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Fri. 26.8.2005 meaningless mumurs
Currently very unhappy I'm at that stage where's it's like nearly mid-semester and I've gone astray again. I'm about 3 weeks behind in my study, despite it being week 5 already (and only) and completely sleep deprived. I still haven't stopped sleeping for an average of about 5 hours/. I realise I'm killing myself and I think I need a break, I can't help thinking that I'm going to be someone who has a mental breakdown by the age of 25 and I'm going to lose it. Worst of all, I won't really have achieved anything. That's probably the worst. What's the point of a breakdown if you haven't achieved anything special or amazing?! I'm falling apart *cries* Well, not really. I can't do that when I'm in a computer lab. Life sucks. When can I be happy again? I hate this.

I'm in some dire need of cheering up, but I don't have time for it I know, how stupid does that sound? I must rush to work soon. In all honesty, I don't mind work. It's pretty much never made me sad or whatever. Although, I hate the burden of remember to water the plants. That's about the only thing I dislike. Oh, probably my simple incompetence at many tasks would come a close second. I remember when I used to do retail at F/W and I would absolutely hate it. I would dread it, be scared of it, keep on hating the whole day ahead. Hate the lack of credibility and reputation that came with being a check-out chick, hate the monotony of the hours slowly passing through, etc. Any slight breeze would exacerbate into a bitter tonardo-like force wind and the chill that would come with it... It makes me hurt thinking about it. On the overview, customers were crap, few were accommodating, most were (sincerely) weirdos. "Big Sis" would boss me around in doing all these stupid tasks, which I always did with a happy face, while inside I was absolutely fuming with hate. Uh, strong words... The worst indecency was the pay rate.
Actually, I'm not being renumerated that highly either now, but I'm satisfied with what I'm doing and earning now. I don't even start getting depressed and envious when I see others, who are administration assistants - they're just a bloody assistant?! - recieve $20+/hr gross-pay. Sure, a higher wage would be great, but...
Omg, someone's playing Minesweeper on these computers. *types all the Windows' computer games via command line* Yes, they work! I'm going to re-ac·quaint myself with Spider solitaire now!

Sun. 21.8.2005 Destiny's Child - Hey Ladies
Been listening to some old school RnB songs recently. Went shopping with my mum today and bought a cheap button up shirt and (another!) bag, both from Duchess. God knows how many bags I own. Yes, I have a bag fetish! And am easily impressed by them too Though my tastes can get quite expensive as well! My new latest designer item on my wishlist is this! However, since I already made my mistake late last year with this brand, I don't think I shall ever attain this

Mon. 15.8.2005 ICT Computers
How much do I hate netscape? Mozilla's okay, FF is tolerable, but out of all the browsers, I hate Netscape. It has no functionality at all in this modern World Wide Web. Just wasted another weekend of being absolutely non-productive. Is kerfuffled in more detail here It's hard work keeping 2 blogs, especially harder when I have nothing of interest to report on and it's all a little self-obsessed. But then again, no one's reading and the vents I type out are really only for my own purpose.

Thu. 11.8.2005 TrINitY - Winter rain
It's been so bloody freezing cold!!! Yesterday's maximum temperature was 10.4'C! For that type of weather, the least that should have happened was snow in the CBD. That would've been so cool! I've never seen snow ever in my life. More than ever in my life, I am so relieved the weekend is just around the corner. This Monday to Friday 9-5pm is kind of killing me. Not helping is my reluctance to sleep earlier. Sorry Mr Wirth that I keep falling asleep in your lectures despite you being far from boring Luckily, Java seems like it's pretty easy to pick up.
Hunger cravings are really starting to kick in. Very strange... It's not like I'm on any new oral prescription product This week I bought a cafe chocolate yo-yo biscuit and some McDonald's French Fries. Bad girl... Oh, I also bought some cheap makeup set that I will probably never use. *sigh*

