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January 3, 2004 | Sunny Day Real Estate "Fool In the Photograph"
So, I'll write about some of what has happened in my life lately, because I -do- realize that my entries have been lacking in any actual...confiding. Let's see...Jonny and I put our pix up on makeoutclub.com as a sort of joke. We'll see what happens when they post our profiles, should be interesting. There's only three more days of vacation, fuck! I have to work on my stupid art project. If you scroll all the way to the bottom of this journal and read about my "art project" yeah it's the same one I'm working on now. I have to finish it. I like art...but I despise this project. I won't focus on it...
Hoping to do -something- social over the weekend so that my vacation does not seem a complete waste. Not sure how that will work out. I've noticed that people's grammar is awful, not just because they're too lazy to type correctly on aim, they just have poor education. Example: "we except her". No, it's "we accept her"! 'Except' is used correctly in the phrase "everyone except Chelsea is awesome". You see? Also learn your there's people. "They're going to a party", "There is a puppy in the store", "Their car is crappy". Keep that close to your heart. This is stupid, sorry I went into that grammar lesson. It's just that damn AIM, you know? I'm gonna work on my science project. Bye.
Moment of zen (ie- ripping off Jon Stewart):

-cXw
January 1, 2004 | Danzig "Mother"
So...it's 1:06 am, happy new year? I went to Brendan's tonight but I could only stay till 10, which sucked muchly. But at least I went out, which is more than some people can say...Graham Howe. Hahaha, I love when I have a social life and the popular kids don't. I took some pictures, but not a lot because I was only there for...four hours. We were watching movies! there weren't many photo opportunities that didn't bug people. Anyway, it was fun, although it was severely lacking in Austin Corey....sex. Okay...this is a survey that George sent me, so if you're mad at all the survey's I've been posting, blame George.
//BASIC INFO | Real Name: | Chelsea | Nicknames: | Chels-dogg | Name you wished you had: | Skyler | Current Age: | 15 | Age you wished you were: | I'm quite content with my current age | Birthday: | April 7th | Specific Location: | computer chair | Status in Lyf: | don't spell life with a y, you fool | //FAVES | Movie: | Ghost World | Book: | Perks of Being a Wallflower | Food: | chinese | Song: | not sure | Singer: | maybe Ani | //HATES | Movie: | damn...i've sat here for fifteen minutes thinking, and i can't come up with one movie that I truly hate | Book: | Julius Caesar or the Vampire Armand | Food: | pork chops ugh | Song: | I have a few I dislike but I don't know their names | Singer: | Christina Aguilera | //HAVE YOU EVER... | Romantically liked a teacher: | haha that substitute in seventh grade | Kissed your same gender: | nooo | Gone skinny dipping: | no | Shoplifted: | not really | Bitched at your best friend: | haha yesss | Lied about your age: | yeah | Are you lying right at this moment: | nope | //WOULD YOU EVER.. | Run up and down your street naked for $300: | three hundred dollars? no, it would have to be a lot more money | Go on a reality show: | wow, I thought about this the other day, and I decided that as long as it was some sort of "let's just tape what this child does on an everyday basis" type of thing, then sure | Marry a wrinkly, old millionaire: | never | Get a tattoo: | you never know | Fuck people for money: | no | Go into a gay bar just to experience gay life: | sure, a gay bar, not a lesbian bar | Be a member of a gang/mafia: | nah | Change your image to be popular: | no | //THIS OR THAT | Panties or Thongs: | panties | Up or Down: | up | Boob or Ass: | ummm ass? | Being alive and miserable or Being dead in peace: | alive and miserable, things could always get better | Stranded in the Ocean or Stranded in the Desert: | fuck...uhhh, the desert | Nipple Ring or Somwhere-Down-There Ring: | ugggh both are repulsive, retardedly so, but i guess nipple? | Ran out of undies or Ran out of Toilet Paper: | undies? | Tickle or Pinch: | tickle | Food in your hair or Hair in your food: | food in