Cold and aloof

a picturesque statue

a river of ice

alone

confused and angry

run away from you

scared to face

reality

you do not follow

leave and withdraw

wallowing in misery I

wait

no ones comes

never will, never has

do not plan on it

unforgiven

insanity beakons

warm arms and loving hands

hold me close beside

him

togeather we sit

insanity and I

reveling in eachother

withdrawn

the world waits

in total silence

I cry out now

unheard

so I sit

watching the world

ignoring the life

standoffish

leaving the sane

I am a genious

insanity is my

weapon

destroy the world

no love anyway

it is all gone

lies

black and white

colors banned

not for me

illegal

and so I take

my life in hand

mine to command

death

rebirth is possible

what wil I be

human, animal, male, female

undecided

life force leaves me

slowly forever

I see nothing

Blackness.

-Jessica Holder (aka Christine Connla)