"What the hell," I whispered into the air. I ran up to him. "Brian!!!" I yelled. He didnt hear me, he just lay me on the ground. "Okay evryone clear the way!!! Give her some air!!" some medic pushed his way around the crowd that surrounded my body. He checked if I had a pulse putting two fingers around my slender wrist, I stood there hoping he'd say I was alive. "No pulse," the medic declared. "No," I whispered again.

"Its funny how just a few minutes ago you were hoping you would die," a friendly voice said behind me. I turned around to find a guy, so fine words cant describe, dressed in white. I didnt get to question him, I was interrupted by the medic screaming out, "Clear!" Trying to revive my body... I turned back to the guy and finally asked, "Am I dead? And why cant they see me?" "Gee its nice to meet you too," he replied sarcastically. He pointed back to my lifeless body... I turned around to find the medics still trying to revive my body.

"We've got a pulse!" one of them screamed out. I sighed in relief. They wheeled my body into the ambulance as Nancy followed to ride along. "Whats gunna happen to me?" I asked the mystery guy.

"You'll see soon enough... first I have a few things to tell, no show you"

"Why?"

"I'm not totally convinced that you're happy to be alive,"

"Are you some kind of guardian angel?"

"Yes, I am your guardian angel... my name's Hugo"

"How cool..." I trailed off.

"Follow me," he said sprinkling some glitter into the air as the scenery changed into my old elementary school. I saw all my old friend there... Susanna, Keith, Amarak and all the other people.

"In elementary school you motivated a lot, not by your words but by your actions. All those activities you did with full fledged courage gave people around you the same courage," Hugo said as I saw myself hula dance infront of the whole class with some of my classmates. He snapped his fingers and I was taken out of the picture. Everyone just sat there doing nothing. "See... no one had enough courage to do that hula dance so the people you did the dance with got lower grades... and because you werent there, nobody actually gained that courage throughout their lives," he continued.

I stayed silent.

He sprinkled more dust into the air and now we were in my middle school, my sixth grade classroom. "This is where you first met Nancy and Rose right?" he asked reffering two two of my three best friends. I nodded yes. "Well without you Nancy and Rose would have never met you and well..." he trailed off snapping his fingers.

We were now in Nancy's apartment, I looked around to find Nancy sprawled across the kitchen floor, blood everywhere. I gasped covering my mouth with my hand. "Without you Nancy never had you as her best friend, and you were never there to make her laugh nor prevent her from commiting suicide," he snapped his fingers once again placing us in Rose's bedroom. She sat there on her bed. "She seems okay... right?" I asked Hugo. "Not quite," he said pointing across the room. Her brother was laying on the floor with a knife stuck through his back. "You were never there to cool her down when she was mad at her brother," he replied.

He tossed more dust into the air... we were in my seventh grade history class. That courage thing follows you throughout your whole life," he said pointing to my old crush Hugo (To make it easier for yall hugo my crush will be called cujo and hugo my guardian angel will be called hugo). "I like his name," Hugo remarked. I smiled. "Remember all those love letters you sent Cujo expressing your eternal love for him?" Hugo asked. I nodded in agreement. "Well without you there to send them to him he never asked Mayra out, your love for him gave him higher self-esteem. Higher selesteem gave him courage and without you he never really finds out how to gather the courage to express his love to Mayra," he continued. "So? Like I ever liked that slut anyways," I replied. "AH HA!! See Mayra and Cujo never hook up so Mayra stayed with her old boyfriend, Mauricio. He pulls her into all the gangs and sex at the age of 15. She becomes pregnant shortly after dropping out of school never becoming the high school role model that inspired so many lives. One of those lives being Luz," Hugo said referring to my third best friend.

He threw more dust into the air and we appeared at my high school graduation. "Luz was high school Validictorian but with no Mayra and no you she doesnt get to deliver that heart touching speech that you helped her with. Instead she gives a pointless little speech discouraging so many lives. Your writing skills always challenged Luz to do better and without you she... well I shouldnt say cause that would be giving away the future and thats against the rules... lets just say she doesnt become the person that touches so many hearts and souls," he concluded.

Hugo sprinkled more dust into the air and we ended up in present time. We were in the hospital waiting room where Brian, Nick, Kevin, Nancy, Howie, AJ, Luz, Rose, Eric, and my family were standing, sitting and some sleeping.

"Why are they here?" I aske Hugo referring to the boys.

"They care," was all he answered me with.

"How long have I been out?" I asked.

"About a day," he replied, and on the look on all the people's faces I could sort of tell.

Hugo walked me over to Eric and Nancy, they were having a conversation:

Nancy: I cant believe you stayed here to see Cindy come out of her coma.

Eric: Yeah well... we had a conversation over lunch that sorta left me stumped and I wanna clear things up with her in person, plus the boys didnt seem to mind staying til she woke up.