hair | Shy Person or Loud Mouth: | depends | //WHAT DO YOU THINK OF... | Masturbation: | guys | Alcohol: | inebriation? | Abortion: | plan b | Marijuana: | mr. connors | PreMarital Sex: | normal | Finding Nemo: | cute | Sebastian from Little Mermaid: | token jamaican sea crab | Johnny Depp: | Sleepy Hollow | Britney Spears: | slut | Hilary Duff: | twit | Rotten Milk: | lumpy | Gays/Lesbians/Bisexuals: | hip | Me (Make it good or I'll slap ya HARD!): | I don't know you...wait...George sent me this, is this supposed to be about George? Hmmm George: sexy piece of manflesh | //RANDOM Q&A | Where is the best place to have sex: | the beach as long as you have a blanket of some sort | Where is the worst place to have sex: | hmmm...I don't know about that one...sex is pretty imaginable in a lot of places... but deffinately not in a really gross, skanky bathroom | Who is the biggest disgrace in your family: | hmm...I don't know, we've been exiled from the rest of our clan | Are you ashamed about being friends with someone: | no | If yes, who is it? If not then type, WOOGABALOOGALOOGA!!!: | screw that | What color would you dye you hair: | orange-red | What instrument do you play: | my....imaginary one | Are you a bitch who'll scream, I DON'T WANNA FUCK U! at a quiet place: | hey...do you listen to afi or something? because I love "Cruise Control" | Who are your closest friends: | Tom and ummm, yeah Tom | Do you they know they are close to you: | Yes loi | Who are your enemies: | don't have any...now that i returned Justin Ball's pants that is! PHEW | Why are they your enemies: | n/a | What do you say when you stub your toe: | owwwe | Do you still go trick or treating: | i did this year, for the first time in a while | Name someone who annoy you the most: | You, with your terrible grammar. no...who annoys me? my siblings maybe | What are you wearing now: | blue cloud pj's, i'm hip | What time is it: | 12:58, happy 2004 | A name people call you that pisses you off: | no one really calls me anything that annoys me | Do you know anyone who is pregnant right now: | nope | What song is stuck on your head: | none | What is your current teeth color: | um...white? | Do you like freckles: | I suppose | Do you HAVE freckles: | some | What is the best number in the whole wide world: | 4 | Would you collect your grandma's toe jams for $5000: | damn straight, if she were alive, i would not -touch- dead toe jams | Do you think you'll be arrested in the future: | I sure hope not | What is your curfew time: | don't really have one but i seem to be the first to leave every time | Will you ever date someone you met online: | I don't think so | Most romantic thing that ever happened to you: | that's a big n/a | If you can transform into something what would it be: | ....i would transform into a dolphin, that would be fucking brilliant. sitting in class...teacher calls on me and i don't know the answer BOOM i'm a dolphin | If you were to kill someone, what method will you choose: | depends on if i liked them or not. If i didn't know them or I liked them I would choose something painless, if i hated them I'd...shoot them? I'm too humane | Do you type with your fingers on the right keys: | yeah, I'm a geek | Are you bored right now: | yes | Can I virtually kiss and hug you: | please do | I just did, what will you say and do: | "again" and lunge at you | This survey is done, what do you think of it: | I don't want it to be over...:( | If you said something positive abovethen type I LOVE fLO: | I'm not sure if that -was- positive | If you said something negative then slap yourself you BITCH!: | no... | Didn't I say this survey was over: | shut up | Did you think I was lying: | I'm tired of you | Am I becoming a bitch to you: | I retract my statement about not wanting this to end | Am I annoying: | yes | If yes, then sorry... Type, APOLOGY ACCEPTED: | no | If not, then... (Look Below): | woah | I: | you! | LOVE: | -heart- | YOU: | me! | What do you say back: | depends on who you are, fool! |
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Here are the pix I took at Brendan's, there are only a few, but I know you get off on my life...click!
-cXw
December 30, 2003 | music: Primus "My Name is Mud"
Woah...bored...took a survey.
