I hold my breath and close my eyes and dream about her
Cause she's 2000 light years away
She holds my malakite so tight so...
Never let go
Cause she's 2000 light years away
I sit outside and watch the sunrise
Lookout as far as I can
I can't see her, but in the distance I hear some laughter
We laugh together
I'm losing what's left of my dignity
A small price to pay to see that you're happy
Forget all the disappointments you have faced
Open up your worried world and let me in
Juliet's crying cause now she's realizing love can be
Filled with pain and distrust
I know I am crazy, and a bit lazy
But I will try to bring you up again now.
Pay attention to the cracked streets and the broken homes
Some call it slums some call it nice
I want to take you through a wasteland I like to call my home
Welcome to Paradise
A gunshot rings out at the station
Another urchin snaps and left dead on his own
It makes me wonder why I'm still here
For some strange reason it's now feeling like my home
I'm never gonna go
Dear mother, can you hear me laughin'?
It's been six whole months since I have left your home
It makes me wonder why I'm still here
For some strange reason it's now feeling like my home
I'm never gonna go
Give me something to do to kill some time
Take me to that place that I call home
Take away the strains of being lonely
Take me to the tracks at Christie Road
See the hills from afar
Standing on my beat up car
The sun went down and the night fills the sky
Now I feel like me once again
As the train comes rolling in
Smoked my boredom gone
Slapped my brains up so high
Mother stay out of my way of that place we go
We'll always seem to find our way to Christie Road
If there's one thing that I need that makes me feel complete
So I go to Christie Road
It's home...
Because I feel so right
Let my imagination go
Until you're in my sight
And through my veins temptation flows
So I sit down here on the hard concrete
Think of my future now
I just don't know
I don't seem to care
So I sit across the street from your home
I wonder if you're sitting all alone
Or is your boyfriend there
Cause I love feelin' dirty
And I love feelin' cheap
And I love it when you hurt me
So drive those staples deep
I want you to slap me and call me naughty
Put a beltsander against my skin
I want to feel pain all over my body
Can't wait to be punished for my sins.
Do you think you're indestructable
And no one can touch you
Well I think you're disposeable
And it's time you knew the truth
Cause it's just one of my lies
It's just one of my lies
I only wanted to get real high
Cause it's just one of my lies
Why does my life have to be so small?
Yet death is forever
And does forever have a life to call its own?
Don't give me an answer cause you only know as much as I know
Unless you're been there once
Well I hardly think so
I used to pray all night
Before I lay myself down
My mother said it was right
Her mother said it too...
Why?
Everything she does questions my mental health
It makes me lose control I wanna hurt myself
If anyone can hear me slap some sense into me
But you turn your head and I end up talking to myself
Anxiety has got me strung out and frustrated
So I lose my head or I bang it up against the wall
Everything she does questions my mental health
It makes me lose control I just can't trust myself
Sometimes I wonder if I should be left alone
And lock myself up in a padded room
I'd sit and spew my guts out to the open air
No one wants to hear a drunken fool
I do not mind if this goes on
Cause now it seems I'm too far gone
I must admit I enjoy myself
80 please keep taking me away
It makes me wonder when I grow to be that age
Will I be walking down the street begging for your spare change?
Or will I grow that old?
Will I still be around?
The way I carry on I'll end up six feet underground
And waste away...
When the old man was in school
Did the golden rule make him go crazy
Or did he hide away from hopes
Behind a smile and smoking dope
It's crazy
It seems so frightening
Time passes by like lightning
Before you know it you're struck down
I always waste my time on my chemical emotions
It keeps my head spinning around
Call me irresponsible
Call me habitual
But when you think of me
Do you fill your head with schemes
Better think again cause no one knows
I don't want to cause no harm
But sometimes my actions hurt
Is there something I should find?
To make plans for forever
Does it seem like all your memories fade?
You soak up knowledge to fill the space
And still my answer remains... I don't know
There's a boy who fogs his world and now he's getting lazy
There's no motivation and frustration makes him crazy
He makes a plan to take a stand but always ends up sitting
Someone help him up or he's gonna end up quitting
I shuffle through my mind
To see if I can find the words I left behind
Was it just a dream that happened long ago?
Oh well... Never mind
Now I dwell on what you remind me of
A sweet young girl who sacrificed her love
As for me... I am blind without a cause
And now I reazlied what I have lost
It was something real that I could have had
Now I play the fool whose stable soul's gone bad
Why?
Tell me the words I might have said
That's pumping pressure deep inside my head
Was it bad enough to be too late?
Just tell me the words I might have ate
Running wild and always running free
Seeing things that I have never seen
Hearing colors and all I see are sounds
Now I know that you're the best thing in town
Best thing around
I'm seeing faces and places of the earth
I know not one must be the places of my birth
I've got this thing, it's use I cannot find
The missing piece of the puzzle in my mind
Evidence is everywhere
I start to run, now I'm scared
Strange beings all around.
Everyone come to this place I've found
I'll feel what it's like to be hopin'
Wonder why?
Unlocked doors will be open
No more crys
My eyes are clear and now I'm cured
I'm the one to speak for sure
Revolve my life around this lie
It's all right from my head through my eyes
Get in my head and you will find
Mother love from all mankind
Look up in the desert sky
It's all right from my head through my eyes
Why don't y'all just fade away?
Talkin' bout my generation
And don't try to dig what we all say
Talkin' bout my generation
I'm not trying to cause a big sensation
Talkin' bout my generation
I'm just talkin' bout my generation
Talkin' bout my generation
My generation
Break it, fuck that shit!
Talkin' bout my generation