January 5, 2000

Today I was a mega beast. I lashed out, I got pissy, I was cranky all damn day. So many things contribute to this. Manny's status, work, stupid clients who lie, the bank who returned my parking check FOR NO REASON!
Ugh.
I am a little more than frustrated with Tracy, he's been in the funky space far too long and needs to get his ass out! I will probably regret typing this, but oh well. It's the truth, and why should I lie in my own journal? If you don't like what you read, well then, DON'T!


Tonight at Guide Dogs was a little odd too. Not only did it suck not having a dog in the program anylonger, I had to tell folks about his status. So many people know who we are (and I don't know them!) and a few were really disappointed.
I have a hard time being around Kristie still. I feel badly about it, but she is just so over the top with so many things, it makes me uncomfortable. I was a little miffed too about the care package for Debbie. She is the glue right now in her family with her husband being out of work and in and out of the hospital, taking care of her girls, it's all been a strain! We as a group collected money and scrip to give as a gift from thier extended family. I thought of Debbie, she needs something for her. I told Kristie, she thought it was a good idea and we decided to go in on it and she would get it. Well, she shows up at the meeting, acting a little aloof (I hate that) and says that she made a bag with some stuff, and decided it would be from her and Dale. WTF? So, am I wrong for being pissed? I wanted to do it, she said we would, then goes off and does this? So, I bit my tongue and contributed some cash to the fund. I would have rather done the other. Damn it. Bitter, yes.
It's all par for the course with her though. The more I am around her the more I see this crap and get aggrivated! It was fine in the beginning, it wasn't nearly as bad. It did get ugly and I finally snapped and ever since then I have been so keen on it. I do miss the friendship we had and I miss the fun we had too. It really is a shame.

Training:
Tonight I went to the gym and rode the lifecycle for 24 mins. I couldn't stay too long since I got a late start and had to leave Manny in the car because his jacket was in Tracy's car, and he was in step. We went to Guide Dogs just after that since it was on the way.

I have been crack muffin free for over a week! Yeay! The pisser is that I ate candy when I got frustrated. I got lazy and greedy at lunch and added a buch of steamed rice to my frozen lunch tyoe thing. Nowhere near low carb day. To make it worse, I came home and chowed on taco bell. Fat, grease, carbs, chemicals... mmm good! At least I did ride! Tomorrow's another day. Lord, give me strength!

hooray for email!

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