What is your favorite.. | gum: | Big Red | restaurant: | ummm lacantina | drink: | lime ricky? mmmm | season: | i like them all for different reasons | type of weather: | same as above | emotion: | acception | thing to do on a half day: | not sure | late-night activity: | this! | sport: | n/a | city: | ummm Boston? loi | store: | i read that fast and I thought it said "whore". ummm the Good Will store place | When was the last time you.. | cried: | two nights ago, woo emo | played a sport: | 8th grade | laughed: | ealier this morning | hugged someone: | few weeks ago :( | kissed someone: | err over a month ago? | felt depressed: | couple nights ago | felt elated: | hmmm...probably last week | felt overworked: | today | faked sick: | last year | lied: | few weeks ago | What was the last.. | word you said: | "you" | thing you ate: | toast and peanutbutter | song you listened to: | "Okay, I believe you but my tommy gun don't" Brand New | thing you drank: | milk | place you went to: | the dentist | movie you saw: | Return of the King | movie you rented: | loi the Two Towers | concert you attended: | legend fest? | Who was the last person you.. | hugged: | Austin | cried over: | ermmm... | kissed: | goguen | danced with: | see above | shared a secret with: | hmmm ummm maybe my sister? | had a sleepover with: | hahaha Decoster? | called: | ummm austin or tom | went to a movie with: | Randy and Austin | saw: | my sister | were angry with: | grrrr | couldn't take your eyes off of: | I don't know | obsessed over: | ha.......ha | Have you ever.. | danced in the rain: | no | kissed someone: | yes | done drugs: | no | drank alcohol: | no | slept around: | nooo | partied 'til the sun came up: | loi no | had a movie marathon: | yes! | gone too far on a dare: | ummm no? | spun until you were immensely dizzy: | yes...that is my life | taken a survey quite like this before: | yes, you think you're special but you're not |
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-cXw
December 28,2003 | music: AFI "The Prayer Position"
So...I got my camera for Christmas and I took a walk today down to the railroad tracks to take some nifty photos. I have....2 pictures left on my first roll of film and I'm not quite sure what I want to photograph. I went to the mall the other day and saw Jess Stuart there, talked to her for a bit. Yeah...today was going to do something but I guess that didn't work out....as I did not recieve information and was therefor excluded. What's in store for me as far as the remainder of the evening goes? I'd say....sitting at the computer for a few hours, hoping against hope that someone, anyone will log on. Then, about half an hour of staring at the floor before I will retire to my room and cry softly into my pillow while clutching my Coldplay Live cd case and listening to emo music. If this sounds like fun to you...I hate you.
Not really...I love you. Now where do you think you're going?
-cXw
December 26, 2003 | music: Saves the Day "My Sweet Fracture"
No mention of Christmas in this blog entry, maybe next time folks.
Tonight my heart is filled with teenage melodrama. Here's the story. One naive teenage girl, pitiful in her lack of dignity, in fair Upton, where we lay our scene. That's enough of our pal Will. So, we have our typical naive, foolish girl whose life revolves around highschool and emo-esque things like writing poetry, art and...Ani DiFranco. We see said Naive Teenage Girl on the day after Christmas, arguing with the clinically depressed younger sister. Naive Teenage Girl seeks solace in the only place a teen -can- find solice these days, the internet. She finds her comfort in AIM, current teenage media substitute to crack-cocaine. Who should log on but her very own Mixed Signals Boy. So the two children talk. Well...she talks...and Mixed Signals Boy sends mixed signals. Naive Teenage Girl listens to some music, mostly crappy because she -is- emo after all, then she decides that Mixed Signals Boy's new name should be Nonresponsive Boy. Then she starts to wonder what people would think if she died, because she's a teenager and that's what teenagers do. She realizes that Nonresponsive Boy, formerly Mixed Signals Boy, wouldn't give a damn at all.
Currently Naive Teenage Girl is being told by Shaggy Haired Ninja Boy, that she has been sitting at the computer for 7 hours. She contemplates her life.
-cXw
December 24, 2003 | music: Ani Difranco "Buildings and Bridges"
Today is Christmas eve. I'm getting my camera, finally! If this confuses you then you should know that I always have Christmas with my dad on Christmas eve.
What can be said about my life recently? I saw RotK on sunday with Austin and Randy. It was a fun time. I was sick yesterday so I couldn't go to school, which pissed me off because I really wanted to go. I entertained the thought of walking to school at around 10 am, but then I threw up so I decided against it. That's basically it. I'm sorry. No excitement. I'll write tomorrow about stuff?
-cXw
December 21, 2003 | music: none
Last night...

