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@ dec
Mon. 30.12.2002 
Channel 10 News
I'm back. Unfortunetly, I didn't get to do much in Adelaide... I suppose a little time was wasted then. Annie was right, 2 novels weren't enough. Haruki Murakami's Norwegian Wood was good, although who would have though Japan in the late 60's would have so much sex and Americana?! Not too descriptive and nicely narrated. In Adelaide, very few things felt even faintly familiar. I suppose, I've moved away from there for like 8 years. Mostly just stayed at home. Probably will now spend New Years at home with just brother...
Tue. 24.12.2002 BoA - Beside You -Boku wo Yobu Koe-
Tomorrow's Christmas! Merry Christmas and I'll be back before the New Year! 
Tomorrow evening starts the Adelaide trip... bai bai for at least 5 days.
Sun. 22.12.2002 Ashanti - Rescue Me
In less than 3hrs the lines close. At least, I know now I am not the only person contemplating between a scholarship and a "dream course". I'm secretly hoping that I'll get Comm/Sci at Melb Uni instead of Pharmacy at Monash. Looking back, I seem to have some sort of clingly affiliation with Monash, eg.
2000: Selected to go to the Monash Unisys IT Summer School
2001: As part of my ICT Fellowship, worked at Monash for a fortnight
2002: Recieved Monash Scholarship beginning 2003
So you see, even when I'm 65 years old, I'll probably be awarded some research grant, but has to be only at Monash... 
Despite knowing the Monash surroundings much better, I feel more in a comfort zone with Melbourne. Despite my immediate friendship group being all scattered to different Universities, Melbourne just feels a little bit more safe. Despite, so many things, Melbourne just seems better. I just fear that by being seduced with $3000+/year will take me on the wrong path... But then again, how do I know what my dream path is? I may discover I love pharmacy, especially drug making - haha! But looking at the past evidence, the only thing I seem to win prizes for is Info Tech. So maybe choosing pharmacy is not a good idea -I'm warbling now, I should stop it...
In less than 3hrs, I will never be able to change my preferences ever again... here's to destiny...
Sat. 21.12.2002 Silence
Just when I thought all my 'worries' were over! I had been preparing my mind for Melb Uni Commerce/Science for a week and then yesterday, I recieved a Monash Scholarship!!! 
Omg, omg! I practically have no idea what to do now! Actually I do... I'm going to do a very "brave" thing. I'm going to decline the scholarship offer and completely forget that I got it and go and pursue a so-called "dream course" of Engineering(IT)/Commerce or Commerce/Science. I'm too unmotivated to go to Monash Clayton (too far) and I'm scared that if I do Pharmacy I'll be bored witless (I don't have any wit already...) So bai bai scholarship... and the beautiful prestige that comes with it...
3.30pm (later): So, the money has sucked me in. I have succumbed to the rich greed of wanting money, esp. practically a 50% scholarship every year!!! So, this is my plan. Put Monash Pharmacy as my 3rd Preference even though its Clearly-in (97.8) is higher than my 2nd Preference of Comm/Sci (96.75). Therefore, it's most likely I will actually get Comm/Sci... and no scholarship. 
Tricky, isn't it?
1. 38591 Engineering(IT)/Commerce(University Of Melbourne, Parkville)
2. 38581 Commerce/Science(University Of Melbourne, Parkville)
3. 26001 Pharmacy(Monash University, Parkville)
4. 38331 Commerce/Arts(University Of Melbourne, Parkville)
5. 38471 Arts/Engineering(IT)(University Of Melbourne, Parkville)
6. 38401 Commerce(University Of Melbourne, Parkville)
7. 38021 Computer Science(University Of Melbourne, Parkville)
Hopefully, these are my final preferences...