Nancy: You must like her a lot then to stay here all day in this crappy hospital waiting room.

Hugo dragged me away before I could here Eric's answer. "Hey!" I screamed at Hugo annoyed. "Sorry but youre not supposed to hear his answer," he answered. He dragged me into another conversation, it was between Nick and Brian.

Nick: I hope Cindy turns out to be all right.

Brian: Yeah me too.

Nick: Whats up 'wit you B? Youve been pretty spaced out the whole day.

Brian: Yeah I know... it's just that I cant help but think her being in there is all my fault.

"It's not your fault," I whispered to him looking into his sorrowful eyes.

Nick: Dont blame yourself... it wasnt anybody's fault... and blaming yourself won't bring her back.

Brian: I know but its the only thing I can do right now, I think I'll go visit her. I wanna be with her if she wakes up anytime soon.

Nick: Okay, you really like this girl huh?

Just then Hugo dragged me into the room I was staying in. "I'm not supposed to hear that either huh?" I asked obviously knowing the answer. "Correctemundo milady," he replied.

Brian walked in and pulled up a chair right next to my bedside. He took my hand and said, "This is all my fault... if I hadn't said those things to make you mad then you would be safe before the fire started." I watched as he stroked my hand lovingly.

"He has a girlfriend... he cant be interested in me," I said turning to Hugo but he wasnt there. I stood there watching as Brian began to stroke my hair. I wanted so much to apologize for snapping at him earlier. Then maybe he wouldnt be blaming himself' I thought. I walked over to Brian... he sat there looking at me, it was obvious to me that he cared one bit for me. He got up out of his seat and kissed my hand as he began to walk away. I walked over to my body and entered it as my conciousness and body became one again.

I felt the hard hospital bed against my back and began to stir, Brian was about a foot away from the door when he turned around to see me awake.

"Hey ... you're awake," he said sweetly sitting on the chair at my bedside.

"Yup ... happy to see me?" I asked groggily stretching out my arms.

"Of course," he replied.

"I didnt think you would be... I mean the last time I saw you, you wouldn't even say one word to me," I retorted knowing it made him feel guilty.

"Yeah well, sometimes things don't seem as big a deal when something bigger happens and makes you realize how much that small thing could have ended something that could be," he said staring down at his hands. There was a silence in the air after he said that. "Did I make any sense at all?" he asked in a worried voice.

"You made so much sense that I dont even know what to say," I replied tenderly. I was so moved by what he just said that I forgot about the whole 'apologize to him' thing. He took my hand and looked into my eyes... I smiled and asked him, "What are you doing here, shouldn't you be doing some concert or something?"

"We sorta postponed it 'cause I had some un-resolved things with you that I wanted to clear up..." He trailed off shyly.

"Oh come on... dont be shy," I mocked... a smile slowly appeared on his face.

"Why did you get so mad?" he asked inadvertantly.

"Oh hey... you're awake... want me to get your parents?" Nancy asked as she came in through the door.

"Yeah but just give me ten minutes to talk to Brian alone," I hinted.

"Okay then ... ten minutes," she smiled omnisciently, walking out the door.

"You really want to know?" I asked. He just nodded and I was about to spill my guts... in my opinion I planned too much on doing so. "I dont know where to begin," I started.

"From the beginning would be a good place"

"Yeah but... theres just so much I dont even know which is the beginning"

"Just start"

"No I seriously don't know where to start... I mean I don't know what to say so it would be easier for you to understand... not like I plan on anybody to understand but you know?"

"I think I know what you mean just start from where you feel most comfortable and then elaborate"

"It almost sounds like youre teaching me how to speek... anyways..."

"OMIGOD!!! Are you okay??????" a squealing Luz entered my room hugging me.

"Nancy never really has had a concept of time," I mumbled to Brian.

"What'd you say?" Luz asked.

"Oh nothing," I lied. Brian let go of the hand I had forgotten he was holding and left me and Luz to talk alone.

"Are you okay?" Luz asked in her overly perky way.

"Yeah... just a little tired thats all," I answered.

"What were you and Brian doing alone?"

"Oh just talking"

"About what?"

"None of your business"

"Fine!"

"Okay, okay," I said giving into her. I told her the whole story up until the angel part (I left it out for her own sake).

"So you have a crush on Brian?" Luz asked.

"No, I didnt say that"

"Well why else would you want to go back and tell him you were sorry if you dont even like him"

"Even though I dont like him I still care for his feelings"

"Which means you like him"

"No I dont"

"Do too"

"Do not"

"Do too"

"Do not"

"Do too"

"Oh shut up!!!! I do not like him!!!!" I screamed not as loud as I knew I was capable of doing since I was still a little weak.

"Fine... you dont haveta tell me cause I already know you do. I can see it in your eyes," Luz stated.

