Suffering, the emotional torment of life screaming though my mind. Nothing can free it, nothing can make it get better. It just sits there hounding me, i can cope, i know that i can. Pain enjoys taunting me, it comes and goes. A cycle i long to break before it kills me, lying in bed at night, wanting it to leave me alone, wishing that it would just free me for a day. Then it does, without warning it leaves, i'm happy. I can be "normal", i can live a happy life and care more for those that i am close to. Then it returns without warning, nobody can predict it comming, perhaps something triggers it off, perhaps it just comes and goes as it pleases and nothing starts it. Once it's there the cycle starts, wanting to free the pain, getting sick of it all, knowing that i can cope with it all but getting tired of it constantly making my life difficult, getting to the stage where i cannot thinkg, i can't concentrait on anything. Sometimes it goes to far, sometimes it takes a hold of me and nothing can really shake it, nothing can get rid of it. All it does is make me miserable, makes me depressed, makes me want to kill everything and everyone on earth. But i cope, i know i can cope and i know that for as long as i can then i'll be all right.