This poem was written after the same girl came back into my life... after not hearing from her for many months... and a lot of old feelings came back...
Confusion
She doesn't know what she wants.
But she knows I love her still.
I pray that I am not the cause
Of all that now seems ill.
I know there is something on her mind,
But how do I get her to say it?
It's causing her great sadness and confusion.
Like an instrument with no one to play it.
She came back to talk, and it brought me great joy,
My pain and frustration subsided.
As we talked, my feelings for her all came back,
And I found out she's still undecided.
My tears pour down like the torrential rains
That come down with violent force.
And yet, I can't bear to tell her of this,
I would only hurt her more, of course.
So what do I do to ease all the pain,
That both of us seem to endure?
I want for her to feel total happiness and joy,
And get back to that love we shared so pure.