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I started belly dance lessons a few weeks ago. The first class
there was one other beginner. Last week there was only me and
two intermediates. She didn't show me any new moves and pretty
much worked with the others. She said I could follow what they
were doing, but they were building on moves that I hadn't learned
yet.
Feb 5 I start training to be a zoo volunteer. I went to the
meeting, thought it was pretty neat and signed up. You could
check boxes for areas that interested you. I checked horticulture,
animal nutrition, animal behavior, mammals in general and wrote
in photography by the 'other' box. I figured this would give
them a choice of where to put me depending on their needs.
Training is Tue and Thur nights and all day Saturday. For
those who signed up to work as docents or in other areas of education
there is an extra 2 weeks of training as well as a background
check.
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Ray is out and about in a car I own and owes me a serious
sum of money. I would tell you, but I don't really need the emails
telling me how incredibly stupid I am to lend him that much.
I know how incredibly stupid I am. The last 4 times I've seen
him he's asked for money, the last 4 times I've given it to him.
Why do I do this? Why do I allow myself to be used? I should
just say no. But I don't. Because I'm afraid if I do, he won't
be able to make rent or buy groceries, go get gas in his car
to go to work. As of last week he had only worked a few hrs.
The last time I saw him he needed gas money to get to a job that
would last several days. I haven't seen him since. I've called
and either there is no answer or he's not home.
I knocked on his door this evening and a roommate said he
hasn't seen him since Wed. I told him to track him down and have
him call me or I'm reporting the car as stolen.
I haven't been contacted by the police about an abandoned
or wrecked car so I guess that's good. I probably won't report
the car as stolen because there's the hassle of paperwork, then
if he is picked up, then I'll have to go to court to either press
or drop charges. In the mean time they will run a check on him,
and he'll end up in jail on a separate charge and more than likely
be deported and I'll never see my money again.
However, I can tell him I want my name off the car and that
would be one less worry. Then I just have to get the money back.
If he's got a girlfriend and that's where he's at, that's
fine. But dammit, return my calls.
~*~
I saw Ben today as I was scraping ice off my car. I asked
him if my place had been sprayed for spiders. He said yes and
that Michelle was a bit pissed since I didn't have anything moved
away from the walls or the drawers taken out of the dresser,
etc. That pissed me off. I had no idea they were coming. I asked
her to leave a note on my door and I never received one. I was
pissed and started yelling. He told me he understood and that's
how she is. I said I was sorry for yelling.
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Lately I've been wondering if I should keep writing. It's
been slow lately in my life and talking about work all the time
gets boring. I need a fresh chapter/page/circle of friends/something
in my life. Hence the dance lessons and zoo thing. I'll give
it a few more weeks, see if things get interesting.
I rarely get feedback from my journal so for the most part
I do this for myself. But sometimes as I upload an entry I wonder
if you give a shit about my layout, my words. Do they really
want to read about this? Are you sick of hearing about my spider
problem? Do you think I should just grow some balls and ask Firestone
James out. I'm open to suggestions on what to write about. Anything
you've ever wanted me to talk about and haven't?
Things feel stale here. I figure because life feels stale
as well.
Recommend a book, some music, a suggestion, a compliment,
tell me what a piss poor speller I am, or that I make a beautiful
gypsy. Anything. Talk to me, I'm begging you.
surfacetension@yahoo.com
last time ~ next time
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