I really can't explain exactly what I was feeling when I wrote this next poem... its kinda confusing... Let's just say I was a little confused, torn, and upset...
Pain
Why do I always hurt those I love?
Why do I cause so much pain?
What do I do to bring all this hurting?
I watch as it comes down like rain.
Why cant it be all so simple?
Why does it have to be so hard?
I dont understand what has happened...
I must have played the wrong card...
How could I know this would happen...
That she would take it this bad?
I had no idea she loved me that deeply.
My feelings are driving me mad.
She said she wanted me happy.
I told her I thought it had come.
She cried and she cried, it tore me inside.
How could have I been so dumb???
All of my life I've spent searching,
For one to share all my dreams...
As normal, I guess I just fucked it all up,
And ripped up my life at the seams.