Beloved
FALLING INTO DARKNESS...
FALLING UNTIL THE FLESH AND THE SOUL START MELTING... AND NOW ON
THIS PAGE...
YES... THE SOUL... AND THE FLESH... DOWN TO THE LAST STRAND OF HAIR
FALLING... FALLING TOGETHER WITH THAT PERSON... DYED IN THE COLOUR
OF SIN
THAT IS ALL I DESIRE...
BECAUSE ALL OF ME BELONGS TO THAT PERSON...
ME - I DON'T NEED MYSELF.... !
MAD HATTER, ANGEL SANCTUARY
The room was cold and dark, there was little heat left in it. It had been abandoned for days; he could see that now. He pulled his coat tighter about his narrow shoulders and resolved to wait.The artificial light was fading over the buildings at the edge of the colony, where it's horizons rose to form a dome, part of him wanted to turn on the light, part of him wanted to open the window to the cool spring night, but he didn't. He stood by the window and waited.
When the door opened, he turned, caught unawares simply because he was on edge waiting. "You came." He said to the figure in the doorway.
"Zutto.1" The figure answered, crossing the floorboards with quick purposeful steps. "Saiai. 2"
Duo tasted the words, saiai, beloved. It made his heart hammer in his chest, it made his breath quicken and the sweat bead on his skin. There was no word in the world with the power of that one, beloved, the one I love. He repeated the word, "beloved," he said to the mouth that pressed against his own, "mine." The kiss when it came was violent, crushing their mouths together hard, lips mashing and teeth colliding, tongues slithering out to touch. "I missed you." Duo breathed into his hair, against his ear when they finally pulled apart for air, "I missed you so much."
"Hai, omae mo.3" He was answered, they both spoke both languages, but when they were together there wasn't enough thought between them
to manage one or the other, they spoke their native language and
knew the other understood. When they were together like this
language was unimportant, it was touch, and taste and smell that
mattered. This was beyond love, this was beyond lust, this was flesh
meeting flesh and being home. There was no place that Duo felt safer
than here, in these abandoned rooms, with him. With this boy who
could kill him so easily, this boy he loved. What words there were
between them were short, never promises, never denials, only
emphatic demands. This was a time for flesh.
"Kiss me." Duo murmured, and he did. He kissed like he was drowning,
like Duo was the only thing that could give him life, like he could
crawl inside his mouth and live within him, and Duo kissed back
welcoming that need, that love that transcended flesh, that
transcended time. This passion, this, he wanted it.
Duo's hands were rubbing his back, pushing the fabric of his vest up
away from his skin, to feel the heat of his skin, the curve of his
spine. Heero reacted with equal urgency, his hands at Duo's
shoulders, pushing away the thin jacket, the cold forgotten against
the heat of his breath against his breath, and his skin against
Heero's skin. "God, I want you," Duo murmured.
"Omae wa kimi no mono desu. 4" Heero muttered, "nugu 5" And Duo
obliged him, cross his hands in front of his waist and pulling his
white jersey over his head in a single fluid emotion to reveal his
chest. Heero descended like he was starving, his mouth everywhere.
"I wanna see you too." Duo whined, tugging at the fabric of Heero's
shirt, trying to pull it up, but Heero's demanding mouth was making
it hard to think, and to pull the fabric up between them.
"Mochiron. 6" Heero ripped the vest away, throwing it away to land
in a heap on the floor, before returning his wonderful mouth, his
blessed hands and his scalding breath. His hands were in Duo's hair
pulling it free so it fell like a curtain down his back "utsukushii.
7" He pulled just enough to pull Duo's head back, before plunging
his tongue inside. It was always like this the first time, there
would be time for exploration later, but for now there was this
ravening, this hunger that could drive them mad. Duo angled them so
that when Heero pushed him back, as he would invariably, he would
hit the bed.
