SONG MEANINGS

Pain.Hate.Sorrow.Death:This is just gonna be the beginning of the first cd......these four words describe my life.  I've tried to love, but it never works.  So. this is all I have and nobody seems to understand that. 

The Darkness: I wrote this to explain what evil feels like.  That's pretty much it.

Boredom-I actually wrote this back in January of '99.  This was the very first song I had ever written.  It's gone through a shit-load of transformations, though.  I don't even remember what the original lyrics were.  Anyway, the new version of this was written because I've been stuck in the house most of the time because of this fucked up hip.  So, boredom has been a part of my life for a long time now.  Read the lyrics, you get the idea.

Why Dad, Why?-My ex-fiance was beaten very badly, very often by her father when she was little.  The bastard actually beat up the whole family a lot.  The sick pervert raped her, too.  One sick motherfucker, don't ya think? That's why I wrote this song.  So that bitch doesn't think nobody knows what he did.  As soon as this CD gets out, everyone will know.  Oh, and don't worry.  Her mother divorced him years ago.   

PMRC: A while back there was this group in the government called the PMRC.  They were trying to ban heavy and death metal or something like that.  I saw something about them on MTV and decided that I had to write a song about them.  I made it gorier than my others just to piss them off if they ever hear it.

Hatred Overwhelming: When I was very depressed for like four months straight I had no feeling for anything.  The only emotion that I had left was the hatred and the sorrow.  I was full of hatred for everything 24/7 for most of that four month period.  It really really sucked.  But, I got through it and now I'm here to right a song about what hatred can do to a person.  Be wary of it.

Police Brutality: No, no cop ever beat the shit out of me.  Luckily, I've never even had to deal with the cops.  I most likely will one of these days, but not yet.  I wrote this one for all of those crooked cops out there.  All of those assholes that think they are gods just because they wear a uniform with a little shiny badge.  They can just fuck off, cuz they sure in the hell ain't gods.  Let them come visit with me and my kind and they will be scared shitless.  Just remember, if ya get pulled over, nod,smile,agree, and apologize.  That usually gets ya out of a ticket.  You can call the pig all the names ya want, only in your head, though.   

Broken Love: I have been to hell and back when it comes to love.  My heart's been smashed so many times there's only a few pieces left.  Hell, my fiance just recently broke up with me.  That shit cuts deep.  Anyways, I wrote this about all the shit that I've been through.  Maybe this will show all of those bitches out there that hurt us guys how much it actually hurts.  Don't get me wrong, a lot of women aren't bitches, but a lot are. 

Evil Inside Me: A couple months ago I was in my room, just kicking back and I felt a rush of depression come over me for no apparent reason.  I was trying to fight it back all that night.

Inner Battle: This is for all of the kids and teenagers that have some illness or have been really fucked up in some way.  I was depressed one day and my mother thought it was because I was feeling sorry for myself because of the wreck, that wasn't the reason, though.  Anyway, she told me that there are a lot of other kids worse than me that have to live in the hospitals.  I got to thinking and because I kinda know what it feels like, in a way, I decided to write a song just for them.  Something to listen to when they aren't feeling that great. 

Preteen-Lovin' Fags-This I wrote for all of those damned boy bands out there.  Get a life you stupid lyrically and vocally challenged motherfucking bastards.  You need to learn how to do something without help from anyone.  And try to stop singing about love all the time, man does that get old fast.  This is definitely one of my favorite songs!

Pyro-Just some twisted song I felt like writing about a fucked up pyromaniac.

Seen It All-This is about all of the crazy shit that I've seen and experienced.  'Tis a wacky world we live in, there are many things hidden in the shadows.