Tra'i Tim Ba(`ng Go^~   (KhueKhue)


         Thu`y Ly quen vo*'i ha('n la^u ro^`i, tu*` khi Ly ba('t dda^`u na(m dda^`u tie^n cu?a dda.i ho.c. Tuy hai ddu*'a ho.c chung mo^.t lo*'p French nhu*ng khoa?ng ga^`n cuo^'i mu`a (semester) Ly va` ha('n mo*'i no'i chuye^.n vo*'i nhau trong mo^.t di.p, kho^ng, pha?i no'i la` trong mo^.t tai na.n ti`nh co*` mo*'i ddu'ng. Ho^m ddo' so*. tre^~ ho.c, Ly pho'ng xe nhanh ho*n thu*o*`ng le^. ne^n "ddu*o*.c" ca?nh sa't giao tho^ng tha^n thie^.n mo*`i du*`ng la.i no'i chuye^.n; ba'o ha.i Ly bi. tre^~ lo*'p review for French test. Ly pha?i to*'i mu*o*.n ba`i cu?a ha('n, mo^.t ho.c sinh sie^ng na(ng chu*a bao gio*` bo? mo^.t lo*'p ho.c na`o; ddo' la` ta^'t ca? nhu*~ng gi` Ly bie^'t ve^` Phi (te^n ha('n). Ly co`n nho*' lu'c a^'y tha^.t la` bu*.c mi`nh, ddu*'ng ngoa`i cu*?a cho*` ha('n ra dde^? mu*o*.n notes.
         "Con trai gi` ma` la^u la('c the^' kho^ng bie^'t" Ly la^`m ba^`m so^'t ruo^.t nhi`n ha('n tu*` tu*` xe^'p vo*?, sa'ch, tha'o kie^'ng ca^.n xuo^'ng lau lau ro^`i ca^'t va`o ca(.p cu`ng vo*'i bu't, ta^?y. Bao gio*` ha('n cu~ng la` ngu*o*`i ra sau cu`ng. Ngo* nga'c va` thoa'ng chu't bo^'i ro^'i trong ma('t ha('n khi tha^'y Ly cha(.n ddu*o*`ng vo*'i nu. cu*o*`i dda(`m tha('m tre^n mo^i.
         "Xin lo^~i, ba.n co' the^? cho to^i ho?i mo^.t chu't ddu*o*.c kho^ng ?" Ly ca^'t lo*`i.
         "Co^... co^ cu*' ho?i ddi" ha('n lu'ng tu'ng.
         Nhi`n ne't ma(.t cu?a ha('n, Ly cho*.t tha^'y buo^`n cu*o*`i, nhu*ng va^~n giu*~ tha'i ddo^. di.u da`ng, Ly no'i ly' do mu*o*.n vo*? cu?a ha('n; va` khe~ kha`ng no'i ca?m o*n khi ca^`m cuo^'n vo*? ha('n tri.nh tro.ng trao. "Nhi`n la` bie^'t co^ng tu*? ... sie^ng ho.c ro^`i" Ly tha^`m nghi~ nhu* va^.y khi nga('m nhi`n quye^?n vo*? go.n ga`ng tre^n tay, ne't chu*~ tuy ddu*o*.c vie^'t vo^.i va`ng nhu*ng kho^ng thie^'u pha^`n sa.ch se~, ngay nga('n. "Cha(?ng bu` vo*'i ... ta^.p nha'p cu?a mi`nh" Ly tu*. nghi~ va` cu*o*`i khi`.
         Ly quen vo*'i ha('n tu*` dda^'y. Hai ddu*'a ga(.p nhau cu~ng cha(?ng no'i chuye^.n gi` nhie^`u ngoa.i tru*` trao ddo^?i chuye^.n ba`i vo*?, tho*`i tie^'t khi ga(.p trong lo*'p. Tha^.t ra, Ly hay tha^'y ha('n trong thu* vie^.n cu?a tru*o*`ng. Cho^~ ngo^`i cu?a ha('n (ve^` sau na`y Ly mo*'i dde^? y') luo^n luo^n la` phi'a ba`n go'c tra'i trong lounge cu?a thu* vie^.n. Co`n cho^~ cu?a Ly ? Dda so^' la` tru*o*'c ma(.t ca'i computer trong computer lab cu~ng trong thu* vie^.n. Ly me^ internet la. lu`ng. Bao gio*` he^'t lo*'p hay ra?nh, tru*o*'c he^'t Ly cu~ng ghe' tha(m ca'i ... computer dde^? check email cu?a ba.n be` phu*o*ng xa va` nha^'t la` vo^ nhu*~ng Vietnamese lines dde^? ddo.c tho*. Ly luo^n co' hu*'ng thu', va` ghie^`n ma^'y ba`i tho* de^~ thu*o*ng cu?a tuo^?i ho.c tro` hay nhu*~ng ca^u tho* ti`nh tu*' nhe. nha`ng, va` nghi.ch ngo*.m cu?a nhu*~ng thi si~ tre^n ddo'. "Ho. so^'ng o*? dda^u nhi?, tre? hay gia`, y' tho* dda^u ra ma` nhie^`u the^', hay the^' " Ly hay tu*. ho?i nhu* va^.y. Ly cu~ng dda~ thu*? ta^.p va`i la^`n ma` kho^ng ddu*o*.c, chi? to^? ga^y cu*o*`i cho ma^'y ddu*'a ba.n pha' pha'ch ... thie^'u lu*o*ng ta^m. "Ddo.c tho^i cu~ng ddu*o*.c ro^`i Ly, co' ngu*o*`i la`m tho* thi` cu~ng pha?i co' ngu*o*`i thu*o*?ng thu*'c chu*' " bo.n ba.n Linh, Le^., Giao no'i co' ve? an u?i ro^`i pha' le^n cu*o*`i nham nho*?