-cXw
December 20, 2003 | music: HIM "Right Here In My Arms" (thanks to Austin)
Austin sent me music the other day and now this song ruuules. More than you. HA! So, last night was awesome for the most part.
Austin, Randy and I went over Brendan's house and watched some of Revenge of the Nerds before going with Applegate to Subway and then to the poolhall to meet up with people. Most of the night at the pool hall was lame for obvious reasons, but Randy and Jonny are my awesome sXe friends so it was okay. I sat on Brendan's lap and Austin hugged me so I think the evening was not wasted, loi. Hmmm...Sean is a horrifying driver and Chris looks like Vin Deasel when he's behind the wheel, apparantly. My mom and STEVE picked Randy and I up at Dunkin Donut's and we went home. That was the short version, proud of my condensing skills?? I knew it.
I'm not sure how I feel about certain things now, but I do know that I'm pretty content with my life at the moment. Hopefully everyone will go to see RotK on sunday and let me come because I still haven't seen it. According to Brendan, though, it's awesome. I still can't wait to see the extended version of the Two Towers when I get it for xmas. I know, my LotR talk is lost on most, so I'll stop.
Not sure what I'm doing today...but I do know that I still need to buy Steve an xmas present, frame the picture of Dalicia and make Alex a card. -Sigh-. Make me happy, people. Sign my guestbook.
-cXw
December 17,2003 | music: Third Eye Blind "How's It Gonna Be?"
Wow, I'm lonely as usual. Want to see the Return of the King so desperately but won't be able to until this weekend and until I find someone to take me. Anyone? Okay yeah. I'm the girl that's cool to talk to until the thought of investing any real time comes up. So, if anyone has plans for LOTR and wants to invite me, give me an im.
-cXw
December 16, 2003 | music: nothing
Name: Chelsea
Nickname: Chels-dogg
Birthday: April 7, 1988
Birthplace: Natick
=Now=
Current mood: content
Current music: Bif Naked
Current taste: spit
Current hair: down?
Current clothes: cords and a tshirt
Current annoyance: being unattractive
Current smell: christmas tree
Current thing I ought to be doin: homework
Current windows open: windows media player, one internet explorer, one word doc and 5 aim windows
Current desktop picture: LOTR last alliance
Current favorite band: Saves the Day?
Current book: Ham On Rye
Current cd in stereo: Emo Is Awesome, Emo Is Evil
Current crush: many
Current favorite celeb: Santa
Current hate: two girls in my geometry class
=Do I=
Smoke?: No
Do drugs?: No
Have sex?: No
Give oral sex?: No
Receive oral sex?: No...gee i'm a loser
Have a dream that keeps coming back?: yes
Remember your first love?: yes
Still love him/her?: no
Read the newspaper?: occasionally
Have any gay or lesbian friends?: loi Alyssa!
Believe in miracles?: I guess
Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever?: to what? a person or religion? what is this crap?
Consider yourself tolerant of others?: basically
Consider love a mistake?: no
Like the taste of alcohol?: never tried it
Have a favorite candy?: oui
Believe in astrology?: no
Believe in magic?: eh?
Believe in god?: *God, and no
Have any pets: no :(
Go to or plan to go to college: yes
Have any piercings?: no, too tribal for me
Have any tattoos?: no
Hate yourself: sometimes
Have an obsession?: haha yeah
Have a secret crush?: didn't we cover this already
Do they know yet?: probably
Have a best friend?: yes
Wish on stars?: I look at them, because i'm emo
Care about looks?: not as much as some
=Love life=
First crush: michael fair (kindergarten)
First kiss: eh
Single or attached?: single
Ever been in love?: yes
Do you believe in love at first sight?: i believe in infatuation at first sight
Do you believe in "the one?": loi that's corny but i guess?
Describe your ideal significant other: AUSTIN COREY!
=Juicy stuff=
Have you ever played a game that required removal of clothing?: no...
