~Chapter 17~ "Umm.....hey look!  Let's go and talk to...umm...Carrie over there."  Tara said.  They all walked away leaving me with A.J. and Sharon.  I wasn't very happy that they did that. "Hey Tracy."  A.J. said. "Hey." "This is Sharon.  It's nice to actually see you again." "Yeah it's nice to see you too."  I answered.  "So....Are you two dating?" "Yes."  Sharon quickly said. "Well..."  A.J. started to say. I didn't wait to hear what he was going to say.  I ran up the stairs and out of the house.  I didn't want to talk to anyone anymore.  Finally I realize how miserable I am without him and that I really do want to be with him and he has a girlfriend.  I walked down the street thinking about how dumb I have been for the past week.  I know I have said this many times but that's how I have been.  I should have just gotten into my car and gone home but I just wanted to walk around for awhile. ~How am I going to live without him?  I deserve this.~  I thought. I heard thundering off in the distance.  A storm was coming in and it was coming fast.  I didn't care.  I just kept on walking, yelling at myself over and over again for letting the one person that I wanted to be with so bad go. ---------- *Meanwhile at the Party* "Yeah I think they are going to get back together."  Kim said to Kevin.  They were standing in a dark corner finally alone. "Great!  They should be together.  I am getting tired of seeing A.J. mope around.  Now..." Kevin said wrapping his arms around her.  "Let's think about us."  he leaned down and kissed her.  They started to really get into it when A.J. came and interrupted them. "Hey you guys sorry to bother you."  he said. ~Out of all the people here, why us?!~  Kim thought. "Hey are you and Tracy back together or what?"  Kim asked. "What?  What are you talking about?  Sharon and I went to talk to her and she just ran off." "Stupid, stupid, stupid!"  Kim exclaimed. A.J. looked really confused.  She began to explain. ---------- I walked around for about 10 minutes.  I even started to cry and I hardly ever cry.  I knew this had to be really bad.  I heard more thundering, and this time it was closer.  Then it began to poor.  I didn't care though.  I just kept walking.  I hit a dead end so I decided that I would head back. I came across a near by park and sat down on a bench to think.  I didn't really notice the rain much.  I sat there and cried.  I cried out all the anger, hurt and confusion that had been building up inside me. I broke up with A.J. because I didn't want to get hurt.  I did get hurt.  Not by him, but by myself.   I was soaked.  It was raining really hard.  I knew I was going to get sick if I stayed out here but I just didn't really care.  I was starting to think about what life would have been like if A.J. and I stayed together.  I knew it wouldn't have been as bad as I thought.  It wasn't that I thought that it would have been bad, I just thought that he would have broken my heart like so many others have.  All the walls I put up to protect myself didn't help at all.  They only hurt me more.  I saw a car pull on the side of the road.  Someone got out and called my name. ~Chapter 18~ I rested my head in my hands. ~Why is he here?~  I thought. A.J. walked up to me and sat down next to me. "Tracy I wish you wouldn't have run off like that."  he started to say.  "I talked to Kim."  he paused.  I didn't say anything.  What was I supposed to say?  He got up and knelt down in front of me. "You know the past few days have been hell without you.  I know you have been through a lot....If you would only give me a chance I can prove to you that I won't hurt you.  I would never hurt you.  And about Sharon......She lied about us.  She wants us to date, but I don't want to date her.  I even told her that.  I want to be with you Trace." I looked up at him. "Why would you want to be with me after I hurt you like that?"  I asked. "Because I want to.........I'm not going to let you got so easy." We stared at each other not saying anything for awhile.  Then he began to sing. "I'll never break your heart, I'll never make you cry, I'd rather die than live without you, I'll give you all of me honey that's no lie." I smiled a little bit but I didn't let him see that. "Please tell me you want to be with me."  he said taking my hand. "I love you A.J."  I finally said.  The words just came out.  I didn't realize what I said until after I said it.  I did mean it, even though it was kind of early to be saying it. "Wait, say that again.  I must be losing it."  he said. "I said I love you."  We both stood up at the same time.  I looked into his beautiful brown eyes. "You don't know how sorry I am for breaking up with you."  "It doesn't matter now.  We are back together.....right?" "Of course.  I have been miserable without you." Then he took me into his arms and kissed me.  I was so happy that this was all over.  