Special/Blown It (Delete As Appropriate)

ive blown it in every single way
screwed every single chance that came
youre a superstar in waiting for the silver screen
then the pressure came
swept away in a tidal wave
could be all of you, still awake at noon
blew my chances in a tragic flurry, sweeping apathy
buy all my food from the bp store when the night kicks in
im turning my back on everyone
ive blown everything ive ever done
ive fucked it up, shot my load
spewed onto the motorway shoulder
i could have been somebody special

im not such a tragic waste of space
i could bring happiness to people
just one more greatest hits tour for the devotees
the same old faces came
they love their summer spectaculars
by the grace of god could be up by noon
im not a tragic waster but i cant stay
focused for my apathy
they could have bought me a brand new car and a 
house in france
ive really blown it now
ive fucked it up, shot my load
spewed onto the motorway shoulder
i could have been somebody special

sat on  my own for far too long
things could have been different
now life looks confusing
through  my window bay
just to see a face, im really pleased when the gasman comes
could be all of you still awake at noon
blew my chances in a tragic flurry, sweeping apathy
buy all my food from the bp store when the night kicks in