by Santiago Buigues. Digital image entitled "Self-portrait", 1999.
Two events have recently shaped and occupied my thoughts: 1) the death of my father and 2) the pregnancy of my wife. In this image I have chosen to represent one facet of myself by referring to these events from a symbolic and emotional perspective.My hands (represented by two sets of fingerprints) frame an orange rectangle that depicts the realm of my thoughts. This area is covered by images that originally were black and white or monochromatic but that I have transformed into an exploration of color. The canvas is roughly divided into two areas that blend into each other. An x-ray of my father's torso serves as background to a cardiogram, and three fading images of him as a young man. His name, also fading, is a reference to the fait of those who die in the memory of the living.
Emerging from this scenario is a "wheel", composed of sonograms of a fetus, that perhaps one day will become my son, in different states of development. This circle represents the cyclical and dynamic nature of life, therefore the difference in size, texture and color of its segments. Finally, two sets of numbers indicate the life span of my father, (July 7th, 1933-July 6th, 1999) and the expected date of birth of my son (February 12th, 2000). Both dates are represented in Spanish, (day-month-year). The date compound referring to my father is, as most of the elements chosen to represent him, fading into a blur and only kept by my memory. The streams of dates pertaining to my son, represent the state of anxiety generated by the endless waiting and counting of days, weeks and months. As Sheryl's pregnancy follows its course, the date of delivery becomes increasingly more tangible and visually more prominent.
I have chosen to portray myself as a biological and cultural link between my past and my future, attempting to organize and bring to life what otherwise would be quite impersonal and alienating pieces of medical and legal imagery.