Am i? i don't think that i am. i'm normal, i'm sane. Sometimes i wonder, sometimes i lie in bed at night and wonder whether i'm loosing my mine, whether it's normal to struggle with life and if not then perhaps i am loosing it. Being confused over everything in my life only adds to it all. But i'm ok, i'm not insane, i don't care what other people may think of it all, how they may judge me on anything that i've said or done. Nothing would be the different no matter how other people may view me. Maybe i am the only person out there that is sane? or is it sane to treat those who you know and whom has shown you nothing but respect, like they are nothing, like they are there purely to be abused. If that is sanity then i must be insane, am i insane for never judging those around me, for treating people as equals, treating them in the way i wish to be treated.

Why should i care now? why should i care what other people think? what other people go though, i don't care. i don't care for anyone who has not shown me the respect that i have shown them, i have learned that treating people like they are equal to me, only to be looked down upon and kicked aside is not the way to live life. So am i insane for viewing people as equals, yet view them with suspition? to turn on those who try to put me down? those who want to drag me down and stop me achieving my goals, my aims and prevent me achieving everything that i am capable of. Is that insanity? or is that just self defense?