"Meet The Wife"
The first Mrs Lennon and mother of Julian,
Cynthia. has stepped out of the shadows and made a record, Those Were
The Days. But were they? Secrecy, heartache. harassment, boredom.
infidelity - "1 know who Norwegian Wood was about, but I'm not
telling" she, er, tells Paul Du Noyer.
Brian Epstein wrote: ''A Beatle must not marry. It
is all very well if one is married before one is a fully-grown
Beatle, but a fully-grown Beatle must stay single." As usual it was
John Lennon who broke the rules.
Cynthia Powell was John's art school girlfriend
and they were married in 1962 after she became pregnant. When they
met, in 1958, he was a teddy boy with dismal prospects, but she was
with him through Hamburg,Beatlemania, LSD and the Maharishi. Their
child, Julian,would grow up to be a pop musician himself. Few people
have had a life as extraordinary as hers, and today, Cynthia Lennon
("55 and menopausal," she volunteers, cheerfully) is in nostalgic
mood.
Those Were The Days was a hit for Mary Hopkin on
The Beatles' Apple label and it's the song that Mrs Lennon has chosen
for her first ever single. She'd tried some demos with her neighbour
on the Isle Of Man, Chris Norman, the former singer with '70s
popsters Smokie. In fact, she'd not sung since her last appearance,
aged 13, performing Who Is Sylvia, What Is She? with the Hoylake
Parish Girls' Choir. But they made the record 'Wth the help of a few
glasses of wine" and now it's out on Norman's own label, Dice.
She and her present partner, Jim, live by a
waterfall ("very tranquil, good for the soul") and visit the mainland
for occasional caravan holidays, or when she is invited to speak at
Beatle conventions: "The fans are wonderful. They always were.You get
one or two odd- balls, but that's life, isn't it?" The tale she tells
them is not without pain. But, she says, "the actual talking about it
sometimes helps a great deal. When you've actually experienced it,
that is part of you. Nothing could hurt any more than that hurt at
the time."
The young John and Cyn shared a class in Liverpool
Art College. "John was very wayward in those days, he didn't want to
work, he wanted to play his guitar." They found common ground in
their poor eyesight. She agrees the recent movie Backbeat is a fair
account of those early years, "but I think there was one comment from
me that all I wanted was a house and babies. But I had been studying
for five years to be a teacher, so to say all I wanted was the house
missed me slightly. I also had a headscarf and a tweed coat on which
was not me, because I was quite a with-it student, in trousers." At
John's urging, she tried to re-vamp her look in line with his pin-up,
Brigitte Bardot.
When The Beatles' career exploded in 1963, the
star put his "secret wife and baby in a London flat: 'Top floor,
£15 a week, and no lift, which was great fun with thepram, with
fans outside, blocking up the key- hole with chewing gum and sleeping
on the stairs overnight, Thankfully we were young, and everything was
so exciting. They were going to the top of the charts. It was just an
amazing experience." They could no longer hide their marriage, but
the fans didn't mind.
Soon they moved to the Surrey stockbroker belt,
and lived in what John would later call "a happily married state of
boredom." It was not to last - John's growing interest in the obscure
Japanese performance artist Yoko Ono saw to that - but their time
together was undeniably Lennon's most creative. "I'm sure I was part
of John's writing," she allows. In those days none of them would say,
I'm writing this for so-and-so, because it would be too embarrassing.
But John actually wrote poetry to me quite a lot. The only song that
I thought might be something to do with me was Girl, but of course
John isn't here to say any more. But whatever they were writing at
the time was about their lives anyway."
John admitted that some of his songs, such as
Norwegian Wood, were coded accounts of his extra- marital affairs.
She accepts this: "Absolutely. I know who Norwegian Wood was about,
but I'm not telling. " In fact, Lennon described his life on tour as
Satyricon". In the years between Hamburg and Yoko he had countless
sexual encounters; he was even linked with Joan Baez, Jackie de
Shannon and Eleanor Bron. But Cynthia was stunned by his first
confession of infidelity, shortly before he took up with Yoko. She
had been naive, surely?
"Well, I'm glad I was naive," she replies. I
really am. Naivety can be a bonus sometimes. If I'd known what was
going on, life would have been much harder for me. I wasn't that
naive but I was naive enough, and it saved me a lot of
heartache."
One day in 1968 she came home from a holiday to
find Yoko staying with John atthe family's Weybridge house. The
marriage was finally over, and Cynthia was shattered. That was a
horrendous period for me. Horrendous! We all go through such periods,
or we're very lucky if we don't, but when it's on a world scale and
the spotlight is on you, that's even harder." She later wrote: I
understood their love. I knew I couldn't fight the unity of mind and
body that they had with each other ... Yoko did not take John away
from me, because he had never been mine." It seems a philosophical
reaction, doesn't it?
"It was a fait accompli, I had no choice. I knew
that whatever I did, I would be hitting my head against a wall, so I
bowed out as gracefully as I could. I'm not a vengeful person
anyway." At least Paul McCartney was supportive. He drove out to
console her, composing a song for little Julian on the way. "He was
devastated by the break- up. He brought me a rose and offered
marriage, as a joke: We'll show'em, won't we, Cyn? It was very
touching and on the way to the house he had written Hey Jude. It
always brings tears to my eyes, that song."
Cynthia would not see John again until 1974, in
New York. "I took Julian out to reunite him with his father. Their
relationship was very good after that. But for four years there was
no contact, which I found terribly sad."
She remarried twice in the 1970s, the second time
opening a restaurant in North Wales with her new husband John Twist -
hence the title of her 1978 autobiography, A Twist Of Lennon, about
which John was scathing ("They all get one shot. Each chauffeur and
ex-wife and ex-lover and ex-servant gets one book if they're lucky.
") but his High Court action failed to stop it coming out.
What was Cynthia's view of her ex in his "house-
husband" years? "I'd lost touch with John. My only contact was when
Julian went to stay and he'd come back and tell me what was going on.
I just hoped that he was happy. That was all I ever wanted." John
claimed he was redefining himself, getting away from being the macho
working class man.
"To a certain extent. But he was never really a
macho working-class man. I think his talents were above and beyond
that. He was like a chrysalis. He had to bemacho to cope with the
types he came across in Liverpool. He tried to look like the tough
guys so that they wouldn't pick on him. What John became was what
John really was, underneath it all." When did you last meet Yoko? "At
Aunt Mimi's funeral, and Sean was there. We chatted. It's all calm on
the Western Front. It's called Make Love Not War." (She
laughs.)
Are you not bitter? "Not at all. We've got our own
crosses to bear. I get on with my life and she gets on with hers.
She's a mother to Sean and I'm a mother to Julian and we try to
protect our children considering the legend that we are left
with."What advice do you give Julian? "Oh, lots. 'Beware of drugs,
sex and rock'n'roll,' is it. But it's no good telling them, because
they'll do it anyway! My father would never have allowed me to go out
with John Lennon. We all fly in the face of our parents' advice. But
it all comes round if you're patient enough. Julian has been the best
thing. He is the jewel in the crown as far as I'm concerned."
Have the good times outweighed the bad times in
your life? "Pretty evenly balanced, I would say. I hope I take the
best out of life. It's the only way to survive. I had some fantastic
times, I also had some very tragic times, but there are many people
who have such extremes. You just get on with it."
Could you have behaved differently and not split?
"No. I think those years were our growing years, growing into
individuals. And John's path was a different path to mine."
Was John the love of your life? "I think first
loves are always very special, and I don't think you ever lose that
feeling."
From the April 1995 edition of Q Magazine.