         Sau "thu? tu.c ddo.c tho*", Ly mo*'i vo^ lounge vu*`a a(n, vu*`a la`m ba`i, vu*`a nhi`n ra ngoa`i cu*?a so^?, nho*' la.i nhu*~ng va^`n tho* de^~ thu*o*ng ro^`i cu*o*`i mo^.t mi`nh. Ly i't khi dde^? y' xem xung quanh. Cho dde^'n mo^.t nga`y Ca^?m Le^., con ba.n thu*o*`ng ngo^`i ga^`n ba`n tie^'n la.i ga^`n nha'y Ly: "E^ nho?, co' dduo^i theo ma` kho^ng no'i cho ta bie^'t nhe' "
         "Dduo^i gi` ?" Ly ho?i nga.c nhie^n
         "Co`n gia? bo^. ?" Le^. ho?i la.i
         Ly cu*o*`i: "Gi` dda^y Le^., ta la` ngu*o*`i ma`, dda^u pha?i quy? so^'ng nhu* ma`y dda^u ma` co' dduo^i"
         Le^. cu~ng cu*o*`i: "U*`, ma`y kho^ng pha?i quy? so^'ng, ma`y la` wi? xu*' ", ro^`i no' no'i vo*'i gio.ng nghi ngo*` co^' hu*~u: "Ma`y kho^ng bie^'t thie^.t a`, ta tha^'y co' ca'i tha(`ng ngo^`i be^n da~y kia cu*' lie^'c ma`y hoa`i"
         "Va^.y sao ? Co`n ma`y thi` cu*' lie^'c no' ?" Ly gio*~n nhu*ng cu~ng nga.c nhie^n nhi`n theo hu*o*'ng ma('t cu?a Le^. va` tha^'y ha('n, "co^ng tu*? sie^ng ho.c", ddu'ng lu'c ha('n quay nhi`n le^n. Ly tha^'y hi`nh nhu* ha('n gia^.t mi`nh tru*o*'c hai ca(.p dde`n pha ddang cho`ng cho.c chie^'u va`o mi`nh ne^n ha('n vo^i cu'i xuo^'ng, ro^`i tu*` tu*` la.i lie^'c le^n, la^`n na`y ha('n mi?m cu*o*`i. Ly cu~ng cu*o*`i la.i. "Ro^`i, bi. se't dda'nh ro^`i" tie^'ng con Le^. re` re` be^n tai. Ly nhe'o no' "no'i ba^.y khong a`, ba.n cu`ng lo*'p ddo' co^ nu*o*ng." Le^. gia? bo^. tho*? da`i: "Nhu*ng ma` xui cho ha('n, thi'ch ai kho^ng thi'ch dde` ngay ngu*o*`i go^~ ma` thi'ch." Ly mi?m cu*o*`i; "ngu*o*`i go^~" la` bie^.t hie^.u ba.n be` ghe'p cho "tra'i tim kho^ng bie^'t rung ddo^.ng" cu?a Ly.