Thu. 19.12.2002 Silence
It's hot!!! Today I went to the Melbourne Uni Course Info Day. It was nearly useless because I completely forgot to go to the commerce lecture and I know absolutely nothing about commerce. That was a complete mistake
Meanwhile, yesterday was kinda fun. It was also very hot during the day. I went to see Mr Gowans first, careers consellor. He said I could have any preference I wanted; if only he was the selection officer for Engineering(IT)/Commerce. Oh Bachelor of Science actually sounds kind of interesting now... what to choose between, Computer Science or something more medical, eg. biochem, etc. He kind of put my hopes a little bit higher. Then I went to do some Christmas shopping, so I can say I've finished that now. Just need to wrap them and write some cards!!!
On my first night outing in my life, without my parents, admittedly was very fun - in a reserved and quiet sort of way. We went to watch Spirited Away. Despite wanting to watch it for (2) years, I admit I don't really get what the hype about. But it's a good movie nonetheless We went with some MHS guys and others and D came too. Those MHS guys were kind of scaring me - they all got like 99+ O_O Arghhhhh! And they're competion too, as they also want to do Engineering(IT)! The movie ended at 9, very late for me to be in the city. So I phoned mum; I said I'd be back in a hour. Ummm... I don't think so. We went to dinner at some Pizzeria on Lygon St. One guy, Karan, who Annie has mentioned a few times, I found out was really nice. Quite socialable, relatively polite. We all started to go home at about 10-ish (?). It was very refreshing to walk in the cool city breeze at that hour. I went home late, for me it was late at about 11pm, but it was a very pleasant evening
Tue. 17.12.2002 BoA - Beside You -boku wo yobu koe-
Went to Chadstone today. Did nothing actually. Started some Christmas shopping. My real results were supposed to arrive today, where are they. Though, I know they are bad real bad. Once extra subject may have actually made the difference!!! I'm hoping since with the IT economic downturn, the ENTER scores will also downturn too! Kind of wishful thinking, in a stupid sort of way. I really, really, really want to get in to Engineering(IT)/Commerce at Melbourne now!!!
Mon. 16.12.2002 Silence + My inner screams
So the day has finally arrived. Omg, i'm silently screaming. To be honest I didn't get as high as I really, really, really wanted. But I didn't know I was aiming for over 98 until like after the whole exam process! Throughout the whole year, I was going for 96.7. Well, I got it -backwards: 97.60. Tinged with disappointment and regret, this entry is, I should have known I was going to try for Engineering(IT)/Commerce, needing score of 98.05
6.30pm (later): Omg, Hillary (L.) is on TV! No guessing needed for who got perfect dux. Can never mistake that bright yellow rain jacket! Meanwhile, ellie is still quite disappointed with her results, despite the complaining sounding quite selfish...
Sat. 14.12.2002 Savage Garden - Affirmation (Album)
I had to reluctantly refuse an offer with Dilini today. I suppose many ppl are very bored currently. No jobs, no commitments, nothing to do, influx of family friends and relatives make you really want to get of the house -without the relatives! Honestly, I'd really love to go out to the city and just do nothing with my friends... well, maybe
Current (material) object of desire: Panasonic GD88
Fri. 13.12.2002 Collin's incessant ramblings while playing Nokia Snake
Decemeber 16th looms closely. Only 2 more days. In less than 60 hours, my results may be known. It just depends on whether I am game enough to press "read". The "1 message received" will tempt me to provoke my fingers to hit that "blue line button" of my Nokia.
It has been a week since the relatives have came. In short retrospect, in 7 days, I have eaten out 6 times!!! Each time with dishes drenched in reused restaurant oil and MSG - no, not messages Very healthy.
Wed. 11.12.2002 Silence
Back from the city. It was a little boring since we just kind of went on the City Circle, spent an hour talking - or in my case, listening - over cappucino, slow walking. Argh, I can't stand walking slowly. It feels terrible. I have to end up waiting for people Another dinner at a restaurant tonight. Girth is getting wider by the second, if the phrase is right...
