hasn't been anyone like you for a while.

I watch you from afar, that's all I can do
Every night I pray that soon I could hold you
To touch you to kiss you that's all that I ask.
The stars and heavens knows it's not a big task.

Everynight when I sleep, I think about you
I wish one day my dreams would come true
Waiting and dreaming and hoping to touch your face
To hold you forever in a loving embrace. . .

I LOVE YOU (dedicated to AC)

Words can't describe what I'm feeling inside
Regret the things I did and didn't do
You shown me love that I never knew before
All the things you gave and never asked me for more.
But I, I didn't even care for you
Until you leave, I realize I really do.

I love you
Cuz I, I only want a love that's true.
But it's time to say good-bye
And I'm feeling emptiness inside
All I want to say is those three words
I love you

As we say good-bye I turn my head to the side
It's hard for me to even look you in the eye
I don't want you to see my tears of sadness
Cuz we both know this love cannot be endless.
Let's try to make this love as strong as steel
Cuz I wanna say the words I really feel.

Baby I love you
Cuz I, I only want a love that's true
But it's time to say good-bye
And I'm feeling emptiness inside
All I want to say is those three words
I love you

Boy, you know I was blind
to see what you had given me.
Instead of looking for love,
I should've seen it right in front of me.
And I now regret making you wait so long
Please understand my feelings through this song.

Chorus

LOOKING AT AN ANGEL (Lyric)

Once long ago, I had felt so all alone
I was a heart without a home
Then one day, she came from astray
And magically swept me away.
And after all this time, she's still here with me now.

I can't believe I'm looking at an angel.
You were sent from above, to give me all your love.
I can't believe I'm looking at an angel.
No matter how far apart, she has a place in my heart.

Trying so hard to fight it, but I finally give in
Love has overcome my emptiness within
Bitter thoughts have all been swept away
Cuz I know my angel had come to stay.
And after all this time, I'm still in love with you.

Chorus

SOMETHING

Something's going on that I can't seem to control.
Something not even my heart can hold.
I'm desperately longing for an affection that's true,
But love is something I can't get from you.

Something's there I feel it with my heart
Words I want to express, but where do I start?
Sometimes I wonder am I getting through?
You just say that love isn't me and you.

Sometimes I'm wrong, sometimes I'm right.
Lately I just lay awake in bed at night.
Is dreaming of you all that I can do?
There seems to be no way of getting through to you.

What can I do but pray you'll come to me.
Since you don't believe we were meant to be
Something tells me not to give up hope
But now all I do is sit around and mope.

WORDS (dedicated to MT)

Ever since the day that you left
My life's been just one big mess
I can't think I can't even see straight
I said I loved you just a minute too late

Tell me why can't I live without you
Is my heart telling me the truth?
Will we ever see each other again
Cuz I don't want this lonely life that I'm in.

Chorus
There are words that I wanna say
Words in my mind that just won't go away
And there are words I regret I had said
Words that haunt me til I go to bed

I couldn't sleep since we said goodbye
Words I play over and over in my mind
Wanting so bad to say them to you
My heart really loved you, if my mind only knew.

Tell me why I'm mad at you not at me
You loved me but I was too blind to see
Now I just lie awake in my bed
Scolding myself for what I had said and not said.

Chorus

But what can I say baby, you're already gone
What can I do to get back with you
We're miles apart, I just don't know what to do.

REGRETS (Unfinished)

Look at the sky and see the stars
How can this wonder be so real?
As I lay by your side
I hear your heart tell me you feel

You whisper to me I love you
But the look in your eyes says it's not true
How can I trust you baby
when you aren't even honest with me?

All I have are regrets
Why you do this to me, I've fallen down on my knees
All I'll ever do is regret
For giving my heart to you to do as you please. . .