A New Life The Question is, Is there life after loosing the one you love?  Yes of course there is.  Butis it easy, is the real question here.  This past year has been very hard for me.  For all of us.  It's gotten easier every day.  But it still hurts that AJ's gone.  I still hang around the guys a lot.  We have all gotten closer since that painful day in the hospital. I even started dating someone.  I know it seems kind of soon to be dating.  But we are taking it very slowly.  Who is this person I am dating?  You ask.  Well actually it's Nick.  It's only been for about a month.  He knows I'm still getting over AJ's death and everything.  And it's ok with me which I wonder why.  At times I wonder if dating Nick is the right thing to do.  You know dating your boyfriends best friend after he dies.  I’m sure AJ would be happy because he knows I would be in good hands.  We want to be together  so we are going to try and work things out. Well what happened with the Backstreet Boys?  Now that there are only 4 of them it’s just not the same.  The fans love them just as much.  They didn't want to bring in a new guy because they felt like they would be replacing AJ.  They tried to keep the Backstreet Boys together but it just didn't work.  It just hurt not having AJ around.  They soon split.  They still are the best of friends and do many things together.  Sometimes they get together and sing on MTV and the fans of the Backstreet Boys are always there to cheer them on. The news about AJ's death had hit the media very fast and it was spread around the world within the matter of days.  Everyone was very sad about the news.  They set up a memorial in Orlando for a while. There was a big picture of him and there were flowers and little stuffed animals all over the place.  It was very beautiful.  The guys, Vinessa, and I didn't go around there much.  The only time the guys had gone there was to give a speech.  Vinessa and I came to watch.  It was very hard for them to speak.  Everyone that was there were in tears.  People had recognized me as his girlfriend which I found amazing because I had stayed out of the way enough so that no one would notice.  I guess they did.  A lot of the fans came up to me and hugged me and said how sorry they were about the loss.  It was nice that they weren't trying to beat me down. Brian soon started his solo career and was very successful.  He came out with an album and it sold out very fast all over the world.  He had written a song about AJ and one about the guys going their own ways. Nick also started his solo career and was just as successful. Kevin and Howie went their separate ways.  Howie went into acting and Kevin writes songs.  Some of the songs he has written were sang by Nick or Brian. When Everyone is home we all get together and go out.  We have a lot of fun.  They were surprised about the news of Nick and I dating.  They didn’t think we would ever get that close.  I have fallen in love with Nick.  But I don’t think I would ever love him as much as AJ. I have gone on with my life as AJ told me to do so.  I wore his engagement ring for almost a year.  Until I started dating Nick.  Then I finally took it off and put it in a safe place.  That was the hardest thing I had ever done.  By doing that, I realized that I had started a new life. Back to Fanfic Back to Main Page