Mon. 9.12.2002 Kuraki Mai - Make my day
We went to buy a new VCR today because dad broke the old one - which is about 10 years old!!! It's really not worth buying a VCR now, especially with this high promoted DVD revolution. But hey, we're old-fashioned. I will now admit, I have actually never touched a DVD @ all, despite my attempts to be a technophile wannabe. I think we have exactly the same VCR as the school does. Okei, time to go to some relative of a relative's place. Oh and annie has updated her layout. Wear some shades... it's bright (on this computer, anyway)
Sun. 8.12.2002 Minuet
Collin SWALLOWED a BUTTON!!! I can't believe that. We went out to a restarant today with some unknown relatives... I'm very full now. I have a feeling I have just upped a full dress size because having just recently bought this shirt, I feel really uncomfortable in it. I have to squeeze tummy constantly to look passable Btw, nobody dare disturb me on the night of January 19th. I am going to try my utmost hardest to attempt to watch the Utada Hikaru 20dai wa IKE IKE Live Concert!!! Wow! Streamed live to my computer!
Sat. 7.12.2002 Unknown Symphony
Relatives arrived yesterday. Not sure what happens now, but have to try my utmost to be very polite - or at least not rude. Admittedly, I'm very unhappy with this new layout. So unhappy, I've already started a new one. We've changed ISPs now, so no more AOL! w00t! Hope you get better really soon Annie! Only 9 days til reults... right? scary!
Thu. 5.12.2002 Fat Joe feat. Ashanti - What's Luv
Relatives arrive tmrw I realised a few hours later after I got my learner's, I forgot to get my copy of the other book: "Getting There, from L's to P's". Now, I'm gonna have to sneak out and catch a tram to Lygon street so I can get it. Of course, I won't be bothered doing this until next week. I don't know when I'm going to start real, pratical driving, but it's going to be in the scary old car! It's also abnormally cold for Summer... Plus, staying home is making me gain more weight
Wed. 4.12.2002 Ashanti - Happy
Finally got my L's. Although, didn't go as smoothly as I had thought it'd be. I think I just passed the test - 84%. That's pretty disappionting! I also got a fine on my first day - though, not for driving but for postage. Turns out that I'd put the wrong postage, ie not enough, and now I have a fine! 
Sun. 1.12.2002 Annie's CDs to record to MD
Let's welcome the summer in with a whole new layout. Just when you thought it couldn't get any more "bluer"... I actually have an archives page too, though I do doubt anyone will want to read more. Acutually, it seems more wintery then summery. Still, I am very undecided with my course selections, I have too many fields I want to do, eg. Japanese, IT, Commerce, Health (esp Pharmacology). The maximum is 2 courses. It's kind of strange, if I get a lower or equal ENTER score of 95, I know exactly what I will do. Any higher, I'm too confused! Well, honestly, I'm really expecting to get b/w 90-96. But if I get 97, for example, I really have no idea. Should I put the course that requires 98.05 as 1st preference or a course for 96.7???
In non-future related news, I was going to go to the city today, but I was too lazy. I went on Friday, just to get the black version of that bag. Today we just went to get Collin's booklist for Melbourne high. I can't believe they have to buy 3 different sets of coloured pencils and they're all derwents too! O_O
@ nov
Thu. 28.11.2002 Silence
The new layout is pretty much complete. Life is, as usual boring. I'm going "shopping" again to go and get a new giordano bag - and this time in the Melbourne colour of black. Hey, at least it matches mores stuff!!! I've booked my driving test, the book is so boring, that I actually fell asleep while reading it. Though, I must admit I still don't know half the book.
Wed. 27.11.2002 Silence
I have been delibrately staying dormant. Oh I have plenty to say but nothing
that would be interpretable in this place. Honestly, I thought Speech Night was an absolute bore. It feels that some natural mechanisms operates as I near a departure - whether it be the end of work placement, holiday or school. I should really fight this or it will become a much, much lonelier world for me. I automatically begin to feel distanced already.