Fri. 5.8.2005 Air Conditioner of ICT-UG09
I wonder how I am going to survive this semester. I haven't adjusted my personal clock yet, so I'm still sleeping at around 1-2am every night, despite having to get up between 7-8 on most mornings. Plus, if I'm not at uni, I'm working. They are the only things that preoccupy my life and I think they are preoccupying a quite large percentage of it. I have pretty much no time for myself, unless I sacrifice sleep, which is what I have been doing for the past few weeks. Went out to dinner with the Accounting group bar one add a Sri Lankan Club member random. I just saw A when I was coming down the stairs after my oh-so-late 4-5pm tute and he said he was having dinner. Since I haven't gone out for what seems like ages, I decided to tag along . Keke! Plus, I had never had Malay cusine before. We went to Chilli Padi, a cute little resturant/cafe behind Melbourne Central. As I was severely lacking in funds, I choose the cheapest actual meal - a Chicken Laksa. *Phew* $8 was pretty much all I had left in my purse.
In regards to studying, I'm slipping up again. I haven't studied for the previous 2 nights. Just been foruming NG! Luckily, I followed that reading for a few weeks in advance tip or I would be having even more trouble! Will have to get back into the pre-reading and notes-writing tonight after work! It's an imperative!!!
Work... nooo! It's not that I don't 'enjoy' work, but I just seem to be wasting a whole heap of time there sometimes. Especially when I have morning "shifts". I've been too tired recently to be productive and only start doing the bulk of my work (and effeciently) in around the afternoon I am not a worthy employee sometimes Actually, I really want to get one less "shift" sometimes, not as in an every week occurance, but more like once or twice a month.

Sorry for that mainly rantful entry. However, then again, as if you read this anyway!

@ jul
Sun. 31.7.2005 Heartsdales - Heartsdales DJ Boss Super Mega-Mix
Whoo hoo! 1 more stamp and I finally will finish off a loyalty card program and get a free Lucky Cup
I wonder if anyone even reads this anymore??? Ah well, I'm happy rambling off nonsense to myself

Sat. 30.7.2005 m-flo loves Emyli & Yoshika - Loop In My Heart
Bwhahahaha, this has got to be the funniest show ever: We Can Be Heroes Especially Chris Lilley's Ricky Wong character! He uses the Singaporean Chinese accent and he does it well
On channel ABC, Wednesday 9pm. Watch it!

Thu. 28.7.2005 Hot 97 Radio (Online)
The first week of uni has gone by so quickly. Plus, first week back and I have already managed to fall asleep twice in lecutres Nidhi is in one of my subject lectures

Sun. 24.7.2005 Mariah Carey - Stay The Night
Woah, I've had Yum Cha twice within 7 days! Wow... as if I'm not fat enough. I can't believe uni starts yet again! The holidays have just flew by so fast and I have hardly done anything that I was supposed. Now, for how many months have I been saying I need to go the hairdressers and let them do something with my hair?! Probably something like 3 years Finally went to Smith Street with my mum. Didn't return home with many purchases since most of the stores were sport-clothing related. Did get 3 tops from Table Eight, but that's it.
Well, uni tomorrow. I am sooooo not in uni mode!

Thu. 21.7.2005 Hi-D & Twigy - Love or Hate(Album)
Only a few days left before these holidays finish My new timetable is okay, but strangely, I seem to have more contact hours than previous I haven't had a full 16 hour timetable for a while. It will be fun to juggle work with that

Wed. 13.7.2005 Amuro Namie - Queen of Hip-Pop (Album)
My, my, how fast time goes! It's already the 3rd to 4th week into the holidays, meaning only a week left until uni starts again. I really don't think I'm going to make change of layout for this thing Went out with Annie & Ami to an interesting little place called Moroccan Soup Bar For a Tuesday night, it was suprisingly quite busy and the food was definately different - in a good way of course I've never, ever had Moroccan food before and the tastes were all new to me! It's fun to try something new Following on with trying new things, after a short, cold stroll, we caught a tram to play DDR at Crown Yes, that Asian dancing game! I'm so crap at it, I don't understand how those people can play so well Btw, my feet still hurt from stomping overly hard on the arrowed platforsm

Mon. 11.7.2005 Silence
2am: Came back from the Pancake Parlour with my accounting friends a few hours ago. Yea, I'll think that's what I'll designate them as; my "accounting friends" Haven't been to that place in ages, the last time I went was in grade six and that was only because I got a free food voucher from the school. Started the night off in the city to meet up with my "chaffeur" - since I can't drive. It's amazing how many Asians there are in the city on a Sunday evening. Even Safeway is 95% Asian It feels like I'm in Honkie or something... So, so, so weird...
And then we were off to the 24 hour opening Doncaster Pancake Parlour. Yes, 24 hours?! Seriously, do people get like cravings in the night and feel like, ooh, I want pancakes?! The pancakes were very sweet there, although one day I'd like to try one of the savory ones. Stayed there for about 3 hours, mainly talking. Well, of course, not me mainly talking, since I usually just listen. I never have anything of substance to contribute Overall, a pleasant night out

