I'm bi-polar, which basically means that I am depressed, and really moody..and my moods can change dramatically in an instant....
I have suffered from depression since I was 13.
At the age of 13 I started having terrible occurences of thoughts of suicide. I felt that I was stupid, and worthless, and that I didnt deserve to live. Then I started cutting. I used anything I would find.Usually my choice was razorblades.
When I needed to release anger, hurt, sadness, or other emotions that I could not express, I cut. I cut everywhere from my arms, to legs, stomach, ankles, and sides. I went on cutting off and on until this year. I have been about 2 months without touching a razorblade.
My freshman year of highschool [last year] was when I decided that I needed to get help. But only after the counselors found out about my cutting from a teacher. At first I denied it all, and told them that I was ok. But then I came to the realization that I wasn't.
So, I talked to a Shrink who came into the school to see me. He suggested i started therapy as soon as possible, and so I did. I have been in and out of therapy since then.
If there is anyone out there who is going thru what i have been thru, or something like it, and ever needs someone to talk to, send me a message! I will be here for anyone who needs help! =)
~Rachel