“The first night that I spent with him was the beginning of the greatest months of my life. He broke up with his girlfriend and we finally could be together without feeling any guilt. Even though we had to hide it from everyone, we had decided to be together and I was happy just to be with him. We were…well I guess still are madly in love, but there is one main obstacle blocking us. You probably know that in the entertainment business it isn’t received well by many people if you are bi-sexual or gay, especially if you are a member of what they call a “boy band” and are looked up to by so many young people. Well I’ve obviously hided my sexuality for some time now, at first unsure of my own feelings. I feel sometimes that I don’t even consider myself “gay”, all I know is that I am deeply in love with him and that’s all I care about. But now that I’m in love, everything has changed. I want to be with him, no matter what the consequences and I know now that I have to live my own life, no matter what other people say. I love him so much… and I realize now that he isn’t ready to take on this and it’s got me really frustrated. I know that he loves me, but I don’t know what to do.” Nick paused for a moment, looking deep into the burning fire, some way trying to search for the answer. Melissa could tell that he was confused, and in love, but knew that something that happened that night must have changed everything to upset him this much. She moved her hand to his shoulder. “What happened tonight that made you so upset?” He looked at her, his eyes staring back at her, reflecting the pain that he felt. “ The one person who we had to hide our relationship from found out. It was horrible and I think it might have torn us apart.”
********** Flashback*******
“It was so cool of Howie to give us this VIP room for the night.” Nick said as he looked out over the crowd below, holding a Corona in one of his hands. “Although, he was acting kind of weird tonight. I don’t know what’s up with him.” Brian said, standing close to Nick, their hands interlocked. “Yeah, he’s with Jennifer now, but ever since he spent that night with that girl who he met after the Lupus benefit…what was her name?” Nick asked. “Melissa” Brian replied. “Oh yeah… well it just seems like he never forgot her. He was sure pissed that she left without leaving him anything about her, but the I think poor guy still loves her.” “It sounds like they really connected” Brian said as he started to walk over to the large couch that was covered in pillows, leading Nick behind him. Nick set his drink down on the table next to the couch as they sat down next to each other, Nick laying his head down on one of the larger pillows and holding Brian’s hand as he sat next to him. “I don’t know what I’d do if I ever lost you.” Nick said, stroking Brian’s hand. “Well I don’t think you have to worry about that now, just as long as Kevin doesn’t find out. I’m scared of what he might do.” “Me too,” Nick said. “But we’re going to have to tell him at some point Bri.” Nick replied, raising his sparkling blue eyes to Brian’s. “I know baby, I’m just worried…” Nick lifted his head up to Brian’s and paused, leaning his forehead against Brian’s. He could see how worried he was and scared of what could happen if Kevin wasn’t ready to accept their relationship. “Hey, listen…you my gorgeous, handsome, talented man, have nothing to worry about. We love each other and that’s all that matters.” Nick said devotedly. Brian looked up into Nick’s blue eyes, his heart warmed by how much he did care for him. Brian slowly closed the space between them and placed his lips softly against Nick’s. He was amazed how each time they kissed, he still felt butterflies in his stomach. Nick brushed his soft lips against Brian’s while holding the back of Brian’s neck, letting his hand caress the soft curls that fell at his neck. Their opened mouthed kisses permitted Nick to slip his tongue past Brian’s lips, letting him search Brian’s mouth passionately. Their tongues mated, massaging each other while Brian slid his hand up Nick’s button up shirt, running his hand over Nick’s chest, feeling his hot skin tingling with each touch. Nick reached down with his hand and slowly unbuttoned Brian’s shirt, letting his well-earned chest be exposed. Nick slowly moved his kisses along Brian’s defined jaw line and up to his ear, lightly licking his earlobe before moving his tongue down to Brian’s neck. Brian ran his hands through Nick’s blond locks as he sucked his skin hard, swirling his hot tongue over Brian’s sweaty skin. He slowly licked his way down to Brian’s chest, circling one of his nipples, licking it lightly and brushing his hot, swollen lips against his skin. Brian’s leaned his head back against the couch, moaning in pleasure from Nick’s hot mouth.
Kevin walked into the club, slightly drunk from what he had in the limo on the way to the club. He was feeling good and was ready to have a good time. He thought Howie would be happy to see him, he hadn’t told him he was coming. He knew that AJ was going to be the guest DJ for the night and knew that in itself would be highly entertaining. As he walked into the club he didn’t see Howie anywhere and asked one of the bartenders where he went. “ HEY Fredrico, where the hell is Howie? He never leaves his club!” Kevin yelled loudly across the bar. “ He had to leave for a little bit, he went chasing someone out of here and looks like he had a fight with Jennifer. I don’t know where he is!” Kevin should have known that Fredrico of all people would not know where Howie was. Kevin searched for AJ too, he was probably up in the DJ booth across the club, and it would be awhile before Kevin could make his way through the club to get over there. Right now, he was just going to enjoy himself. “Dance With Me” from 112 started to blare from the speakers as Kevin made his way onto the dance floor. A tall blond girl immediately clung to him and started to grind with him to the song. Kevin of course didn’t mind. As he was dancing with her, he noticed two girls dancing behind them. The one girl caught his eye. She was dancing seductively to the song and the curves of her body moving around lured him to her. “Excuse me” he said to the girl who quickly replied with a “Whatever” and walked away to find her next prey. Without a word Kevin placed his hand on the girl’s hips as he grinded with her to the music. Katrina looked at Rhonda’s reaction and almost immediately guessed who it was. She was quite excited, but knew that she needed to maintain her cool to get what she wanted. The man of her dreams was standing behind her and she wasn’t going to let this moment slip away. Rhonda continued to smile as she barely could dance. She swayed slightly and kept her eyes on Kevin. She couldn’t believe it. He was gorgeous, his green eyes sparkling exposed by his hair in dreads and his muscular body accented by a white tank top and leather pants. As they moved Kevin slid his hands up and down Katrina’s thighs with the rhythm of their two bodies grinding against one another. Katrina leaned back into Kevin, letting his muscular chest press tightly against her back. As Kevin swayed his hips and Katrina rolled her back, she felt his manhood brushing the back of her legs. She bit her lip, trying not to let out a moan. She couldn’t believe what was happening and loved every sensation she was feeling. “AJ’s a great DJ, isn’t he?” Kevin yelled loudly to Rhonda, trying to get her to snap out of her trance. “AJ?” Rhonda asked. “Yeah, he’s the guest DJ tonight!” Kevin and Katrina both laughed as the watched Rhonda move through the crowd, shoving people out of her way to get close to the DJ booth. “Hey girl, I’m Kevin by the way” he said to Katrina. “Yeah, hi, nice to meet you, I’m Katrina.” She said smiling. Kevin leaned into her once more, his lips only inches away from her. “I know a place where we can be alone.” Kevin said, his deep voice vibrating in Katrina’s ear. Before she could even reply Kevin grabbed Katrina’s hand and started to lead her up to Howie’s private VIP room. “Wait here a minute, I want to make sure we don’t interrupt anyone” Kevin said before bringing Katrina’s hand up to his lips and brushing them against her. Her knees almost gave out as he released her hand and stared up the steps. |