Have you ever been intoxicated?: nah
Favorite place to be kissed?: four inches below my left knee....I'm so friggin DIRTY
Have you ever been caught "doing something?": almost
Are you a tease?: i hope not
Shy to make the first move?: yeah
=Word association=
Rubber: contraceptive
Rock: roll
Green: grass
Wet: pants
Cry: sad
Peanut: butter
Hay: Brian Ordway
Cold: bad music
Steamy: sexy
Fast: easy
Freaky: friday
Rain: Blind Melon
Bite: vampire
fuck: me
Blow: me
Religion: none
--APPEARANCE:--
Hair: blond
Eyes: blue
Height: 5'
--LAST THING YOU:--
Bought: yankee candles
Ate & Drank: voila garlic chicken and coke
Read: Julius Caesar
Watched on tv: my soap opera
--EITHER / OR:--
club or houseparty: house?
beer or cider: cider
drinks or shots: drinks
cats or dogs: dogs
single or taken: single
pen or pencil: pen
gloves or mittens: mittens
food or candy: candy
cassette or cd: cd
coke or pepsi: coke
this or that: that
--WHO DO YOU WANT TO:--
kill: Peter Jackson
get really wasted with: George and Austin
look like: Gwen Stefani
be like: me
avoid: Ashley Jaquot
--LAST PERSON YOU--
talked to: Jillian
hugged: Dalicia
instant messaged: George
kissed: Dalicia
--WHERE DO YOU--
eat: living room or kitchen
cry: my room
wish you were: bed
--HAVE YOU EVER...--
Dated one of your best friends? Yes
Loved somebody so much it makes you cry? no
Drank alcohol? no
Done drugs? no
Broken the law? not besides music piracy
Run away from home? no
Broken a bone? no
Played Truth Or Dare? yes
Kissed someone you didn't know? no
Been in a fight? yes
Come close to dying? probably
--WHAT IS:--
The most embarrassing CD in your collection?: Blink 182
Your bedroom like?: pink
Your favorite thing for breakfast? bacon
Your favorite restaurant?: ummm....i don't know
--RANDOM QUESTIONS--
What's on your bedside table?: a flower, a photography pamphlet, a photo of my dad, a cd and a glass of water
What do you eat when you raid the fridge late at night?: whatever looks the best.
What is your secret guaranteed weeping movie?: The Lion King
If you could have plastic surgery, what would you have done?: my stomach
What is your biggest fear?: my loved ones dying
What feature are you most insecure about?: my middle
Do you ever have to beg?: loi..."have to"?
Are you a pyromaniac?: no
Do you have too many love interests?: nah
Crushes? some
Do you know anyone famous?: no
Describe your bed: quilt, two pillows, stuffed animals, fuzzy blanket
Spontaneous or plain?: ??
Do you know how to play poker?: yeah
What do you carry with you at all times?: money
How do you drive?: i don't
What do you miss most about being little?: summer
Are you happy with your given name?: no
How much money would it take to get you to give up the Internet for one year?: a lot
What color is your bedroom?: off white
What was the last song you were listening to?: The Whistle Song
Have you ever been in a play?: no
Who are your best friends?: Tom, Alyssa, Sarah
Do you talk a lot?: sometimes
Do you like yourself and believe in yourself?: sometimes
Do you think you're cute?: sometimes
Do poor, homeless, or starving people sometimes annoy you? no...
Do you consider yourself to be a nice person?: yes
Do you spend more time with your girlfriend, boyfriend, or your friends?: don't have a girlfriend or boyfriend, so FRIENDS
What is the first thing you think when you see two gay guys or lesbians holding hands?: sexy
-cXw
December 15, 2003 | music: Starburst Commercial "Whistle Song"
I love whistling along with this song. I just sat here for half an hour trying to think of what to type next. I guess there's nothing to say.
-cXw
December 14, 2003 | music: Saves the Day "Rise"
They know me so well...
 You're Gangsta Bitch Barbie. You're tough and you like it rough, and of course you like to pop a cap in any wiggers ass.
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-cXw
December 13, 2003 | music: Saves the Day "Sell My Old Clothes, I'm Off To Heaven"
Last night was awesome. The party at Johnson's was very fun and exciting. A bunch of bands played but I was outside most of the time. Austin, Randy, Jonny and I went to Subway and Dunkin Donuts and got free stuff. Then we all went back to Decosters and hung around and stuff. It doesn't sound as fun as it was, but you'll just have to trust me, because I'm waaaay too lazy to write out everything that happened. If you want to know, im me.
