In all the time I've been alive,
I've never felt so confused,
it's as is Mrs. Loneliness has swallowed me whole,
I've had all the goodness sucked right out of me,
I hope I can get myself together,
seasons start to turn . . .

If this hole gets any deeper,
gonna find it hard to breathe,
seemed so harmless at the start,
bouncing from star to star,
perhaps I've gone a little too far,
can't come down from my high,
got to gather all my thoughts and sort out this charade.

Memory's my only friend,
will this torture ever end,
think I'm going round the bend,
memory's my only friend.

I feel like a circus clown,
looking up but feeling down,
hope they can't see through my makeup,
tears under the tears,
I've shed my skin once too often,
now they see my soul,
carrying the weight of the world upon my sholders . . . looking backwards was a big mistake,
there's only so much my mind can take,
I know I'm not far from the end,
my memory's my only friend.