That's how i feel at times, there are times when i'm glad. I feel trapped and i don't like it, but not feeling trapped would only cause me harm. A promise made to a close friend, a true friend that means everything to me, makes me feel trapped at times, but i'm glad. Knowing that it's helping me deal with my emotions in a non destructive way, it helps me vent everything without causing harm to those around me.

But there's times when i'm trapped and i don't want to be, knowing that if i wasn't trapped them i'd be all right, the trapped feeling that is doing me harm is the one i long to escape from. I dislike that. Feeling trapped for my own good is one thing, feeling trapped and it being out of my control is another.

One day i'll break free, that will be in the future, that will be the day that i'm happy. Until then i'm condemed into a cage, a cage that i cannot break free from.