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| Why I get asked this every time I tell somone. They dont understand, they haven't been there. Gotta protecet my family and I've been tought as well as reminded through this whole thing that our business isn't the world's business that I am to keep. Mum - forget it happend walk away don't tell. And the fact that he thretened my family.. I can't and wont take the chance of them being hurt even though I know that some days they hate me and I them but that is normal family tiffs. I can.t and won.t put my self threw that the himilliation. It would be to much to bear. How would I explane it when me my self barley understnands why and how. written by Jessica Johnson July 15 2001 |
| Note to anyone who reads this I am not gonna post a pic of my self on this site. if I know u please feel free to ask me for a pic also this website is under construction constantly things will be added as I see fit so good luck and enjoy I hope this page brings u peace and enlitement to ur day i hope it helps u heal take care of ur self Jessy |
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| a poem for my mom u tell me im worthless u tell me u care u tell me im no good and that i am a wast of time you say i love u you yell at me for past mistakes present and futer u yell at me for hiding but yet u yell at me for being bold u yell at me for relashonships new and old u yell at me for the resons the fail u took the side of my attacker at the start even though he wasn't there and u didnt and still dont know him you yelled at me for having fun being a normal teen that has a driking problem u didnt ask if i was allright u asked what did i do to lead him on and then yelled at me for passing out drunk you tell me everyday maybe not in words but body languge say it all that i deserve what i got and to accept it and move on when i tryed to tell u about my most tramatic expericance in my life u laughed and said well thats what u get when i say im having a bad day and to please bear with me u laugh and asked me if i think i live in a padded world when i asked u to help me find help u just ignord me and told me I'm on my wond well mom ur right i am on my own i walk my path of recovry with our without u and u chose the without. u yell at me for fearing people and u order me to go everywhere with u but dont u understand I've seen mankind at its worst u yell at me for the net but dont u understand there are people there for me to suport and help me threw it even on my worst day and i do the same from them but how can i tell u that in simple words how can i explane what i feel if everytime i ask for suport u laugh well that will mark the end of our mother daughter relashonship cuz i cant keep suporting our relashonship and keep myself sane i never wanted this to happend i wanted us to have the perfect relashonship well i guess that was a dream a very fabracated dream i feel so horrible for saying this my heart is bleeding as i write this but no more i know u can see the tears in my eyes as i write this just know this ..... I Love U Always And Forever Jessica Johnson July 15 2001 |
| You've seen a side of me You've seen a side of me that my frends can barly remember the girl that i used to be the girl that i try soo hard to hide the girl that could be dangerous if i let her out so that I dont have to let someone close to herself so I wont get in trouble and my life wont be ruined agian jessica johnoson july 15 2001 |
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