"A Dream"


	It was a very cold clear for all night
	I had a terrible dream
	Billy name and Brigid were playing under my stair case
	on the second floor about two o'clock in the morning

	I woke up
	because Amos and Archie had started barking
	That made me very angry
	because I wasn't feeling well and I told them
	I was very cross the real me
	that they just better remember what happened to Sam the bad cat
	that was left at home and got sick and went pussy heaven

	It was a very cold clear for all night
	Some snowflakes were falling
	Gee, it was so beautiful
	and so I went to get my camera to take some pictures
	And then I was taking the pictures
	but the exposure thing wasn't right
	and I was going to call Fred or Gerry
	to find out how to get set it
	I was too late
	and then I remembered they were still probably at dinner and anyway
	I felt really bad and didn't want to talk to anybody
	but the snowflakes were so beautiful and real looking
	and I really wanted to hold them
	And that's when I heard the voices
	from down the hall near the stairs
	So I got a flashlight
	and I was scared and I went out into the hallway
	There's been all kinds of troubles lately in the neighborhood
	and someone's got to bring home the bacon and anyway
	there were Brigid and Billy playing

	And under the stair case
	was a little meadow sort of like the park at 23rd street
	where all the young kids go and play frisbee
	Gee, that must be fun
	maybe we should do an article on that in the magazine
	but they'll just tell me I'm stupid and it won't sell
	but I'll just hold my ground this time, I mean
	it's my magazine, isn't it?

	So I was thinking that as the snowflakes fell
	and I heard those voices having so much fun
	Gee, it would be so great to have some fun
	So I called Billy
	but either he didn't hear me or he didn't want to answer
	which was so strange because
	even if I don't like reunions I've always loved Billy
	I'm so glad he's working
	I mean it's different than Ondine
	He keeps touring with those movies
	and he doesn't even pay us and the film, I mean
	the film's just going to disintegrate and then what
	I mean he's so normal off of drugs
	I just don't get it

	And then I saw John Cale
	and he's been looking really great
	He's been coming by the office to exercise with me
	Ronnie said I have a muscle
	but he's been really mean since he went to AA
	I mean what does it mean
	when you give up drinking and then you're still so mean
	He says I'm being lazy but I'm not
	I'm just can't find any ideas
	I mean I'm just not
	let's face it
	going to get any ideas up at the office
	And seeing John made me think of the Velvets
	and I had been thinking about them
	when I was on St. Marks Place
	going to that new gallery those sweet new kids have opened
	but the thought I was old
	and then I saw the old DOM
	the old club where we did our first shows
	It was so great
	And I don't understand about that Velvet's first album
	I mean I did the cover
	I was the producer
	and I always see it repackaged and I've never gotten a penny from it
	How could that be
	I should call Henry
	but it was good seeing John
	I did a cover for him
	but I did in black and white and he change it to color
	It would have been worth more if he'd left it my way, but
	you can never tell any body anything
	I've leaned that
	I tried calling again to Billy and John
	they wouldn't recognize me it was like I wasn't there
	Why won't they let me in
	And then I saw Lou
	I'm so mad at him
	Lou Reed got married and didn't invite me
	I mean is it because he thought I'd bring too many people
	I don't get it
	he could have at least called
	I mean he's doing so great
	Why doesn't he call me?
	I saw him at the MTV show
	and he was one row away and he didn't even say hello
	I don't get it
	You know I hate Lou
	I really do
	He won't even hire us for his videos
	And I was proud of him

	I was so scared today
	There was blood leaking thought my shirt
	from those old scars from being shot
	And the corset I wear to keep my insides in was hurting
	And I did three sets of fifteen pushups and four sets of ten setups
	But then my insides hurt
	and I saw drops of blood on my shirt and I remember
	the doctors saying I was dead
	And then later they had to take blood out of my hand
	'couse they ran out or veins
	but then
	all this thinking was making me an old grouch
	and you can't do anything anyway so
	if they wouldn't let me play with them in my own dream
	I was just going to have to make another
	and another
	and another
	Gee, wouldn't it be funny if I died in this dream
	before I could make another one up

	And nobody called

	And nobody came




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///// transcribed by Shirou Kouchi (wildside@mtci.or.jp) ///////////////////
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