I pulled away and hugged him tight.  Then he said something that I had been waiting to hear. "I love you Tracy.  I've missed you.  Oh god I've missed you." We stayed in eachothers arms for awhile, soaked from the rain which had finally stopped. "Come on let's get back to the party."  A.J. said. "But we're wet."  I said. "Well say we went for a walk in the park now come on."  he took my hand and led me to his car. ~Chapter 19~ *At the party* "Hey you're all wet!"  Kim said as A.J. and I walked in. "No shit sherlock!"  I said smiling. "Oh my god Kevin!"  Kim yelled. "What?"  Kevin wasn't paying attention. "Look Tracy smiled!  How long has it been since we've seen that?" "Wow I don't know."  he answered. "Well it's not very hard to see what happened."  Tara said from behind Kim. "What do you mean by that?"  Kim asked. "They got back together."  she answered. "And how would you know that?"  I asked frowning a little but smiling at the same time. "Well that's easy."  Tara said.  "First of all you both came in at the same time, you are both soaking wet so you have to have been together, and..... "That doesn't mean anything."  I said.  I wanted to play a little game with her. "And....the fact that you are holding hands right now.  Tracy I know you.  You wouldn't be that close to him.  You wouldn't even touch him with a 10 foot poll." I looked at A.J. who was smiling at me. "Ok so you're right."  I said. "I'm always right."  Tara said. "Yeah, right."  Kim and I said at the same time. "Well I really want to change my clothes so I'm going home."  I said. "Are you coming back?"  Tara asked. "I don't know.  Maybe."  I answered. I turned around heading towards the door with A.J. following. "I'll meet you over there."  A.J. said.  "I'm going to stop at my place and change first. "OK."  We kissed each other goodbye and went our separate ways.  Finally I was happy.  I was practically walking on air.  I was glad that A.J. still wasn't to be with me. ---------- *At home* I changed into some dry clothes and went into the living room to wait for A.J. ~What time is it?~  I though.  I looked at the clock on the wall and it said that it was 12:05. "Happy new years."  I said to myself.  I didn't care if I wasn't at the party.  As long as I would be with A.J. nothing else matters. Where is A.J. anyway?  He should have been here by now. ---------- *10 minutes later* I started to doze off when A.J. came in the door. "Hey.  Sorry it took so long babe."  he said. "Oh that's ok." "Um happy new year.  We missed the countdown I guess." "Yeah well that's ok.  At least we're together." "Thank god for that."  And with that he leaned down and kissed me.  I hoped that I would spend every new year with him. ~Chapter 20~ *6 months later* Nothing too serious happened in the past 6 months.  A.J., Nick, and Brian's birthdays came and went.  We had fun at their parties.  They got a little wild, but hey they are supposed to be! I finally graduated from high school, and so did the rest of my friends.  I was very happy to get out, but also very sad to leave all of my friends and classmates.  A.J., Kevin, and Brian showed up at our graduation and that was the first time that I had seen them in about 2 months.  It was really cool that they showed up.  But it was also a bad idea.  They ended up getting chased by a big mob of girls.  I've never seen anything like it. Did I mention that I moved in with A.J.?  Well I did!  The day after graduation.  We haven't lived together very lone but so far it has gone great.  I'm sure you are wondering what happened with everyone else. Kim and Kevin are still together.  She is even moving in with him.  Good for them!  I hope they stay together.  They are a cute couple.  It's funny to watch them fight but I won't get into the that. Tara and Howie are still together as well.  I still can't see how they are.  They are so damn different!  Well I guess opposite do attract.  However, they didn't move in together.  They didn't think it was the right time to be doing that.  Instead Tara and Carrie are roommates.  They live in a really nice apartment about 10 minutes away from A.J. and I. As you already know Carrie and Nick are not together.  They can hardly stand each other.  They fight about many stupid things.  We all just sit and laugh at the two of them bicker.  It's entertainment for when we all get bored. Larissa and Brian broke up in early March.  She had found someone else and they were both going in different directions.  They are still very good friends.  Brian is even dating someone now.  Her name is Christina.  I'm getting the feeling that this one is going to last for a very long time. That break up between A.J. and I last December was actually a good thing.  It made us realize how much we love each other.  I finally did open up to him and gave him my heart.  I know he won't break it. The End Chapters 9-12 Back to Fanfic Back to Main Page