"Yeah... whatever," I said rolling my eyes.

The doctor came in interrupting our interesting conversation and literally pushed Luz out of the room. She took one glance at the doc's butt and left the room mouthing the words 'nice ass' to me. I laughed out loud... it was just so funny. He asked me all the usual questions doctors ask and said,"You'll be able to get outta this hell hole tomorrow if you want, but for now no visitors... you need some rest."

"But haven't I had enough rest considering the fact that I was out for the past day?" I asked wittily.

"Oh dont be smart with me just get some rest if you know whats good for you," He said pointing his pen at me.

"Yes sir!!" I said doing a mock salute. I fell fast asleep right after the doctor left which as around 10 pm. I had a smile on my face when I drifted off to dreamland and as my eyes fluttered to sleep I whispered into the air, "Thanks Hugo." He really made me realize how much I meant to everybody. 'I guess I am pretty important after all' I thought to myself.

The sound of footsteps woke me up in the middle of the night. I glanced over at the clock. "2:00 am," I muttered.

"Im so sorry if I woke you," a familiar apologetic voice said to me.

"Oh hey Eric, and dont even apologize... you've done enough of that to me already," I explained with a weak smile. "What are you doing here anyways?" I asked.

"I couldnt sleep so I just thought I would watch you sleep like an angel, which is such a beautiful sight," he complimented.

"Thank you, but I meant what are you doing in the hospital"

"I wanted to be here when you woke up, and there is something I wanted to talk to you about..."

"And that would be?"

"OH nevermind... I shouldnt even bring it up... so how are you feeling?"

"Fine"

"I didnt ask how do you look I asked how are you feeling"

"Oh shut up... you are so full of it"

"Full of what?"

"Corny pick up lines"

"But you know you like em"

"Just shut up!!!"

He laughed and quickly changed the subject to music which eventually led to talk about the Backstreet Boys. "Do we have to talk about them? I mean Nancy tortures me enough with the things they do and her opinion on Nick's fineness," I complained.

"I just wanted to know which one was your favorite," He complained back.

"Well you'll never know cause I have no favorite."

"Oh come on you dont think any of them are fine?"

"Well Nancy did pull me into liking Nick for a really, really short time. I guess thats as far as my BSB crush fell."

"Oh... so do you have any celebrity crush other than liking Justin?"

"Do you always heva to bring that up?"

"What?"

"Me liking Justin?"

"Its just so fun seeing the look on your face every time I say his name... So any other crushes I should know about?"

"When you put it that way there are no crushes you should know about."

"Thats very sly of you to turn my words against me."

"Yeah well THAT'S MEEE!!!"

The sun began to rise after we ended a very hyper conversation about... I dont even remember but it was hyper.

"Well you seem very happy," Eric observed.

"Only cause you're here."

"Do I make you happy?"

My mind froze... my heart skipped a beat. 'Does he make me happy?' I asked myself. "Naw just practicing those corny lines," I lied uncomfortably. I wasnt really sure but I was never as comfortable talking to him than anyone else.

Except for Nancy , Luz, and Rose of course, cause they are girls... I think. Anyways like I was saying... I think Eric picked up on my lying, I was never a good liar. There was an uncomfortable silence that haunted the room, neither of us knew what to say after what I had just said. "Well I guess I'm not the only one with crappy lines," he finallly said breaking the silence.

"Yeah," I said uncomfortably looking away. I heard a knock at the door, I looked in the direction of the door avoiding Eric's eyes.

"I thought I told you no visitors?" the doctor asked. "Sorry doc... I just wanted to say good morning to her," Eric excused himself getting out of his chair and exiting the room as quickly as he could without trying to look weird.

"Who is he anyways?" the doctor asked.

"Oh just a friend."

"Really? Luz explained him as the stupid ass hole who ran into your parked car."

"Yeah well that too, you talked to Luz?"

"Yes, very interesting person to talk to with very interesting views. Up until I told her I was married."

I laughed until my sides hurt. "Well that's Luz for you, " said calming down a bit.

"Well you seem all set to leave, your mom left some clean clothes for me to give to you before she left to go to work," he said pointing to the small duffel bag he set on the floor as he walked in.

"Thanks," I said politely. I quickly changed into my clothes and met my crowd of friends in the waiting room. I could feel Eric's pair of eyes on me as Nancy asked, "Brian, Nick and I were gunna go play some ball, wanna come? If your not up to full strength you can always watch."

"Id love to but who's driving?" I asked.

"You are," she answered wiggling my car keys in front of me.

"It's done?" I asked excitedly.

"Nooo, I just thought you'd drive your invisible car," Nancy replied sarcastically.

I playfully pushed her grabbing my keys from her hand. We wiskfully left the hospital with the top down and stereo bumpin' and thumpin'.