From: Suzy (squeegy1@aol.com)
Subject: Re: Terribly Upset
Newsgroups: alt.suicide.holiday
Date: 2003-02-19 07:31:10 PST

"The LoNeLyGirL" wrote in message
news:b2viih$1gnoo1$1@ID-116738.news.dfncis.de...
> Well, my boyfriend set out to retreive me from this place yesterday
> afternoon. About 6:30PM he calls me and tells me he has no oil pressure. He
> had just gotten a tune up and they didn't put the cap on tightly and he lost
> the oil. The truck stop had none that fit so he was stuck at the truck stop
> over night until the parts store opened the next morning. They got the cap
> and began on his way again. He called several hours later to inform me that
> two valves had gone bad and he would have to go back home to have the car
> repaired. He said they might give him a loaner car. But I doubt it. It seems
> very few warrenties or insurance companies actually meet their agreements
> without a hassle of some sort.
>
> The anxiety and insomnia continue to be bad. I am almost constantly
> upset. Bad things keep happening. I am so very tired.
> --
> The LoNeLyGirL, shoot me now.

Except for the insomnia, I feel the same. Bad things keep happening. I
feel aweful for being upset about it, though. I feel like I'm just being a
whiney little bitch. "Ooh, the cat I just adopted is going to die. It's
not fair." But it happens. I am racked with guilt for my natural feelings.

I've got terrible anxiety. Even with the new kitties. I am nervous around
them. I am generally fine at work in when in a professional attitude and
talking to customers on the phone. But when the uniform service guy comes
in and asks me to sign the invoice, I get all shakey and want to cry. At
wal-mart, shopping is horrible and check-out is even worse. I grin and push
my way through, though. I hate it.

LonelyGirl, things happen. Things happen to us and things happen to others.
Some of us, however, can't deal with it as well (namely you and I). I don't
know what to do.

I suppose the difference, though, is that I can sleep. I sleep about 11
hours every night. And if it weren't for that urge to pee in the morning, I
would sleep longer.

I know I haven't really helped at all, but perhaps maybe I have let you
relate a bit.

I need to go care for my sick kitty now.

!
Suzy

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something else to happen. Anything that, in happening, causes itself to
happen again, happens again. It doesn't necessarily do it in chronological
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