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Suicide Note (Ode to Parents)

A voice that's raised in anger
The hatred in a child's eyes
The source of the rebellion
Will not be realized

The voice it echoes deeply
Razors line it's edge
Cutting all the joy and life
From within her head

Tears fall from bloodied eyes
Bloody tears fall from pale cheeks
As the light fades from her eyes
To signify their glory

She died inside today
Everything was broken
The loss of all she once loved
Has struck her in oblivion

All she ever wanted
Was a kind word or two
But all that ever mattered
Were the mistakes she made too soon

Tell my daddy that I love him
Tell my mommy I do too
Even though they killed me
All that was pure and true

For this she can forgive them
The didn't know the rules
All the things she hid inside
Always keeping them from you

I'm sorry for my weakness
I'm sorry for my pride
I'm sorry for all the words
That crossed uncivilized

I wanted to be your daughter
The joy within your eyes
But all I've brought is sadness
And sorrow to your cries

They say that she was crazy
A complete mental disruption
Perhaps it's time she left
This confusion to another

Perhaps if she had a sibling
Her parents could see the difference
But she was always different
The odd one in the group

She meant to say she's sorry
For all the paths she chose
Love is not enough
To hold us all together

Though I wish it were
The strength for out communion
The magic in her hands
Couldn't heal herself

Tell everyone I'm sorry
For my anger and my mind
The thoughts were always rampant
Perhaps diseased in their confines

Love was always too much
And nothing in her eyes
They all seemed to love her
To break her in the end

Her love was just a burden
A crack within her heart
An ocean that's too far to cross
When wings are clipped and tied

She struggled daily with her past
The memories, which eluded her
A wall to hold them in
Which fortified them out

Perhaps they showed her kindness
Played when she was a child
But now that it's all over
She's massacred their pride

Tell my girlfriend that I love her
Tell my boyfriend I do too
What would they say
If I lost myself to you

Would they cry to see her gone?
Would tears well in their eyes
Or would they rejoice
While she was left to die

Tell everyone I'll miss them
Wash the sorrow from their eyes
Let them know I smile
As I write you these good-byes

Something happens to a child's mind
When hopes and dreams are gone
The innocent has left this house
Never to return

Sometimes she cries when she's alone
Hiding in her misery
Her body shakes with whimpering
Longing for a stronger soul

Her fault is all her own
She was never what you wanted
The perfect loving girl
She never seemed to be

When everything is shattered
Nothing can feel right
A hollow empty hole
Has become her heart

This body has grown cold
The eyes have long glazed over
And for once the silence came
Taking her soul over

I've died so many times
In many many ways
A shattered piece would always
Slowly slip away

The confusion of emotion
Was always hard to bare
For the children that she'll never have
Less of a hindrance for despair

I promised you the glory
And pride as a young child
Wearing mis-matched clothing
Already individualized

She's sorry for a promise broken
The things she said were true
She only tried to protect herself
And the things she holds most dear

Today is the real day
The end of all the tears
The day when blood is shed
Ending all her fears

"I'm sorry," she cried one final time
Bidding all her friends goodbye
They never knew, they never saw
The end was coming near

Near her body were these lines
A deep poetic expression
But as the artist dies
So does the confusion

The blood is simply ink
The paper my own soul
Showing all those lost
That I am lost with you

They never saw her
For what she really was
A woman in the making
Killed before her rise

A phoenix from the ashes
Of a place she once called home
Roaming through the moonlit plains
Now and forever, always alone