Sat. 9.7.2005 Nivea - Don't Mess With My Man
Ooh, I haven't heard this song in ages!
Whooooo hoo, I passed all my subjects. Nothing spectacular but I can sleep easy now

Sun. 3.7.2005 Amuro Namie - WoWa (Preview)
Woah, it's already July?! So, what have I done in the past week? Spend, spend, spend, went to a Connex & Melbourne Museum Mummies function and have gotten sick. Still sick, right now. Actually, it got really bad yesterday. There was me gloating on about how I was the least affected in the family and wham, I got a major headache and a very heavy cough. Boo~!
The Mummies function was fun. Went with my mum and we had some yummy finger food. It was funny watching mass hordes of seemingly civilised people chase the caterers each time food came out, especially the fish and chips. However, in an hour's time, no one could care less about them anymore After that, we went and saw the Mummies Exhibition. That was boring, I seriously would not pay the entry fee of $16 to look at that Next up was an IMAX movie. Haven't been to IMAX for ages; got dizzy because the filming was going too fast.

@ jun
Sat. 25.6.2005 Hinouchi Emi - Painful
Woah, have I done my part for capitalism and materialism! In the space of 1 month, I am now the proud owner of 2 pea coats As if I don't have enough coats already. Plus, it's not like I've been just bought those two items, yep, I've been spending it big *hangs head in shame* And I don't plan to stopping soon.
On another note, I suppose this is what you call revenge

Mon. 20.6.2005 double - Rollin' On
Okay, in 2 days this will all be over. I don't have to think about centralised bus arbitration systems and whatnot forever! What use are they to me anyway? I am a software engineering student, not a hardware, nor an electrical engineering student. Pfft. I (am apparently supposed to) design software, code, test and document them, not look after the hardware they run on.
I look forward to days of sleeping in, trying to get healthy (not), going out, working (sometimes ), shopping (!!!) and just not thinking about uni in general. I can't wait!
Oh, and I really need to change this layout. Gotta get rid of these frames and go back to the 1 page blog style.
Edit: Just fixed up many grammatical and spelling errors This is what happens when you don't proofread before clicking "Save".

Fri. 17.6.2005 Hot97 (Radio)
One more to go! Then it's all going to be over... for a month or so; yay!

Thu. 16.6.2005 DJ Hazime feat. Dabo, Suiken, K-Bob - Return of the Channel 5
Okay, I'm officially half way now. I had my 2nd exam today and my next one tomorrow. Right now, I still don't know anything for it, but I'm so tired. I slept like 5 hours last night, not good! Can't wait till the weekend, even if it means 5 full days of pure cramming - though, no doubt 90% procrastination! I need sleep man... I actually tried a can of V today just to see if it had any effect. I don't think so

Tue. 14.6.2005 Fox FM (Radio)
I'm typing this with socks on my fingers and hands. Believe it or not my accuracy isn't that bad. Why have got socks on my hands? I'm cold and I can't find gloves Finished one exam. I so stuffed that up, I left so many things unanswered and the stuff that I did answer I just totally bluffed. Please let me pass, I can't afford to fail!

Sat. 11.6.2005 Craig David - Fill Me In
And so the procrastination continues... I can't wait till all this is over. Sorry, for sounding like a typical ditz, but all I wanna do now is go shopping! I'm going very bad this semester. Just got my results back for a programming subject. Not good, not good. Not making it any better by not studying.
I nearly forgot tomorrow was my birthday

Sat. 4.6.2005 TLC - Kick Your Game
And hence continues the procrastination and my path towards failing. Please motivate me!

Thu. 2.6.2005 Gladys Knight - Do You Really Want to Know (What Makes Me Fall in Love)
Here starts another new season. One day I will change this blog layout. One day I will move from geocities... Um, 10 days to go and I still haven't started studying - I am so stuffed!

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