Not much new, I am still looking for a job. I've applied for a few, heard back from one that they are still reviewing resumes. Been playing the guitar a lot lately, bought an electric bass. Working on writing a couple of songs, seems like the more going on with me that I have more ideas about songs. I saw in the paper the other day that the economists think the indicators about the economy growing are showing signs of it actually slowing down. That is not good for my situation. My birthday is coming up this week, I am fighting the flu. I hope I get to go out on my birthday, that has not happened for 3 years now. My husband never takes me out. He rarely does anything for me unless I ask him, and even then that is only for everyday things. I am undecided about selling my motorcycle, but we have no money to race. I still feel lonely, and most days pretty bored.
A month is almost by again. I thought you might like to hear about this. My birthday came and went to a large extent. My mom came out and we went to a movie, then she bought me a DVD for my birthday. My husband came home and would not take me out for my birthday, that makes 3 years in a row that he would not take me out. It was his chance to redeem himself, he chose not too. So what do you think of that? I know how I think about it. It was yet another blow to the relationship, it sinks lower and lower. I did meet up with another woman whom is about 15 years my younger, she is a GG and we have become quite good friends. She has no idea about me, or if she does, she is not letting on. But we were out shopping yesterday and she asked me to come into a dressing room with her. If she did know, I don't think she would have asked me to do that. Looks like we may get a good refund from the IRS, that is good news. Should be enough to pay off the motorcycle. I wish I could find a man that truly was looking for his best friend. I doubt that it exists though, I do hear about it often. Enough for now, I need sleep! Hope you keep reading, even though I lead a very boring life!
So much time passes, time is escaping! Where did the year go! It seems like it was just March or a little later. So much for friends. I made a mistake and loaned some money to the woman who I thought was a friend of mine. She disappears and I have not seen a dime. I traveled to a couple ice hockey tournaments. In one I was selected as the MVP, that was a first. Things are really no better for me in the relationship. I have made a life for myself, in many ways my husband is not a part of it either. I have raced a little. Been very busy with web sites. The only benefit is that I get to ride some of the race tracks for free. That helps though!! One track has taught me how to drive a dozer. That is interesting! I was reffing ice hockey, but just recently was asked to stop. I guess it is for the best. They were not giving me the support nor the games to get better at it. In August I attended a motorcycle safety class in order to get my endorsement on my license. The instructors were so impressed with my riding that they asked me to go buy a street bike. Ride, then take another class, then become an instructor. That was pretty cool!! I did buy a street bike, you should see the looks I get from people when they see it is a woman riding a 1000cc bike. Getting all the gear is expensive, I don't have the rain gear yet so that has hindered my riding some lately. I have been building a recording studio also. That has certainly been educational. I am researching things a lot deeper after having a music store mislead me on some equipment. I am undecided about the holidays this year. Still leaning more towards not doing anything again. Even after my husband has done nothing on my birthday for the last three years. I relented and took him to see Robert Plant for his birthday. So you can see that I am not a vindictive person, I just want to be happy. I am so alone, I get along with strangers better than my husband! Strangers are nicer to me also! Well that should catch you up some on what is going on with me. I will try and write once or twice more before the end of the year.