-cXw
December 8, 2003 | music: Something Corporate "Konstantine"
I seriously feel quite unloved today. I just...do.
-cXw
December 7, 2003 | music: The Decemberists "Here I Dreamt I Was An Architect"
I should be working on the insane amount of work I have to do for Mr. Clements, but instead I will write in my blog. It's snowed all weekend and oh how exciting the prospect of a snowday is! I hope we get school cancelled tomorrow, it would help me a lot. The snowflakes are falling toward the ground by the hundreds like tiny parachute men. I feel as though the entire outdoor environment is a big hug. Like you could just embrace the air. Winter is a quiet season.
Wow.
-cXw
December 3, 2003 | music: The Ataris "You Need A Hug"
My favorite line in this song is "Life ain't all that bad, even if Henry Rollins is your dad" because...if he was my dad...life would be scary. Weee, thanks for everyone who signed my guest book recently. Let's see...what's going on. Not too much actually. I think I'm going to go...do something else.
-cXw
December 2, 2003 | music: Ani DiFranco "Buildings and Bridges"
I'm in such an Ani mood right now. Earlier tonight my mom handed me a magazine/catalogue I recieved in the mail...from MASSART! I forgot that I put my address on the mailing list, so I was quite excited about it. I want to sign up for the photography class on Saturdays, I'm just not sure how transportation will go...it is in Boston. Hopefully it will work out because I think it would be an awesome experience.
Not much else going on right now. Christmas is coming soon! I need to get shooopping done!! So many people and so much thinking involved in picking out gifts. Oh, shopping reminds me of the mall which reminds me that I need to tell you about the American Eagle Outfitters bag! Usually, I don't buy my clothing from stores like American Eagle or A+F or what have you, I don't like to wear a store's name across my body, but if I see something I like (which is rare) and it's not my money sure I'll buy it. Anyways...my mom bought some xmas stuff from there and she has this awesome bag with a picture of people walking in snow and I looove it and it's mine now and will probably go on my wall. Other stuff...it snowed today. That warmed my heart (HAHAHA YOU GET IT...cuz...snow is cold...heh). I love snow. Anyway, this is the worst entry yet.
-cXw
November 30, 2003 | music: Paul Simon "Kodachrome" (I want my camera)
I like quizzes, and it's early and no one's online, so this is the result. Apparantly people can be signs of affection. I like to take this quiz every few months because my results are always changing...
 hug from behind - you like to feel what the other person is feeling and see things how they see them. you tend to be serious and emotional.
What Sign of Affection Are You? brought to you by Quizilla
And, thanks to quizilla, I now know for SURE that I won't be in porn...you know, because I've always been on the fence about that one...
 Romantic movie! You probably won't star in a porno anytime soon. You seem to be really into the whole "love" thing...romantic sex with perfumed sheets and candles all over the place. You're probably a hopeless romantic. You value sex and respect your partner too much to do anything like porn. AWWWWWW! <3
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-cXw
November 29,2003 | music: Smashing Pumpkins- 1979
So, the party was more awesome than I could have imagined before hand. Honestly it was a good time. And this is what it reminds me of...
Time is never time at all
You can never ever leave without leaving a piece of youth
And our lives are forever changed
We will never be the same
The more you change the less you feel
Believe, believe in me, believe
That life can change, that you're not stuck in vain
We're not the same, we're different tonight
Tonight, so bright
Tongiht
And you know you're never sure
But your sure you could be right
If you held yourself up to the light
And the embers never fade in your city by the lake
The place where you were born
Believe, believe in me, believe
In the resolute urgency of now
And if you believe there's not a chance tonight
Tonight, so bright
Tonight
We'll crucify the insincere tonight
We'll make things right, we'll feel it all tonight
We'll find a way to offer up the night tonight
The indescribable moments of your life tonight
The impossible is possible tonight
Believe in me as I believe in you, tonight
-"Tonight, Tonight" Smashing Pumpkins
At this time I'm not going to go into the specifics of the party. Imagine. I think Randy may be mad at me so I'll give him a call today. Oh, incidentally, John blocked me on aim. Hmm. I'm off.
