And what I wanted to be

Is just a blissful memory

That has run away from me

Maybe I didnt want to be it

As much as everyone else had

But I wanted something far from this

What going on is really bad

I said I couldnt controll it

But thats a fucking lie

And my pool of joyous purity

Has dripped and leaked to dry

I feel dirty

And what to do?

I dont know

Trying to think it through

Thinking doesnt help

And this is completely messed

What happened last night

No one ever could have guessed

I wasnt this kind of person

I wasnt a slutty whore

But thats what I am now

Not a good girl anymore

I was thinking with my head

Instead of thinking with my heart

And these two pieces of me

Are the furthest things apart

There was teenage temptation

And these raging hormones of mine

Handing me all these consequences

Just for one night of party time

Everyone was macking out and fucking

And I wanted to be playing this game

So I grabbed a total stranger

Didnt even ask him his name

One night of fun

With a stoned stranger

Reveling in the feeling

And tasting the danger

But what I have now

Is something that wont pass

And to my stoned stranger

I was nothing more than a piece of ass

A baby on the the way

And Im only 15

This is not the way

Things should have been

Havent checked myself for any STD`s

But for all I know he had every one

And maybe he passed them along to me

From that one night of party time fun

Was my stoned stranger on drugs?

Is a drug addicted baby on the way?

One night of fun ruined my life

And I dont got nothing more to say