         Gio.ng Le^. chuye^?n qua so^i no^?i: "Ta tha^'y no' thi'ch ma`y thie^.t ddo' Ly, lu'c na`o ma`y vo^ ta cu~ng tha^'y no' nhi`n ma`y ... la~ng ma.n"
         "Va^.y ro^`i sao?" Gio.ng ti?nh bo* cu?a Ly la`m chi`m ngay hu*'ng thu' cu?a Le^.; no' nhi`n Ly cha(m cha(m ro^`i vo^~ va`o vai, "That's good, em. Giu*~ tra'i tim ba(`ng go^~ va^.y la` to^'t, dde^? ta coi chu*`ng na`o go^~ bi. mu.c" Ly cu*o*`i, "never mu.c honey." Le^. le^n gio.ng ngu*o*`i lo*'n: "ma`y chu*a ye^u chu*a bie^'t dda^u nho?, tha^.t to^.i nghie^.p qua' " ro^`i no' cu*o*`i cha.y ddi dde^? la.i Ly vo*'i nhu*~ng ca^u pha?n ddo^'i chu*a ki.p tho^'t ra, nga^?ng dda^`u le^n, ba^'t cho*.t la.i tha^'y mo^.t nu. cu*o*`i tu*` phi'a a^'y. Bo^'n mu`a ho.c nhu* va^.y tro^i qua cho dde^'n semester na`y Ly la.i ho.c chung la.i vo*'i Phi mo^n toa'n. La^`n na`y ha('n va` Ly ngo^`i ga^`n nhau, vo^ ti`nh hay co^' y', Ly kho^ng bie^'t. Chi? bie^'t mo^.t ddie^`u ha('n ra^'t gio?i toa'n. Ke^'t qua? ba`i kie^?m tra dda^`u tie^n ddu*o*.c pha't ra, Ly lie^'c tha^'y ha('n ddu*o*.c A - 94 ddo? cho'i co`n Ly chi? ddu*o*.c C du` hai dde^m tru*o*'c ddo' dda~ ho.c he^'t su*'c mi`nh. Ly ba('t dda^`u tha^'y ... tha^n vo*'i ha('n ho*n. Vo^ lounge kho^ng co`n ngo^`i xa nu*~a, Ly "ti`nh nguye^.n" ngo^`i ho.c chung vo*'i ha('n. Co' khi ga(.p ba`i toa'n kho', hai ddu*'a gia?i hoa`i kho^ng ra, Ly lo^i ta^.p tho* co' nhu*~ng ba`i tho* thi'ch nha^'t, Ly dda~ che'p tu*` computer xuo^'ng, ra coi ma(.c ha('n ngo^`i ddo' nha(n tra'n suy nghi~.
         "Ly ddo.c gi` the^' ?" Mo^.t la^`n ha('n khong da(`n ddu*o*.c to` mo` ho?i khi tha^'y Ly cu*' cu*o*`i mi?m luo^n. "La` tho* ddo' Phi" Ly dda'p ro^`i khoe vo*'i ha('n nhu*~ng ba`i tho* ma` Ly tha^'y hay tha^.t la` hay. Ha('n ye^n la(.ng ngo^`i nghe Ly no'i say me^ ve^` tho*, cuo^'i cu`ng mo*'i pha'n cho mo^.t ca^u: "Tho* thi` hay nhu*ng Ly ddu*`ng ddo.c nhie^`u dda^m ra la~ng ma.n, mo* mo^.ng qua', " no'i ro^`i ha('n cu'i xuo^'ng tra'nh tia nhi`n ... to'e lu*?a cu?a Ly.
         Tu*` ho^m sau Ly gia^.n do^~i kho^ng the`m ho.c chung vo*'i ha('n nu*~a, trong lo*'p cu~ng kho^ng the`m quay qua ho?i ba`i nhu* thu*o*`ng le^. nhu*~ng la^`n kho^ng hie^?u. "Cho kho^ng hie^?u luo^n," Ly nghi~ "cho ha('n ... ho^'i ha^.n." Vo^ lounge Ly ddi chung vo*'i nho'm Le^., Linh, Giao, cu*o*`i gio*~n, kho^ng the`m lie^'c mo^.t la^`n ve^` phi'a ha('n. Nhu*ng trong dduo^i ma('t, la^u la^u Ly tha^'y ha('n ngu*o*'c le^n. "Kho^ng bie^'t ha('n co' nhi`n ve^` hu*o*'ng mi`nh la^`n na`o kho^ng nhi?" Ly tha^`m ho?i va` cho*.t nho*'... mo^.t nu. cu*o*`i.
