A little about myself.. I am 22. I am a scorpio.I am very true to my sign, I follow all the sterotypes. On 11/10/1981 I graced the world with my presence.I have been a stright edge for about 8 years now. It is a life descision which has made a vast change on my friendships and my weekends. I lost all of my friends when I stopped doing drugs. When I look back now I didn't loose anything really except some brain cells and a few peoples phone numbers. Life became pretty dull without drugs Untill I rekindled my passions..These are some of the things that drive my life now... Music is my # one passion. It truly is my driving force and my savior. A song can make my day. It can bring me out of a crap ass mood. (And also but you into one) Music has many secret powers and it drives deep into everyone's lives. People relate songs to memories. Memories to times in their lives...I don't believe in types of music. There is no type of music. There is a diverse unity of harmony in sound and that is music. There are no types. There are no sections or divisions. I enjoy all variations of music. To country (shh keep that one quiet), to jazz, to rock, to trip hop to hip hop, to classical to rap. There are very few bands who's music I find difficult to enjoy. With my solid enjoyment for music it places me with a dilema to always seek out new sounds and live shows. I spend a large quanity of my free time listening to new artists and attending concerts. Music is a large part of my personal life. I used to have a little dream of becomming a musician and moving to somewhere wonderful. Not to say that 5 million people don't have that same dream, or 5 million before them...But these things require time and devotion. I don't think my one guitar cord is going to make me famous, but you never know...Another passion for me is writing. I seem to end up in crazy positions in my life and seriously I strive to grin and bear it. It gives me things to jot down at the end of my day. I have had things published and that has to be one of the best feelings. It's glorious to have someone recognize your thoughts and appreciate them. Then to be compensated by having your thoughts put into print to share with others. What is better than that? Overall I appreciate the beauty in the world..I appreciate the beauty in each and every person. I can find something good about almost everyone I know and meet. I carry on conversations with strangers daily.Sometimes I'm shy and come off as rude because of it but I try to be kind to the world in hopes that I may get that back one day. People make me smile..Not many people do these things. I leave nothing for granted and I take advantage of every moment I witness because you can not re-live another second in this life. I would love to bring my passions full circle and write songs and create music..but.. Since Life takes over and there are soo many time restrictions I can't exactly live that dream now. I am instead living this life as a full time student and working full time. Not so glamerous, but it fills my days. I am going to school for computer programming. I work days as a retail manager/run non stop girl/ jack or all trades type and go to classes at Night. I get to sit down around 11 or 12 at night and this is how I spend my time..Typing at my PC. I am a computer geek and proud of my given title. It puts food on my counter. (I don't exactly have a table yet so I cant say that) People ask me alot about my goals in life..my hopes and dreams..Well I am 22 and sometimes I feel a little bit older because of what life has handed me. I am not complaining at all. What has happened in my life has molded me into the person I am today..ANYHOW..my goals?? TO be happy,eat good food and have healthy relationships with people. Doesn't sound like much but in this world it's a consistant effort. Though I seem to have no problems with the food. As far as romance in my life.. I kinda have my hands full allready. The people in my life are dear to me..and no offense but my hands aren't big enough for another person.I try to live each day to it's fullest and enjoy the little things in life. Sunshine.. sunsets..and Thanking the Goddess that I didn't end up read ending that car on the highway today..Shit like that.Live Life--Enjoy :)
-Love And Life- --Angell.--
THE LIFE GOAL: Bored? Wanna read my real Dream? Carry On....
There's music, and there's computers. There is not going to be a choice between the two, there is going to be a complementation Between the two. Which will finally equal self satisfaction & possible happiness in that there is no decision, no choice, anymore. But rather a GOAL, a solid path, and a CREATION. I want to sit and tweak Things on the PC to generate sound. I want to create sound, via wires, connecting devices, to other devices, to my mind. I want to make quirky little sounds on my PC, I want to import little samples that I make on the street, of my voice, of your voice, of nature, of answering machine messages, and wrap them all together around a beat and call it music, like some people are doing, but not well enough, In my opinion..I want to do it well, better, in real time. I want to wreak of individuality in my creation as I already do in personality and demeanor. I want to shock in indifference. And I will. I want to combine my two biggest life passions and bring them full circle. I want the two things that I love most to stop conflicting each other, battling in warfare in my mind, heart, and soul. I can do both, I can make both, I can create. With my mind, body, and soul. With my Hands I'll write, With my hands I will generate sound through machine, Using my given voice I will vocalize my dreams to strangers in hopes of human relation and seeing what all this means.. Where are the individuals? Where are the strange? Who generates their hearts into their music nowadays? Welcome Change + Difference. And know there is a life long need to combine these deep rooted passions in order to have a self worthy career, a future, an education, a basis of accomplishment, acceptance, success, fulfillment, and to have a bit of fun while going through it all. The constant pulling within oneself cannot be lifelong, It's far too unsettling. Through Sonic Synergy one could take to the sky... Where is this possible? When is this possible? HOW is this possible? I ask YOU....