Currently, I really want to exchange this giordano bag - being a sucker for most tote bags. I should have conformed to the Melbourne standard and gotten a black one. I'll see what I can do about it
Later: Since I can't find the receipt @ all, I have decided to just purchase another one. They'll probably come in handy when we go do some holidaying soon. They fit alot of stuff!
Wed. 20.11.2002 BoA - Jewel Song
All things comes to an end - including exams It's all over! Whoo hoo. Although, I must admit I was really
expecting Japanese to be as boring as the IS exam, but I was pretty much kept busy for about over 2.5 hours of the exam - total: 3 hours. But I did do alot of staring around the room thing again. After we went to see The Bourne Identity which was actually quite interesting, though spare me the so-called love scenes. It really did slow the plot a little. I really liked the car chase bit, but I think I liked the bg music more than the actual scenes
Fri. 15.11.2002 Chemistry - It Takes Two
Can you believe my brother is currently @ a disco, right now?! I suppose that explains why I can actually use the internet. Anyway, it's just a school reunion "disco" and honestly I don't really want to go to a disco or similar... I didn't do much today, but I know the rest of my 'holidays' won't be like this. It might just be as 'busy' as last years. I'll have to take my relatives sightseeing everywhere, including interstate!!! Help!
Wow! Oricon(Japanese charts) reviewed a live Taxiride performance. I'm not a fan, but it sounds interesting. They've got these baby blue, promotional scan-radios to giveaway. Good to know an Australian band is making some impact in Japan <- sounds a little patriotic???
Thu. 14.11.2002 Chemistry - It Takes Two
Faux day 1 of my holidays Last night I stayed upto 4am looking for any sheets to throw out. I
now have a pile of study notes to "burn" measuring 2 x 1 metres in the middle of my room! These handouts orginate from not just the VCE year(2002) but from year 9(1999) too! Bai bai sheets, I will not be sad to see you go
Meanwhile, Nidhi's dad is saying an accounting job can earn about $300,000 per annum! O_O Can someone please validate this? I want to buy a good house in less than 2 years with this job, if it's true!!! Although, honestly, I don't believe it because you can become an accountant through TAFE, so...! Give me a high paying job - it's a materialistic world out here!
Wed. 13.11.2002 Silence
Omg! It's finished! It's finished! Well... actually, I have 1 more to go, but
I'm not starting to study for Japanese until the weekend! And it'll be easy, relatively, anyway. This semester's Chem exam
was so much better. I'm really hoping for an A+, regardless of leaving a
question blank and I'm destined to always answer something carelessly. In the
Info Sys exam. I was sitting there staring blankly @ the wall for over an hour.
I was so bored that I started typing out messages to myself on my graphics
calculator!!!
Mon. 11.11.2002 Silence
Whoo hoo! I am currently halfway through my exams! 2 more to go! unfortunely the
last 2 exams were absolute killers! Eg. Nidhi, who is usually so smart @ maths
(and everything else) came out crying. Obviously, not a good sign. English
Language was just as unimpressing. But I'm thankful that I'm halfway there. I
can now 'happily' chuck out all my maths and engl stuff! All that unnecessary
stuff I studied for didn't even appear on the engl exam!
Fri. 08.11.2002 Silence
Omg, that was such a good maths exam Let's just hope that what I thought I put down, I did put down.
Woot! If I did, I may even be getting nearly 100%! Wow! Unforuntely, today's
sweltering and maths is not over yet! 5 more exams to go and life will be
free~~~~~~~~!
Sun. 03.11.2002 Missy
Elliot - Work It
I guess I should really be studying right... Yeah I should be! I've done minimal
amount of work and there's less than a week to the maths exam. Help me! I should stop
gorging on junk food and keeping an online presense and actually start working!!!
@ oct
Wed. 30.10.2002 Justin Timberlake - Like I Love You
Gees, I've been d/ced 3 times in about 10 minutes. Maybe AOL is forcing me to study. It's already Wednesday. Good luck to all those who have their English exam on Friday. (8 days to first exam - maths methods)
I should really, really be studying instead of idlelessly wasting time...