-cXw
November 27, 2003 | music: Ataris- You Need A Hug
I decided to add that little music thing up on my entry header. Thought it might spice things up a bit. I know I'm pathetic. Quiet. Happy Thanksgiving, people. I guess that's why no one is online...or maybe it's because it's 8am. Hmmm.
I'm bored. Very bored. And so I update my journal. I'm looking out my window, and there is someone walking down the street. I'm watching them...they just went out of sight. That was pathetic. I'm going to leave you alone now.
-cXw
PS- THE PERSON WALKING DOWN THE STREET WAS MY NEIGHBOR
November 26, 2003
Jonny signed my guestbook twice, I feel so special. Today is FAST (Faculty And Students Together) at school. It's a day where you go around the school and watch movies or do activities or just sit around. I really wanted to go because I do so love sitting around, but I didn't really feel too great today (the female curse) so I just stayed home.
There's a party at Decoster's on friday, I believe my mom is giving Randy and I a ride. That should be cool. Tomorrow is Thanksgiving, the good thing is that the only family we're having over is Kelly and Dalicia, and everyone loves them. I'm glad we stopped having Thanksgiving with our extended family. Most of them are a bunch of bitches. I'm nice. Does anyone want to talk to me? Did anyone else stay home today? IM ME!! I'm bored. I may be changing my screenname soon, but I'm not sure.

-cXw
November 24, 2003
Has anyone seen the Empire carpet commercial where the mom finds the old guy on the floor with her kids in a sleeping bag?? And the mother laughs as if the man is such an innocent trickster. Yes...just thought I'd ask.
Today I made a mix cd for Alex and Tom, here are the songs....
1. SOJH- happy fun song
2. The Decemberists- July, July!
3. Bright Eyes- Falling Out of Love At This Volume
4. Brand New- Mix Tape
5. Guster- Careful
6. Taking Back Sunday- You're So Last Summer
7. The Who- Pinball Wizard
8. The Ataris- Boys of Summer
9. Monty's Fan Club- You Don't Know
10. Sunny Day Real Estate- 48
11. Saves the Day- Hold
12. Saves the Day- Rocks Tonic Juice Magic
13. Hot Water Music- Alright For Now
14. Hey Mercedes- Quality Revenge At Last
15. The Smiths- Asleep
What do you think??
-cXw
November 23, 2003
I spent most of yesterday hanging out with Randy either in my house or his house. We had some pretty cool conversations about a lot of random yet important stuff. We watched the music channels and made fun of Michael Jackson and Britney Spears. It was a good time. I talked to him about how I like music because I have specific songs that remind me of certain events or periods of my life. Like "In This Diary" by the Ataris reminds me of last Fourth of July.
Things are going pretty good for me at this time in my life. I think I have a lot of things going for me and both my home and school life are pretty smooth at the moment. The only thing that I'm not content with is my body, but what else is new? I'm going to go on a diet...I just had coke and pretzels, wtf. But I really am because I want to "firm up".
Oooo...I think I'm going to the MALL today. I'm very excited because I'm actually going to do some shopping with my Christmas shopping stash. I think I have about $200 at this point which is more than enough for the short list of people I have to shop for. I'm still deciding whether or not to buy my friends stuff. If I do it will be clearance rack items. Well...I'm off.
-cXw
November 22, 2003
So, there's lots to tell you about. I'll get started. On Tuesday I went with a group of my fellow honors history sophomores on a field trip into Boston to the Colonial Theater to see Les Miserables. It was a fun field trip because we we went at 6:30 PM and the show lasted until 11 o'clock at night. The performance was amazing. Jevert, especially, had an awesome stage presense. I hope that I'll be able to see it again before the show leaves, but I doubt that.
Last night I hung out at Subway and Decoster's again with a bunch of people. It was quite a time. I played Jonny at pool a couple times, and each time he beat me mercilessly. I beat Randy...which goes to show how bad he is at pool because I'm -really- aweful. Jonny blew bubbles and read the sex scenes from The Perks of Being a Wallflower in the living room with me while everyone was off doing stuff in the computer/pool table room. We watched Family Guy and Jason broke a bowl thing with a Buzz Lightyear toy. Randy and I got a ride -to- Subway from Justin's...friend(?), but we had to sit in the back of the truck. Senecal gave us a ride to Decosters, but since there were a million people I had to lay across the laps of Randy, Jonny and Dave. That was extremely akward but then again, eh? I really, really wish I had my camera. There would be sooo many good pictures! Luckily for xmas I'm getting my Canon annnnd I think my mom is getting me a video camera (woooooo).
