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090601 » don't forget your
friends
listening to | rage on jjj (my tv
is busted remember)
feeling | drunk
the
early hours of saturday morning... (2am)
i got home about two hours ago... drunk. i sat
down at the computer to make a dick of myself in
front of my friends, only to find none of them
online. i thought this would give me an
opportunity to put down in words the things that
have been playing on my mind since a conversation
with my friend andrew this evening. i opened
notepad... then nick, vic and glenny aaall came
online! how is a girl supposed to write her
drunken musings when she is also trying to talk
to 3 people at once??
...but they all just left and i'm now feeling
rather sober and the thoughts that were running
round my muddled brain seem to have all but
vanished... but i shall try my best.
first let me recount tonight's events.
i ran to the train station to catch a train to
newcastle straight after getting home from work
(well maybe 5 mins after, i had to get changed
first). one of my bestest buddies, ang, picked me
up from the station in newcastle as we were
planning on going to dinner with our friends
brodie and sandy. none of us ever get to see ang
anymore. she is a working gal and when she has
time off she tries to spend it with her
boyfriend, which i completely understand.
when i jumped in the car ang informed me that
sandy was sick and didn't want to go out, but
that we could still go around to her place before
dinner. she also told me it seemed brodie had
thought we had cancelled and had made other plans
(i later got a call from brodie while we were in
the bottlo - brodie's mobile was broken and she
had received none of our messages).
so, ang and i headed to sandy's. because everyone
had bailed we decided to get some take away
italian from the kick arse italian restaurant
around the corner from sandy's place. while
waiting for our food we headed to the bottlo
where we then spent the next 20 mins trying to
decide on a bottle of wine each. yum. wine.
we got back to sandy's just in time for big
brother. we all sat around talking, eating
italian, drinking wine and watching crap tv for
couple of hours. sandy then had to go to work (at
macca's. before she left i told her i hoped she
got more than one guy asking her for a blow job
tonight. a 24 hour macca's is the best
place to meet seedy, sleazy, drunk guys according
to sandy) and left us to tape cant hardly
wait (we spent the whole time trying to
remember what other movies we had seen all of the
characters in) for her. haha. then drew rang.
andrew is another friend i don't get to see very
much anymore. bloody ex engineers! we told him to
come over and to bring another bottle of wine and
some chocolate with him. he was there within half
an hour with the requested bottle of wine and a
block of peppermint chocolate! needless to say,
drew was greeted very warmly and was engulfed by
a rather drunken hug from myself.
so, after consuming a number of bottles of wine
(and a block of chocolate), ang's boyfriend came
over just in time for the end of the movie and
took her home (his parents are away for the
weekend and they were very happy bout that.
hehe). that left me and drew. this is where stuff
got a little more interesting (besides me
complaining to ang about my nonexistant love life
and ang asking her boyfriend if he had any
friends i didn't know that they could set me up
with. thanks for that ang. :P oh, and ang has
told me that i am no longer allowed to become
involved with internet guys. she told me i need
to find a new way to meet men - easy to say,
coming from a girl who has been with the same guy
for a year and a half. but anyhoo, what ang says
is law. sowwy internet suitors. ;))
... anyhoo, no, drew and i did not declare our undying love
for each other. as he walked me to the train
station, we had one of those conversations that
makes you really question your life and your
future. it was really bizarre. or maybe that was
the alcohol talking. i don't know.
he said the thought of leaving uni and never
seeing any of us again was really depressing him.
he will be part time at uni next year, while
working. the year after, he will be working in
sydney. i tried to encourage him by telling him i
was planning on moving to sydney as soon as i
finished my course and that there was no way we
would ever lose contact! there are just some
people from uni you never want to lose contact
with. i have realised drew is one of those people
for me.
so, after going on for a bit about how we will
have to get together for drinks, etc when we both
move to sydney, drew started to get serious
again.
he realised that getting a job meant
responsibility. responsibility means maturity. it
dawned on him that he will be 23 soon and that
the time is coming for him to find a serious
girlfriend, get married, have kids and live a
mundane existence in a job that he may well not
find to be fulfilling.
he has realised that the only way to make sure
his life remains interesting is to always have a
major goal to work towards. this goal used to be
to become ruler of the world... until he realised
that once you are there, people who disagree with
your decisions give you a hard time, while
everyone else just sucks up your arse. and then
when you go and have 15 million people killed
'for the betterment of the people' someone gets
their panties in a bunch and calls it genocide.
so are the woes of being the ruler of earth. andy
decided this may not be for him afterall and that
perhaps he should look towards a more realistic
long term goal.
well, drew got me thinking. well freaking,
rather. marriage? kids? these things had never
really held much significance for me. i am career
oriented (or maybe i just say that to sound
mature. at the moment i feel like i am actually more
'fun' oriented) first and foremost. if someone i
love enough to spend the rest of my life with
(and who can put up with me) comes along, then
that is great. kids? well, that is just gonna
hurt way too much! hehe.
my goals are all so short term. i've never really
thought very far into the future. i want to
finish uni as soon as possible, get fairly good
results and then go out and get a tops job with
heaps of perks that will allow me to travel. they
are my goals. i haven't really thought about much
else.
but the thing that drew said that really
kept playing on my mind was the whole losing
contact with friends thing. i guess this is
because my friends are such an important part of
who i am and i already feel like i am beginning
to lose some of them. i never see the
three people who i feel closest too. this upsets
me a lot. i feel it with many of my other friends
also. guys i used to see two or three times a
week to go drinking with and share laughs and
memories with. i feel like i don't know them
anymore. they have these lives that i have
nothing to do with. i see them and have no idea
who they are dating, how uni is going for them,
etc.
imagine what it will be like when we all start to
leave uni.
i'm just happy the internet is such a popular
medium now. at least we will always have email,
if nothing else.
well, i had heaps more i felt like writing about,
but i feel like i'm about to broach the way too
personal scale, so i will leave it at that. plus,
this is too long already and you are no doubt
bored... and it is now nearly 3am! eeek! there
goes half of tomorrow!
and yes, i felt really, really bad about
about going out tonight! i did absolutely no
study today!!
so guys, don't forget your friends. the ones who
have always been there for you in the past. the
ones you shared all those memories with. no
matter how distant they seem.
god i feel like jerry springer now.
to see pics of me with andy, ang, brodie and
sandy, click here.
weeks without a cigarette: 7 tomorrow
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