Heero had opened his eyes and found Duo's, long lingering pools of a
rich and maddening blue, his arms tightened and Duo didn't care
about anything but the feel of Heero's arms, the colour of his eyes,
the sweetness of his breath, until all he knew was the arms holding
him, the hunger of the mouth on his, the hardness of Heero's body
against his own, and a dizzying, suffocating need. He didn't know
when Heero started to walk them back towards the bed.
The bed reached up to accept them, Heero fumbled with the button on
his pants before simply ripping it open, letting the button skitter
off into the room, and then he yanked the pants down, his own giving
way to Duo's demanding fingers. There was the popping of a tube and
then Duo cried out as he opened himself eagerly, the fingers cold
and slick with the lube, stretching him quickly, efficiently, almost
to the point of pain. Even half mad with desire, Heero always took
care never to hurt him. Duo was arching, pushing back onto those
fingers, and almost cried out when Heero took them away, then felt
his rigid cock, seek and then find. Duo cried out then.
Fiercely, almost desperately, Heero plunged into him, as though to
convince himself that Duo was here, that nothing else mattered, that
he did not have to hold back. Duo lifted to every thrust, drawing
him in, wanting this as much as Heero did. It was always like this
the first time.
He drew back and plunged again, feeling the tension coil within his
belly, tighten in his balls. Urged by the excitement of Duo's
demands for harder, more and the reckless delight of giving in
entirely to the force of this passion between them he rode Duo hard,
clutching at his erection with a hand still slick, arching to guide
the pressure of his movement.
The sensations within Duo went beyond the push and pull within him.
Every time he was filled there was nothing in his world but Heero,
his nerves, muscles and sinew were filled with Heero. He was
mounting and the desire was spiralling out of control, he wanted it
to end, he wanted it never to end and wrapped his legs about Heero
to pull him deeper, to force him to go faster. Heero came with a
grunt that was almost a scream, a shuddering eruption that made his
hips buck and snap and Duo rose to meet him, pushing the head of
Heero's cock against his sweet spot and he came hard.
When the world began to make sense to Duo again Heero was wiping him
down with a damp cloth. "Kimi wa kizetsu surumashita.8" He said with
a smile. It was such a warm and loving smile that Duo had to kiss
it. "Aishiteru. 9" Heero murmured into his lips.
"Love you too." Duo answered. The kisses this time were slow and
languorous, Duo explored Heero, the maddening hunger sated for now,
the curve of his lips, the roof of his mouth, and under his tongue.
His lips traced the line of his jaw, found the lobe of his ear, and
tugged on it lightly with his teeth.
"Ijimeru 10" Heero laughed into Duo's hair as Duo covered Heero's
throat in biting, licking, hot wet kisses. Hearing that laugh Duo
buried his face in the skin and sucked warmth to the surface,
panting, he backed off and looked at the red mark he had made.
Heero ran his hand the length of Duo's body, feeling the ridges of
his ribs, the slight dip of his waist, the smooth curve of his hip
and the taut muscle of his thigh. Duo quivered under his touch, as
eager as he had been the very first time they had made love. His
hand brushed the dark blonde curls of his pubic hair, and across his
stomach to the pebbled nub of his nipple as Duo moaned. He kissed
the bullet wound on his shoulder before he sucked the nipple into
his mouth.
He found his ear, and his warm breath caused Duo to buck as his
finger twisted the nipple hard, with the ease of practise he found
the tender spots in Duo's throat that caused him to squirm so
delightfully. Duo brought his hand to Heero's head, and Heero turned
to kiss the palm, before returning his attention to the bobbing of
the adam's apple before him.
Heero wanted all of him, he wanted to devour him whole and reached
up and kissed him again, slipping his tongue into Duo's mouth before
coaxing Duo's into his own mouth where he could suckle it.
His hand ran over his stomach, his hip, his leg and then reached for
the smooth skin of his inner thigh. The firm muscles rippled and
tensed for a moment, then he separated his legs. He cupped his hand
over the top of Duo's straining arousal and felt the warmth and the
wetness, the answering jolt in his groin caught him unawares and he
gasped.
