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060801 » is it mind games?
listening to | something for kate
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feeling | confuzzled
ok,
i saw ty today... well kinda. i have no idea
what's going on. though knowing me, i am blowing
everything way out of proportion. did someone say
'drama queen?'
so, i'm sitting in the caffeteria with my laptop
out and surrounded by books (i'm way behind in a
heap of work i have due this week and i'm
freaking out), my friend b was sitting with me. i
had just finished telling her the ty story, when
he walked in with a friend.
i looked up and saw him walk in (the door is
about 4m away from where i was sitting). he
turned to see me, i smiled and waved, and he did
the same... and then he kept on walking!
he sat down with another girl and guy and that
was it. b said that as he sat down next to the
girl he ran his hand down her back. so now do you
understand why i am confused? three minutes later
i had to leave to go to my doctors appointment
and by the time i got back, he was gone.
now i am tyring to understand what exactly is
going on. everyone thinks it is pretty obvious he
likes me, and i was pretty sure of that fact too.
so what is he playing at?
is he just being a typical male and playing mind
games with me? waiting to see if i will make the
next move. wanting to see what my reaction would
be if he ignored me. or maybe he has gone a
little coy since thursday night.
i mean hello! this guy told me he would look out
for me at uni this week. stoopid bois.
then again it could have something to do with the
fact that he had an old guns and roses shirt on.
maybe he thought i would lose respect for him if
i saw him in a guns and roses shirt. and i'll
tell you what, i nearly did. until i thought that
he might just be wearing it as a joke. i mean,
brodie still owns a guns and roses and a
metallica t-shirt... but she never wears them!
maybe he just lives out of home and doesn't like
to do his washing, and he had no other clean
shirts.
then again, he could have asked the guy he knows,
that i went to school with, about me. eeek. i
hate to imagine what evan would have said about
me to him. "oh, kate? yeah, what a nerd. she
came first in everything. and she was really,
really loud."
but i've changed heaps since high school! i'm
like soooooooo not nerdy anymore (doing a maths
degree does not make me a nerd). i'm heaps cool.
i don't think that i was ever that nerdy. i just
annoyed a lot of people, i think. people thought
i had an over inflated ego.
or evan could have told him what i realised the
other day: at evan's party in like year 10, i got
with this guy who was evan's best friend. turns
out he is actually one of ty's friends. freaky
shit sydney.
then again, maybe he intended to come and talk to
me after he spoke to his friends, but the fact i
left stopped that from happening.
*shrug*
so all you bois out there... do you have any advice for a slightly
confuzzled superkate?
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