         "Che^'t ro^`i !" Ly bu*o*'c nhanh to*'i lo*'p ho^'t hoa?ng. Ho^m nay gio*` toa'n co' test ma` Ly la.i que^n mang theo ma'y ti'nh, la`m sao dda^y. Ly tu*'c mi`nh ngo^`i xuo^'ng ghe^', cha'n na?n muo^'n kho'c. Sa'ng nay dda~ bo? sa(~n ra ba`n ro^`i ma` la.i que^n; o^ng tha`y la.i kho^ng cho la`m make-up test. Ly nha^.n to*` gia^'y thi, la`m mo^.t ca'ch mie^~n cu*o*~ng, bo? ddi nhu*~ng pha^`n ca^`n ti'nh ba(`ng ma'y, toa`n la` pha^`n chi'nh la^'y ddie^?m cu?a ba`i thi. Sa('p he^'t gio*` ... Ly ra'ng ti'nh nha^?m du` bie^'t ra(`ng se~ cha(?ng ddu*o*.c bao nhie^u. Nu*o*'c ma('t tha^'t vo.ng tu*` tu*` la(n u*o*'t ba`n tay ddu*a le^n ke^ ma(.t. Cho*.t ca'i gi` cha.m nhe. tay Ly ro^`i ddu*o*.c dda(.t tre^n ba`n: ca'i ma'y ti'nh. Khe~ nhu*o*'ng ma('t le^n, qua ke~ tay, Ly tha^'y Phi ddang bu*o*'c le^n no^.p ba`i ro^`i ra kho?i lo*'p. Kho^ng suy nghi~ nhie^`u the^m, Ly ca('m cu'i nha^n chia nhu*~ng con so^' phu*'c ta.p va` xong vu*`a ddu'ng gio*` no^.p ba`i. "He^n la` tha^`y cho the^m mu*o*`i phu't ne^'u kho^ng cha('c cu~ng che^'t ddu*'ng" Ly tho*? pha`o bu*o*'c ra kho?i lo*'p. Nhi`n quanh Ly nga.c nhie^n vi` cha(?ng tha^'y da'ng Phi o*? dda^u. Ly tu*o*?ng la` Phi se~ cho*` mi`nh dde^? la^'y la.i ma'y ti'nh hay i't nha^'t cu~ng dde^? nghe mo^.t lo*`i ca?m o*n chu*'. So*` le^n ma' tha^'y la`nh la.nh nhu*~ng ve^'t le^. co`n ddo.ng la.i, Ly cho*.t vo*~ le~, Phi kho^ng muo^'n tha^'y mi`nh nga.i ngu`ng tru*o*'c ma(.t ha('n. Thu*o*`ng thu*o*`ng Phi luo^n la` ngu*o*`i ra tre^~ nha^'t, la`m ba`i xong bao gio*` ha('n cu~ng ngo^`i la.i check ba`i cho dde^'n khi he^'t gio*`. Y' nghi~ Phi vi` mi`nh cho Ly ca?m gia'c a^'m lo`ng va` ca?m ddo^.ng. Ho^m sau, Ly va^~n ngo^`i tru*o*'c computer nhu* thu*o*`ng le^. ddo.c tho* nhu*ng tu*. nhie^n Ly kho^ng tha^'y ta^.p trung ddo.c nhu* mo.i khi, cu~ng kho^ng co' hu*'ng che'p la.i. "Lo*~ ha('n ca^`n ma'y ti'nh cho lo*'p kha'c thi` sao" Ly tu*. ddu*a ra ly' do dde^? gia?i thi'ch cho vie^.c thi?nh thoa?ng nhi`n ddo^`ng ho^` cu?a mi`nh. Cho*.t tie^'ng ai no'i ga^`n be^n tai la`m Ly gia^.t mi`nh
         "Ly thi'ch ba`i tho* na`y a` ?"
         "O^` kho^ng, a` ... ma` thi'ch, a` thi'ch chu*' " Ly lu'ng tu'ng nhi`n le^n
         Phi cu*o*`i: "ta.i na~y gio*` tha^'y Ly chi? xem ba`i na`y tho^i"
         Ly ca?m tha^'y nong no'ng o*? no*i ma': "Phi dde^'n la^u ro^`i a`?"
         Phi dda'p "Cu~ng mo*'i tho^i, Phi co' cha`o ma` Ly kho^ng nghe. Phi cu~ng thi'ch tho* cu?a ½ Linh Ho^`n."
         "U?a, Phi cu~ng co' ddo.c tho* ha? ?" Ly nga.c nhie^n.
         "Tu*` bu*~a Ly no'i vo*'i Phi ve^` tho* va` chi? Phi ma^'y ca'i web sites dde^? xem tho* ddo', Phi co' dde^'n xem ma^'y la^`n ma` Phi kho^ng co' kie^n nha^~n dde^? ddo.c he^'t, nhie^`u qua', hay la` Ly tha^'y ba`i na`o hay thi` chi? cho Phi ha" Phi no'i
         Ly, dda~ la^'y la.i ve? tu*. nhie^n, ba^.t cu*o*`i: "Ok, va^.y thi` Phi chi? Ly toa'n co`n Ly se~ chi? Phi tho* nhe'"
         Phi cu~ng ba^.t cu*o*`i theo, Ly cho*.t nha^.n ra nu. cu*o*`i cu?a Phi tha^.t tu*o*i ho*n mo.i nga`y; va` hi`nh nhu* "tim go^~" cu?a Ly dda~ mu.c ra mo^.t ti', chi? mo^.t ti' tho^i.

KhueKhue
Nov 23, 98