Someone called me a vindictive bitch the other day, funny isn’t it!! Never thought I’d  hear that, maybe you are rubbing off on me.

Or maybe the damage you’ve done has just become too much for me, and I’ve lost faith in everything.

 

At present, my toughest battle is flashbacks, they’re haunting me …  and they take so much out of me I lose all my strength.

I’ll start with one that’s riding me!

The night I lost my boy…. You were screwing someone weren’t you!!?  I remember thinking it at the time, then thinking who would have you!!... Now and then it crosses my mind, but you would bare face lie anyway, to cover your bare face lie.  It sickens me, that night, its something I will never get over, and you as many other things are responsible for that.!!!!

 

I know I have power, I’m just not low enough to use it, but I’m getting there.