Worthless Reflections: Gothic Activities
It is sad indeed, when individuals begin to call themselves 'freaks' and mean it..
Another thing which tends to piss me off when I come in contact with another persons definition of "gothic people".. It seems that the idea is that they are conveying is, "'I am gothic, I know other gothic people, we do the same things, therefore All gothic people do"..and they collectively use the word "we" over an over again, even after they say, "no two goths are alike....but all goths do the following:.."
From what I am to understand, gothic people all:
1. Have lax sexual habits
2. Are very excessive in drug use
3. Drink blood regularly
4. Are interested in gothic art and literature
5. Have pain and torture fetishes
6. Are extremely depressed
7. Indulge in club-going
8. Are obsessed with the night, darkness and death
9. Wear all black and dye their hair..
Now, does this mean that if I do not conform to these habits I am not Gothic??
1.) I do not believe in pre-marital sex, let alone sleeping with as many different people as I can during my life.. Now perhaps that makes me sound like loser who is just making excuses for his hideousness and lack of ability to get laid or something..::shrug::..ask me if I care..
2.) I have a VERY big problem with drugs. My Mom had to have emergency double by-pass surgery and almost died when I was 14. Also..*storytime*. I used to be in a fairly large circle of friends, until we all found drugs. I got out early. With all that I have been through with these people, I can no longer call them friends..They still call me a friend..but it seems more like, "when there aren't any drugs around, I'll be your friend...but if I'm with you and I catch wind of drug use in a 5 mile radius..I'm there." I don't know how many "friends" have stood me up because they would rather be using drugs, then staying clean for more than 4 hours at a time. Now perhaps it is my problem that all my friends are gone, but nothing lasts forever anyway.. does it?.
3.)Drinking blood..a strange sexual behaviour?..I don't know..I don't really care either..
4.)No big secret, I am interested in gothic art and literature, in fact, I hope, one day, to become a gothic writer.
5.)This is the one that gets me.. I hate emotional pain, physical pain is not something I enjoy but I wouldn't exclude it from my life totally.. I've been a football player for 7 years for christ sakes, I'm not a stranger to getting tackled by 300lb giants.. Self-inflicted pain..is not a subject I wish to touch upon ..period..
6.)Depression..another thing I'm not going to personalize..I will agree, although it blows my mind, It feels so good to feel so bad..but, If I had a choice, I would rather feel good to feel good..
7.)I don't like people, I don't like to socialize..I don't have any friends and I am not looking for any. I used to go to a club, it was full of stupid fake people, one of which freely claims and advertises that he is satan...he did the same when he was a vampire too.. the only reason I went there was because my friends' band played there.. they broke up when drugs came into the picture and I rarely assoiciate with them anymore..
8.)I do have a thing..rather, a fascination for darkness, death, and the such..but I am proud to say that I am not one of those melodramatic people who when you ask how they are, they will respond, "the falling sun brings an end to hate and with the moon rises eternal love.." or some shit like that..
9.)I do happen to be one of these people as well, but I know other people who do not and seem to depict gothicism..
Well, All I know is that if all this means that I am not gothic, and to be gothic, you must do all of the above..then I don't want to be "gothic"..
..tell me what you think..
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