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060501 » no longer a slave to my
vices
listening to | ash \ free all
angels
feeling | cold and sick *sneeze*
drinking | coffee *mmm the warmness*
today
is the two week aniversary of me giving up
smoking. the first two weeks are supposed to be
the most trying, so it looks as though it should
be smooth sailing from here. i've actually been
surprised at how easy it has been for me up...
well, to this point at any rate. i've barely even
been tempted to light up. i think i have only had
a craving maybe once or twice. i should have
given up long ago!!
i actually did give up smoking last year for my
boyfriend at the time. i had told all my friends
if my next boyfriend didn't smoke, i would give
up. i know i certainly wouldn't like to kiss an
ashtray all day... plus it gave me motivation.
so, i didn't smoke for 6 months. then what was
the first thing i did when we broke up? that's
right, i crumbled and took the revolting habit
back up. disguisting, i know. but i was
traumatised dammit! i needed something to help
relieve me of my stress and anguish.
after i took up smoking again i told my friends
it was because i had no motivation to not smoke.
i didn't care if i smoked or not. i liked
smoking. then there was the fact that most of my
friends smoke. makes it kinda hard not to quit
when there is that temptation immediately before
you every day. plus, i thought it was nearly
impossible to have a beer without smoking. it
just didn't seem natural to hold a schooie in one
hand and to not have a cigarette in the other for
balance. but then *shock horror* at the you am i album launch i drank beer but did not
think of smoking once!
now, however, i have given up for myself!
something i never thought would happen. not for a
good 20 years or so, anyway. if you had told me a
month ago i was going to give up i would not have
believed you. if someone preached to me about
cancer i would simply reply with 'pfft... there
will be a cure for cancer by the time i get it.'
cockeyed optimism? no, just desperately blind
faith in my friend jono m and his fellow biomed
students.
a number of my family members also smoke and have
been trying to give up. doctors told my uncle
mark he has to give up. my uncle john gave up a
while ago, but that doesn't stop him scabbing a
smoke from anyone that has a packet. my aunty
caroline is so desperate to give up smoking that
she is going to nominate herself to go on the
australian version of survivor. my mum says she
won't last long tho, because everyone will get
sick of her being bossy. hehe.
so anyways, now i feel great! more energised. mum
thinks i'm a little crankier than usual. my
friend mick thinks i'm more hyper than usual and
has urged me to take smoking back up, if only to
rescue his sanity. i think they are both right.
i'm a little more temperamental as i don't have a
cigarette to suck on when i get stressed, and i
also have more energy than i did while i was
smoking. this will pass in time, though. thus,
there is no need for those of you close to me to
think the next time i see you i will rip your
head off, then skip down the road with it.
smoking isn't the only vice i am kicking at the
moment, either. the other is alcohol. this has
happened rather inadvertently. i used to go out
drinking three times a week. more frequently than
not, i would end up very drunk and doing silly
things. now i'm not going out as much, and when i
do i am only having a few drinks. i do still have
the odd drinking binge, but they are no where
near as frequent now.
it does look as though another addiction i rid
myself of last year is taking the place of these
two, though. coffee. i have always had a strong
reliance on caffeine. what university student
doesn't? when i was going out with my previously
mentioned ex-boyfriend, i was drinking around 8
cups of coffee a day. i slowly weened myself out
of this rut, then 'energy' drinks came on the
market. i still drink a lot of v, but i think my
body may start suffering from an overly abundant
consumption of caffeine in the not too distant
future.
an addiction i'm not about to give up is cd
buying. i have joked that i'm going to start up
cd-aholics anonymous, but i've decided i kinda
enjoy this addiction. i doubt i will once cd's
become obsolete, however.
so, my next challenge is my internet addiction. i
think it will be the toughest of the lot. i have
already succeeded in weening myself from mIRC,
but mIRC seems to have merely been replaced by
msn. yes, my internet addiction will surely be a
challenge. plus, there is the fact that i must
apease my loyal readers' hunger for new journal
entries. *sigh* oh woe is me.
so, yay for me! see peoples, it isn't all that
difficult to kick a bad habit! you don't have to
remain a slave to your addictions.
days without smoking: 14
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