His mouth left Duo's and circled his stomach making arcane designs
with his tongue and dipping into his navel as Duo arched and
squirmed. He kissed the thin dusting of hairs that ran to Duo's
navel, and then opening his mouth he swallowed the head of his
erection.
Duo sprang up with a cry that might have been yes, or god, Heero
wasn't really listening any more, he just loved to hear Duo, it
didn't matter what he said. His own erection was throbbing eagerly
between his legs, he ran his tongue the length of Duo's and took a
long loving taste. Duo could not understand what he was saying
himself as Heero explored every vein and every ridge.
Heero concentrated on Duo to keep his own desire reined, suckling on
the head as he flicked his tongue along the slit firmly and rapidly.
He slipped two fingers inside and reached up, pressing against his
sweet spot. Duo screamed. "Oh dear god, please." He moaned, "please."
Heero was on his knees, he slid Duo's knees over his shoulders and
slid into the demanding heat with a cry. He drew back and slid in
again, Duo crossed his shins to pull him deeper, his hands on
Heero's arms, his back arched as Heero slid into him, still slick
from the previous time they had made love. He used his position to
pull himself so that he was chest to chest with Heero, causing his
cock to rub against his sweet spot, his face contorted in a gasp and
then he kissed Heero as they rocked together. "Saiai," Heero gasped
into his mouth as they kissed.
"Beloved," Duo repeated, casting his head back, it felt so
wonderful, so very good, so impossibly good. Heero's lips moved
across his neck, his teeth scraping his mouth sucking hard. He moved
Heero's hand to his erection, "Beloved," Duo gasped again, "I'm
gonna."
"surumasu yo, 11" Heero grunted.
Duo came in an explosion of bright colours, his head cast back and
his back arching. Heero fought for control as the wonderfully tight
passage he was buried in got tighter and undulated around him, but
combined with the sight and sound of Duo coming in front of him he
came in a shuddering rush and a cry.
They lay together, wrapped in each other's arms, gasping, panting,
covered in sweat and semen. "Love you," Duo murmured, "we have to
stop meeting like this." He laughed.
"Doushite ka 12" Heero answered.
"Because I want to show you off." Duo answered, pushing a dark brown
bang out of Heero's impossibly blue eyes. "I want to tell the
scientists we're together."
Heero's face tightened. "Baka. 13" He said, although it was sadly.
"I know," Duo said clinging to him, "they'd just use it against us,
and if they didn't Oz would." He kissed the perfect curve of Heero's
ear. "Maybe after the war." He yawned. "I feel safe with you."
"Shirimasu. 14" Heero answered, curling into Duo's arms whilst being
careful not to lie on his hair. "saiai no nemumasu 15" and Duo did
knowing that Heero would be there when he woke.
Author's Note:
I always put a note at the bottom. In this case I would like to
apologise for Heero's lousy Japanese, this was worked out with a
crib sheet on particles, a basic knowledge of grammar and a really
good dictionary, so if any of it's wrong, tell me and I'll correct
it gladly. I just liked the idea that he became so enflamed he
forgot English. I got the basic idea from a WK side b fiction I
wrote and was inspired by Lollipop by Clarysage.
1- Zutto - always
2- Saiai - beloved
3- Hai, omae mo - yes, me too
4- Omae wa kimi no mono desu - I'm yours (well I belong to you
am) Normally this would be abbreviated to kimi no, yours, but I like
the full exclamation, I belong to you.
5- nugu - take it off
6- Mochiron - of course
7- utsukushii - beautiful
8- Kimi wa kizetsu surumashita - you fainted.
9- Aishiteru - love you
10- Ijimeru - tease
11- Surumasu yo- do it
12- Doushite ka - why? (Ka is the particle that indicates
something is a question)
13- Baka - idiot
14- Shirimasu - I know
15- saiai no nemumasu- sleep my beloved
Saiai vs itooshii - according to the Websters Japanese - English -
Japanese dictionary itooshii means "dear, beloved" but saiai
means "dearest, beloved" so as i understand it itooshii is like
calling someone love, but saiai is calling someone beloved. And its
a prettier word.
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