12.19.98
sometime the next day
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today was a sad day. dan left for arkansas for a week.. im gonna fucking miss him sooo bad. but he said he'll be thinking about me every second and he'll miss me so much because he cant live without his other half.. well the fact that he's gonna be away from me on x-mas has kindof settled down. i was flipping out there for a while, but im okay now. ---------------- so he called me around 10 and said goodbye and of course we started crying, but we agreed that on christmas day at 12:00pm that we would both listen to [[red water]] - by type o negative, and that made me feel better. thats a beautiful song. hmph. well i went with my dad today, he picked me up around 10:30am and we went various places, and i found out he only bought me 2 presents. grrr. well i left his house at 4 and went home and called fred and went over there. he is gonna get my hair cut and bleached because my roots are growing in like, black. well at least i'll be pretty when daniel gets back. so i sat there at freds until 1am playing parisite eve for playstation (the BEST game) and then my mom called his house and asked him to take me home. so then in his truck we were talking about how i have no food in my house and my mom wont use the food stamps because she's too embarrased, he fucking handed me a 10 dollar bill, and thats ALOT of money to me. so i was like, "woah". im not gunna buy food with it though. -------------- so i got home and found out that mike called.. and said he was gonna call back, but the asshole never did. fukken jerk off. who needs him?? xxxKay