you never knew if it was true
had your doubts but always wanted to believe
all the sweet talk his mouth let out
wanted to believe that he needed you as much as you needed
Someone
it wasn't him you needed. it was anyone. he was there.
saw your vulnerablility and
Took Advantage.
said all the right things. even when he called, he sounded
sincere. SOUNDED sincere. was he?
never know. things got out of control. then died. quit. nothing.
he wanted to blame it on you
act hurt. pretend you don't love him. suicide threats. hostility.
Separation.
mutual friendship. decided by
Silence.
still wondering if he's telling the truth or
maybe just full of it. using you.
talking still. only when he's available. no more letters.
No Threats.
blind pokes at your personality. name-calling. lies.
covering up.
covering up what? the hurt? or the feelings that were
Never There?

September 1997