I guess Randy is having everyone over his house today, which is a good thing because I can just walk over instead of having to drive to Mendon. The only problem is I have just remembered that my niece is coming over today. Oh well...we'll see what happens. Anyway...does anyone read this other than the obvious people? If so sign the guestbook because I'm very curious.
-cXw
November 17, 2003
I have to memorize lines for English, so why is this journal distracting me? Bad journal.
-cXw
November 16, 2003
Like the new look of my journal? Well..who cares what you think anyway. I'm not quite sure what my mood is today, it's something between extreme depression and extreme happiness and giddiness. I'm such a teenager. Last night I wanted to go over Decosta's and hang with everyone but my mom took that time as a time to tell me that I'm too young to drive with guys who haven't had their licenses for too long, and I also can't "hang out" anymore because that's...not something I can do. She's starting to sound like ALYSSA'S mom, which I'm sure she'd take as an insult.
Bryan came over last night to hang with my little sister, he ended up hanging with me just as much as he did with her. I find it humorous that my mom lets my 13 year old sister have a 15 (almost 16) year old boy over until 9 at night, but I on the other hand cannot hang with people my own age. I do think my mom is forgetting that in less then a year I'll be driving. She's really far too protective. Anyway, I'm over that, I don't want to dwell on it.
I have a sense of freedom being single. Being single is really quite great... of course part of being single is going on a quest to become unsingle...that's irony, Mr. Clements. I'm not going to go into details as far as my quest goes, because right now I just want to be laid back. Hopefully I will have cracked my mom by next weekend, otherwise my social life will wilt and fade away. Wow...is this the longest entry so far? Yay for rambling.
***This journal entry has been edited because apparantly I was being mean to someone in it. I wasn't. But I guess I know nothing***
-cXw
November 14, 2003
Went to Subway with Randy, Brendan, Justin and bunches of people to make a movie. I never got to actually play a part but I did get a nifty suit made up of Brendan's and Justin's wardrobe so that was good. The whole night we basically just sat around and did nothing at Subway. Then we went to Decosta's and watched the movie and the dog almost died. The end.
-cXw
November 11, 2003
I'm taking on an Ani policy for the rest of my immediate life. I really don't feel like explaining so I'm just posting the lyrics and letting you come to your own conclusions:
life is a b movie
it's stupid and it's strange
a directionless story
and the dialogue is lame
but in the he said she said
sometimes there's some poetry
if you turn your back long enough
and let it happen naturally
oh, yeah
hell yeah
-cXw
November 10, 2003
I am numb. John and I broke up and I do not know what to do with myself. I feel as though I have no muscle, no will to perform basic functions. Ultimately seperating was agreed by both of us, so these feelings may seem strange to you but I think you really need to know the situation to understand. We loved eachother for 8 months and we still do, it just can't work out right now I guess. I will be fine in a few days.
-cXw
November 7, 2003
I want this.
-cXw
November 6, 2003
"Just the thought of our bed, makes me crumble like the plaster where you punched the wall beside my head."
Ani is a genius!
I have to start my xmas shopping soon, it's creeping up on all of us and when it comes time for you FOOLS to do your last minute shopping I'LL be resting at home, with my gifts already wrapped. Muahahaha.
In art class I've been having a dillema, our project is a cut paper, which is when you create an image by cutting out the different colors and shades of it from fadeless colored paper. We had to pick a place to illustrate (like a travel poster) and I foolishly picked London and ended up way over my head as far as the difficulty level of the project went. So, Mrs. Clish was a LOVELY creature and allowed me to start over so now I'm doing something way cooler, Lothlorien. For all you non-Lord of the Rings fans, that's the Elven Realm of Galadriel and Celeborn (ie- the place with the cool stairs on the trees in the movie). Now, I get to work on it at home and have fun while doing it. Yay.
Mr. Clements is the devil incarnate.
-cXw
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