Dark, i can't see a future. I look and i hope, but it's not possible for me to visualise. I want to be happy, one day i will be, i know that. The day that i can leave behind all that does nothing but kill me. That day where i have no worries and no fears, that will be my future, that will be the start of it all.

Until that happens i'll be in the presesnt, the present is always a dark time in life, the future is good, everything works itself out in the future and all of the problems are solved. That's what i look to, i look to the future, i know that i'll be happy there.

I have few plans for the future, there's no point in planning something when life is so uncertain, too much in my life is unstable for me to fantasise about the future. I know what i want, but whether any of it will work out is different, i don't know, i don't know what to do with my life.

I'll wait until the future sorts my life out before i finally decide on it all.